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Strange salads

Saturday, February 26, 2011

Since I eat alone a lot more often I've been experimenting with salads. Just ate a deliciously strange one with broccoli, iceberg lettuce, black olives, feta cheese, soft-boiled egg and quinoea. Got in 7 ounces of broccoli and a lot of good nutrients, had a lot to chew on and enjoyed every bite.

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TDUBFUN 3/31/2011 12:10PM

    Sounds awesome to me. I have never heard about quinoea. Where do you buy it? Had to google:)

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DIANEMAR 2/27/2011 9:20AM

    I get quite creative with my salads or i get bored. I put any frozen veggies(thawed or cooked), i am experimenting with wheat berries, garbonzo or black beans, i like salsa as a dressing,make dressing using greek yogurt instead of mayo. of course, use spinach or dark greens, I love swiss chard. Sweet potatoes,any left over meat.

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Make things happen

Sunday, May 02, 2010

I saw this quote on Aprillscott's spark page:
People can be divided into three groups: Those who make things happen, those who watch things happen, and those who wonder what happened! (Author Unknown)

Unfortunately, I recognize more of myself in the latter two than in the first, those who make things happen. Since my husband died, I seem to be in some kind of identity crisis. Turning 50 later this year will be part of it, I'm sure, but the catalyst is my husband's passing. He was a strong, passionate man who left his mark on me, my life, our home and our family. It was a good mark, but I often made the decision to do or not do things with him in mind. Now I am alone and it's all up to me. It's going to take me a while to get used to this, I think.

I will need to move from seeing my life pass by to havng the idea that I made things happen and have decided to make that my goal for the rest of this year. Deal with my husband's passing, which has left a big hole inside me, and get a grip on my own life.

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DIASTER 2/19/2011 9:53AM

  It has been 9 months since your last blog. How are you doing? What are you doing? We are still here when you are ready.
God Bless

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ANNESYLVIA 9/21/2010 12:34PM

    You are in my prayers! emoticon

Anne Sylvia emoticon

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SUZIE-ANNE 5/7/2010 5:13PM

    I am so sorry that your husband has passed on. Although my situation is different in that I am 65 - my husband is nearly 70 and 15 months ago, after 25 years of what I thought was a happy marriage, he left me for a mutual friend who is 20 years his junior. We were very close, soulmates is how I would describe how I felt, and I felt so alone and lost and never thought it would get any better. Time does help and I find that by remembering the good and special times we had together I can now smile again and this helps me through.

Because of what I do I have no time for a social life but I am surrounded by animals who give so much unconditional love I have a different purpose to fulfill - this was all made possible by my husbands hardwork and caring attitude. I really believe that when one door closes another opens to us and we have a new adventure waiting to be explored.

It will get easier for you as time passes but it will take a while - your husband will always be a very big part of you and from the way you describe him he would want you to remember him with love but would want you to move on to have a fulfilled and happy life.

Enjoy the rest of your life.

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APRILLSCOTT 5/2/2010 10:18AM

    I am so emoticon about your husband! I can not imagine what you are having to deal with at this time! I know that I would feel exactly like you. I think you are doing really well at handling this! I think you are having an identity crisis because the Bible tells us when we marry we become as one. We are two but we become as one! Isn't that amazing because I feel that this is really what happens! He will always be a part of you, and you him! I can understand the hole that is there because part of you is actually missing! I would actually be doing the same thing! And at knowing this is the problem I am sure what I have read enough about him, to know that he would not want you to not move on and become the person that you are--The person That Makes Things Happen---
because anyone that can lose 50 pounds has to be that person inside!
You are turning 50 soon I think I read! What a wonderful age I know because I was there 2 years ago! I think Jeannie from my team "Turtles Over 50 Reaching There Goals" would probably tell you to join us! We are a lively bunch of people and I am sure that we all would enjoy your company! The way that I would deal with this I guess is to surround myself with others! It will not hurt to check us out any way!
The only thing that I have to offer or help is prayer for you, and I believe that if anything in life works prayer is the answer! Know that you are not alone, that we are here for you praying! Know that God is with you always!
It will not be long I feel you will once again be able to say "I am a person that makes things happen" emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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GROEDER 5/2/2010 6:30AM

    I am very sorry about your husband passing away.
Best of luck with getting your life back on track. My prayers are with you.

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Thursday, April 15, 2010

It's been a while since I wrote a blog entry. Fred was diagnosed with esophagal cancer in Sept. 2008 and after that, life became one big rollercoaster ride. Hope, fear, invasive surgery, several bouts of pneumonia, treatments, stopping treatments. Hospital in, hospital out. He died at home on April 6, 2010, with me sitting next to him. We spent the last months grieving together and talking about my future but also just enjoying life, our children, our families. We travelled some and tried to create good memories for our children in spite of his illness. Fred had the attitude that even if there were only 5-10 "fun" minutes each day, life was worth it.

Both my husband and I worried more about what the cancer would do with him than his actually dying. We are Christians and know that he is now with his heavenly Father and welcomed with open arms. He died peacefully with a smile on his face. This has given us great comfort, but seeing my strong, never sick husband with an athlete's condition deteriorate has been hard. Before his illness, people thought he was much younger than he was. At the end of his life, he weighed 40 kg. (down from 76; from 168 lbs. to abt. 88), was practically blind and had trouble walking. He had become an old man, and he hated this and the dependency on me. Although I was glad to be there for him, it was hard to see him like this.

We were surrounded by great family and friends who were there for us, both for him and me, as well as for our children. This support was incredible and priceless.

One thing that showed me how SparkPeople has affected my life is that during this period, while I had some really bad days in terms of eating, I did not gain any weight and my diabetes remained stable. In the past my weight would have mushroomed, causing me more despair than I was already feeling. I am getting back on the SP wagon, to pick up losing weight and being conscious about exercise, esp. by tracking food. But mostly just to take care of myself.

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ANNESYLVIA 9/21/2010 12:31PM

    I dropped by to meet the woman that made my day a little happier. I am so glad I did. What a wonderful couple you to made! emoticon. It makes me think of my favorite grandparents. They were wonderful people and now gather with the heavenly family. emoticon

I am proud to have met someone like you. You seem so strong and kind. May GOD bless you and carve you into HIS hands for safe keeping. emoticon

Anne Sylvia emoticon

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APRILLSCOTT 5/2/2010 11:20AM

    This is really strange for me because I had a brother that died at the age of 32 with this exact cancer your Fred had!This type of cancer runs in my family badly. I had an uncle to pass away with it this year! Your husband died a day before my birthday which makes me sad! I know what you went through somewhat! I was with my brother until he passed! At first he was taken to Duke University and a surgeon diagnoised him, inserted a feeding tube, and gave him a month to live!

Doctor's are not God. They do not really know what the future holds. My brother lived 2 years. The feeding tube that the doctor inserted fell out and for awhile he did great! We thought he was coming out of it! He wanted to see his daughter turn 13. A day after her 13th birthday party he died!

It was one of the worst days of my life!I was the oldest and could not understand why God took him first! I can not imagine your grief!

I feel we have a lot in common. I am also diabetic and have parents that are struggling with heart conditions because of this disease. I am here at SP because of this! I know what my future holds somewhat if I do not get a grip on this disease!

I am so sorry about your husband! Fred seemed to be a wonderful man and so was my brother William! Thank God we can both say that they are with there heavenly father! Who knows they might even be together looking down on us saying "They finally met each other!" emoticon emoticon emoticon

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MERRYMARY42 4/20/2010 9:35PM

    You are a very brave woman, and may you get comfort in knowing that he is not suffering anymore, It is so very hard on us who are left behind. Maru

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WINNIEATWELL2 4/16/2010 10:52PM

    God bless you and comfort your heart.

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COLEENCOLE 4/16/2010 5:18PM

    I am so sad for you. Even though you know he is in heaven you will still miss him and the life you had together. I am happy for you in that you did not gain. Remember the good times.

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TIN_LIZZY 4/15/2010 2:50PM

    I think it was George Fox who said something to the effect of, "Death cannot separate those who truly love. That which never dies cannot be killed."

It sounds like you and your husband were really there for each other during his illness. What a gift of love that was! And I'm glad he died at home, with you by his side. You were a good wife to him, and you made a huge difference in his life.

I'm very impressed that you didn't try to cope with the stress and grief by eating! I would have, but that's something about myself I'm trying to change. To see that you have effected that change in your life gives me hope that I can do it too.

I'm holding you and your family in the Light!

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EMTGIRL352 4/15/2010 9:18AM

    Wow, you have been through so much!! It's great that you have such great friends and family to help you through this difficult time. You have a long road ahead of you. Take care of yourself!


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30 augustus 2008

Saturday, August 30, 2008

I've started a 4-wk purge to cleanse my body of impurities. It's herb-based and I can eat healthy foods so don't have to worry about diabetes.

I've also decided that it's more practical for me to do weight exercises at home, at least until I have my driver's license. I walk and bike MILES each day, so get enough cardio at the moment. If I do the weight exercises at home, I'll be able to manage each day without going crazy.

I've also been taking better care of myself; for example cleansing my skin, using moisturizer, also using a bit of make-up and jewelry, which pleases Fred I've noticed.

In the past, I've had these moments, now I've got to keep it up and not let go of this progress in stopping the neglect of myself.

Will start Iytalian half September, excied about that, and though I failed my 1st driver's exam, understand what I did wrong and feel better abt the 2nd. I didn't reak out and not take the test (major victory), nor did I freak out abt failing (another major victory)!


3 augustus 2008

Sunday, August 03, 2008

Nou, het wordt tijd om mezelf niet mer te verwaarlozen. 's Avonds tanden poetsen, gezicht wassen, gezond eten, weer lopen en fitness. Een hele tijd weer mezelf wegcijferen ivm kinderen, vooral Matteus, Fred, verbouwing, vakantie enz. Ben mezelf weer aan het verliezen maar wil dat niet. Tijdom alweer neiuwe start te maken.


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