Tuesday, February 28, 2012
I'm not even really sure I actually had one, now. You know how your body needs days off of exercising to rebuild muscle and come back stronger? I think that's what my mind needs from thinking so hard about all of this. A day or two to just... live my life and not think about food or fitness. Hopefully it will restore me, and not be the straw that breaks the camel's back.
Tuesday, February 28, 2012
Life is like a roller coaster ride, isn't it? Climbing hills followed by weightless free falls.
I had a soda last night and it didn't even taste good to me. I didn't want to finish it, and I didn't. It was a low-calorie soda, too. I had another one a few days ago and was surprised at how much better it tasted than I used to remember low calorie sodas doing. Usually I can never drink anything but full calorie soda. I can only imagine how nasty that would probably taste to me now.
I was really craving a fast food cheeseburger last night, but I didn't mention it to my husband. I told him I had defrosted chicken breast but didn't know what to do with them. He suggested chicken quesadillas, so I made that instead.
I am starting the habit of waking up around 5:20 again and making a real effort to follow my daily schedule I had planned for February. It might take me until the end of March but better late than never. Yesterday I did a Nike Training Club workout in the morning, and this morning I worked a little bit on meal planning for next week (going running tonight, as per the schedule). I never know if circuit training counts as cardio or strength (it is kind of both) but my schedule plans for strength 3x a week (circuits) and running 2x a week. Yoga on Sunday and rest on Saturday. Sunday I did my yoga so I'm off to a good start this week.
I put on one of my favorite sweaters today and noticed it is getting big on me. I like the sweater but I like going down clothing sizes even more.
And one more up unrelated to diet: I recently went back to a dermatologist for the first time since my wedding. I have some kind of acne or rosacea (they are not really sure what it is, it could even be a bit of both) and it was getting worse so I decided to try to get back on medication. I've been taking it this week and I can already see an improvement in my skin.
Even though I beat my burger craving, there has been tension between me and my husband lately. It's a long story but basically I let it affect my emotions to the point of overeating, so my calorie count was not good. It is odd how in the beginning I was struggling to get my calories into the 1300-1400s, and now I am struggling because I'd like to go back down to the upper 1200s, where I seemed to do the best. Funny how quickly our bodies can adapt to different amounts of food.
The scale finally caught up with me. I am back up to 130.7. Of course, it could be water weight from inflamed muscles. But in a weird sort of way, I am almost relieved. Being on a plateau is more frustrating to me than going up or down, at least if the up is a small shift. Somehow seeing a number change in one direction or the other is more impetus to me to get moving than having it just stick in the same place.
I knew the lb would come soon, cause even though I can still put my belt on the third hole, it is more uncomfortable now so I've gone back to the second hole.
Well, five ups to three downs, I guess the net sum is positive. The most positive thing of all is that I am learning so much about myself through all this. I guess sometimes learning about yourself can be a painful process, but it's worth it to live more authentically in the end.
Sunday, February 26, 2012
February is almost at a close and since I've run into a wall, I decided to run some Spark People reports to compare this month to last month. It wasn't good news.
Fitness Minutes -
February (so far): 572
Average calories for the month -
Average Fat consumption -
Avg Carb intake -
Water consumption goal -
Jan: met goal 5x/week for 3 of 4 weeks
Feb: met goal 2x/week for two weeks, 3x a week for one week
Sodium did decrease slightly in February and protein intake did go up. But the rest of these numbers are not good. Both months so far I have been over my calories 5 times, but in February, 4 of those times were in the last two weeks. Also in January, I was under my calorie range 10 times, whereas I was only under a couple times in Feb. I know being under is not good in general but if you are going over sometimes, the under days work to balance that.
As for my February goals, except for the sodium which I haven't gone back to measure exactly how many days I met that goal vs. not, I did not meet them. I didn't follow a schedule as I had planned and I didn't finish the Spring into Fitness bootcamp because I got bored and decided to move onto other things.
The bootcamp one I can kind of overlook because as I have said in the past, the main thing for me is to NOT STOP EXERCISING. And I am proud that I am still here, getting in exercise at least 3x a week. In the past I would have given up by now. So I'm happy about that. But on the other hand, I can't be baffled by a weight plateau and a possible backward trend in inches if I'm eating more and moving less. That's basically the opposite of what Spark always tells you to do.
I know exactly why this happened, at least with the exercise trends. I got out of the habit of waking up before work to exercise, so that cut about 20 minutes out of my day, and I got bored with cardio so I started doing shorter, more muscle based workouts, which is fine but that really drove down my minutes and unless I was to chain a few of them together, I couldn't hit my calorie goal of 200 cals burned per day, either.
As for the food, I tried to stop the damage by doing that restaurant ban but a few other things got me. One is that I had more alcohol this month than last, and when I'm drinking it's hard to exercise self control over food choices. Another is that I took leftovers for lunch a lot whereas last month I mostly took a sandwich and a few snack type foods. When I was losing weight at the wedding I was eating my normal breakfast, a very small lunch (too small, actually, but that's what I was doing), and a normal dinner. My body doesn't seem to do as well on a big lunch and a big dinner, even if it falls in my calorie range.
I know what people say about eating too few calories, and that's why I tried for a while to increase the intake, but the fact is that I was doing really well eating around 1250 (the low end of my range). I wasn't hungry and if I was I would eat a bit more. I was just afraid I'd hit a plateau from not eating enough but then when I started eating more (and exercising for a shorter duration), that's when I hit this plateau.
Well, February is almost done and March is approaching. I am still here and I am still in it to win it. So I'll acknowledge my mistakes, correct them as best I can, and keep moving forward.
Thursday, February 23, 2012
Did this workout tonight. I'm finally ready to start posting my numbers. I haven't looked at others' numbers, don't want to compare myself, but it took a few days to get up the confidence. Whatever they are on a given day, I hope to see improvement in the future, even by just a few reps.
So for the beginner level of Ass Fire I did:
Prisoner Squat Jumps
31, 19, 23
These were INCREDIBLY hard. For some reason, quad exercise always hurt me so much.
16, 18, 16
14, 12, 13
Also really hard. I felt these more in my legs from supporting my body weight than I did in my arms
Step ups (Right/Left alternating)
17, 19, 19
One thing with me doing these is that even though I only have 50 seconds, I don't push myself so fast that I will lose my stamina for the rest of the workout, or so that I would sacrifice form. But like I said, hopefully the future will bring improvement in how many I'm able to do going quickly without losing form.
I used to think my legs were the strongest part of my body, that I carried the most muscle there. Working out regularly has shown me that I obviously had a long way to go with them though, cause when my quads get sore, I am MISERABLE. Even after all those pushups yesterday, I am only mildly sore in the muscles above my boobs. But from doing a leg body rock on Sunday, I still didn't feel fully recovered today, then the reverse pushups and squat jumps killed me. But it's OK because my legs are an area I'd like to see the most change happen in my body and I definitely have seen them shrink in the past two months.
In other news, I resisted going out to eat one more day. If I can just make it through tomorrow, I will have finished my two week stretch. I know it seems so simple since so many people almost never go out to eat, but for me this is a big deal. It's like a form of entertainment for us, even though we don't often pick really awful restaurants in terms of nutrition. And it's an even bigger deal because I have such an awful track record finishing promises I make to myself. This will be the first big accomplishment I've completed in a long time. So yeah, one more day and I can be proud of me :)
Thursday, February 23, 2012
I weighed myself this morning. I hadn't weighed since the 12th of this month, so that is almost two weeks ago. I'm the same weight I was then, 129.8.
I have to say I'm a little disappointed. I was hoping to be at least to 128. I know this month hasn't been the best nutritionally, but I expected to see some movement after not eating out for two weeks. However, when I started trying to lose weight I did expect a plateau around 128 and probably another at 124. My grandmother's weight at my age was always between 126-128, and I was at 128 for a long time before I started gaining again. So I knew that was one of my body's settle points. Then when I lost weight at the wedding, my goal was 120 but I couldn't move the needle past 124. I am still shooting for 120 but in the back of my mind if I settled at 124 and could gain some muscle, I would be happy with that.
Well, just like I told somebody the other day, when you hit a stick point, you just need to be consistent and pretend you're already at your goal weight. What would you do at your goal weight? Of course you'd continue to eat smart and exercise - otherwise you wouldn't stay there. So I'll pretend this is the weight I want to be and be consistent. Easter is a long way away and I'll be pretty shocked if I don't lose anything between now and then, especially with my Lent challenge of giving up pizza.
Also, I need to get back on the cardio train. For a while I was working out twice a day, once before work and once after, but since we are coming up on a time change I have fallen back into not being able to wake up on time in the morning. That is my struggle right now. So I'm working out at night but they're shorter, more circuit/strength focused. That's just what's capturing my attention right now. And that's fine, but I think mixing back in the cardio might help me get over this hump. Things to ponder.
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