Saturday, January 24, 2009
I've had a few messages from friends voicing their concerns over my Jabba picture. I know you're looking out for my well being and I appreciate that immensely but I feel I should explain why I chose the picture to put everyone at ease.
Some people put motivational pictures of celebs or others they know who have accomplished their goals as something to work toward. I do have a couple of those to keep me focused on my ultimate goal, but....
I decided to put the Jabba picture up because I looked in the mirror one day and that's what I saw. Seriously. It's more of a reverse psychology thing for me. I want it there to remind me that I should not be looking like that and to make a move to change it.
I also thought that if I hide my weight that I could keep it as my own little secret, but I don't want to do that anymore. I do have a problem with losing weight and working on my weight loss is the hardest thing I've ever had to do. I make mistakes with it all the time but at the same time I"m learning how to deal with it. It's up to me to make those changes, no on else can do it for me.
I was so elated when my scale went to 242. I had to get on it 4 times to see if it was wrong. It kept going to the same weight so ok, I left it there. This week it went back up. No biggie, I know where I stand.
Exercise is still very hard for me to do. I started the Bootcamp videos but seemed to have put those in the background too. At least for the past couple of weeks. I felt so much better when I did them, I need to do them again. Not want, NEED! My body needs movement. And it makes me feel better emotionally and physically.
I NEED THAT!
And that is what helps me take the weight off. I need to have my time to get my exercise done. This is what I"ll be working on. A regular time each day for me.
So Jabba is my reminder of what I need to do. Jabba is my visual and I'm ok with that.