Thursday, April 03, 2008
So ym day starts off as usual. Wake up at 730 to go to the gym with my sister and amy, get out of bed dont really do anything. Then My brother tells me that my brother in law roled my sisters car thatmy parents gave them like maybe 2 weeks ago. I understand accidents happen, but they JUST got that car. and they didnt have coverage on it for when you hit something, just really basic coverage.
Now they have a ticket from the police, a car thats un driveable and unfixable, towing fee, and storage fee at the tow company.
The worst part is they are trying so hard to get out of debt and get their lives okay, and now thats not possible for a while....
Also 2 days ago my great grandma broke her hip. she is okay, but we werent sure originalyl if she was goign to amke it through surgery.
I picked the wrong week to quit smoking...
Anyways I still havent smoked and day 5 is almost half over. And now I am goign to the gym and im going tow ork off my frustration in a good way and I'm not going to buy a cigar either, elthough I do really want one.
Wednesday, April 02, 2008
BRAIN FOUND. not sure where it got too, but it has made ita way back to its rightfull owner. I havent cried since I got to work, I havent wanted a smoke since i started working. Chewed some gum, ate a salad (wierd... i havent eaten salad in a long time!!!)
I brought smokes with me and i carry one outside every now and then and pretend i will have one and just chew gum. I find i need the smokes less when i have themthan when i dont. So i grabbed a pull pack from ym mom and i will return them tonight with the 20 smokes it came with.
I am kinda proud of me. Granted the cigars werent smart but hey live and learn. I am kinda burnt from going tanning though.
Wednesday, April 02, 2008
LOST: mind, belonging to Kayla, if found please return to rightful owner.
Soooooo I need to write. I am crying, not for any real reason, but because i am stressed for no reason and want a smoke.
Heres my today, went to the gym, did the owkrout i did with my trainer yesterday it was great, went to my friends in laws and swam in their pool, they fed us lunch, and my sister and i went to the hospital to me our friends newborn baby named Alden (sp?) born at 10:30pm April 1st. 7 lbs 10 ounces. Then we were on our way home and i got really upset for no real reason and started feelign sorry for myself.
Then I got home, and as much as i want to smoke, i dont want to start over on day 5 so im not having one. But I hit my hand on a chair and it hurt and i wanted to sit on the floor and cry.
Its not normal and i dont liek this new emotional me, hopefully she is gone soon when the smokign cravings go away. Plus I'm not tanned and I want to be tanned and I want to go today but i havent got that far yet cause i am a basketcase.
Tuesday, April 01, 2008
Well as MISSTRESSANE is so dying to know how my first day of personal trainign went here it is.
I am sore. I hurt in ways I've never hurt, I did excersizes i never knew could be done, and i got pushed to do them, so I did. I seriously cans till barely walk haha my legs are soo sore. And my upper body, and my abs.
Omg I seriously think that my trainer is the devil in disguise, but apparently I did fairly good today and im not as bad as i thought I was. I even lost 2 lbs so now im 204.4 (i know my ticker says i started at 204 but i was wrong it was 206.4 haha)
And that 2 lbs is on top of my size loss so i feel extra great. Plus I went tanning too :D
Overall I think the personal training will be well worth it and its going to kick me in the @$$ for the first little bit but i will get better!!!!
Tuesday, April 01, 2008
NEW MONTH, NEW DAY
so I woke up this morning, wanted a smoke, said no I did not need one, jumped on SP and Had a bunch of encouraging comments on my blog, which made me feel great! Thank you all soo much for the support and motivation you give me to proceed even when i slipped up.
Today Is my first day with my personal trainer and I am excited. I am still kinda sore from yesterday (But in a good way) and last night I noticed something totally amazing. I was wearing a tank top like I usually do, and I looked in the mirror and it looked kinda funny to me under my boobs. So I lifted me shirt and realized that while I have really lost weight, I have lost enough size from my rib cage up, that I can partially SEE my ribs!!! This is a huge accomplishment for me and i am so very excited to continue on and go until I can see more progress.
I just cant believe the progress I've made already.
And in case anyone wants to know, the reason I had 2 cigars last night was because my and my best guy friend called it quits on our friendship. That stressed me out ALOT seeing as we have been through a lot, and then people just werent making it easy on me (or at least not in my head)
But I had some great support and now I'm ready for a new month, new day, new me.
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