Monday, December 22, 2014
Wow, I look at these pictures and some look so much like Utah. I was and am in no way looking for a Utah replacement. Nothing could replace my unique and wonderful boy. However, it has been really weird. Traveler is himself, his own being, no doubt about it. I am happy to have him as our new addition. However, at times it is spooky/odd. It feels like Utah is speaking to me through him. I feel like a kook. I am not sure what I am saying or thinking. It is crazy.
Note - he is NOT allowed in this chair.
I have personally never seen him get on the chair (that my husband has custom made 15+ years ago).
Anyway, I love him fully. I guess it is true. I have such a big heart when it comes to dogs. I feel more full. Again, no replacement of Kanyon, Aspen or Utah. It is a new love, but no doubt a full fledged love. It feels better. I hate that inexplicable feeling of a hole.
Well, better get back to work. I have a call in 15 minutes. Yes, I will give an update on the trip home with Sierra, our several walks, sleeping and much more :)
Thursday, December 18, 2014
Yes, we will rename him. My DH asked that & I spoke with the foster Mom and she said the rescue group gave him the name and he does not seem like a Chester. My DH will come up with something. He has named all of our pups (Kanyon, Aspen, Sierra, Utah).
We are scheduled to pick him up on Saturday. We are meeting the foster parents somewhere I think. I need to better puppy proof the house. Luckily I am working from home today and tomorrow so that helps a bit. Day's still seem full but that's ok. They are not sure how old he is. They guess between 1 and 2. I guess I should have our vet look at him, right? They say he was a stray. It seems so odd to me. I assume they check to see if he is chipped and if anyone is looking for him.
I was thinking last night that maybe it is my husbands turn. I think it would be great for him. He has not gotten super duper close to anyone since Kanyon. When we first met, he was not sure if he wanted dogs, actually said no. His BFFwas a pup that brought him through terrible times and when he passed he did not think he could do it again. That however was a deal breaker for me. I just did not know who I could live happily without a pup. Crazy huh?
Well Kanyon was his BFF. He was there through very difficult times when I was traveling every week for years and years. Not good on our relationship. Anyway, after Kanyon passed DH has not gotten quite as close. I guess whatever happens happens.
It will be interesting to see what I feel. I have realized that I wake up every day and go to sleep every night telling myself that everything is ok, not to stress. I think I have only started doing this since Utah passed. Everything WAS simply ok when Utah was here. Life was good no matter if it was or not. He was in it. That's how I felt. I know I have gone down this road so many times. I am good. It still just baffles me to recognize how much I loved him. Crazy and unexplainable.
Let's see what else.
Work is good. Not sure how much I will be working over the holiday. It will all be remote. :)
I am finally getting on the treadmill again. After last weekend, I asked myself, why aren't you doing the basics. Nothing major at all, just the basics. Well, I am now doing the basics again. I feel less achy (old age LOL) when I get up. Forget that. That's DH, not me. I am a spring chicken, right? Opps, did I say that aloud. DH is not at all old... but he has been hard on his body over the years so it can me achy. Not me.
Yep, I am munching too much throughout the day but I am at least trying to be smart in my choices. It's ok.
It will be so very interesting to see how life changes with Chester. I will be a new Mom again. Watching over him so he does not eat the tree. Yes, we have a tree in the house that we bring inside in the winter. Thsi should be a challenge. I hear the equally big challenge will be to get the pup to sleep. We'll see. We have a pen. I think I have shared this before. Oh yes, with Utah in it.
Anyway, I will keep you updated. I am open to advise :)
Remember friends, if your like me.
Tuesday, December 16, 2014
I was up at 4:40.
Weigh myself, starting to slowing slide back after this weekend.
Let Sierra out
Get coffee & a bar
same ol', same ol'
Yes, I broke into tears immediately as soon as I saw his picture. I had a dream about Utah last night too. I got to see him.
I e-mailed Foothills Rescue back and hope they call today to explain next steps. I am off to work/to the office today & tomorrow but am likley home through to January 5th. My husband has 2 weeks off starting Monday. Sierra's vet visit went great last Thursday. Her ACL is healing real well. We can even go on short walks.
Perfect timing. Perfect.
This is the description the foster Mom sent...
Chester is great! He definitely has a lot of puppy in him still, and he was very nervous when we first brought him home. It seems that he hasn't been around other dogs much, because he was really hesitant to play with Mia at first, but now she's taught him how to wrestle and tug, so they are really enjoying playing with each other. He also LOVES tennis balls and playing fetch. He's got a lot of energy, so it's hard for him to stay in once place for a long time, but he does like to be petted and have attention from humans and will sometimes come sit on the couch with us. He always wants to be in the same room as us - if one of us leaves the room, he will try to follow or will sit at the door and whine until we come back in. We have been crating him when we're both gone and at night - he was barking a lot when we put him in the crate, but he's gotten a lot better with that over the last day or two.
He definitely needs an active family - we've been taking him on daily walks and he's starting to get used to walking on a leash, but he prefers running in the backyard. I'm not sure how he would do with young children...I don't think he knows how big and strong he is. Older children would probably be fine, and I think he would love another dog to play with, but would be fine being an only dog as well. We have not tested him with cats. He does play well with our neighbor's golden doodles too, so he's fine with dogs his size and smaller. He's house trained and has not had any accidents. He does know "Sit" and we're working with him on other commands.
Sunday, November 23, 2014
I have lots to blog about only because there has been a lot flowing through my mind. You know me, I think s much.
Too funny, this is not the picture I planned to post but as I was looking for my Happy Sunday picture, this jumped out at me. I think this is it. I have not been thinking right. I can talk my self in or out of anything, including happiness. Goodness, my mind is all over th eplace. I can barely type.
I guess the elephant is that a good spark friend is back. I am thrilled to have her back. However, she did not know that Utah passed. She thinks of me and Aspen. It has brought interesting thoughts and of course feeling.
This happened for a reason I know. I have been a bit numb I think. I fight my feeling of missing my boy and I am not sure how much that works. The lesson and important reminder she brings me is this.... I LOVED Aspen with all of my heart. She was everything. She helped me through the very most difficult times of my live.
Then Utah, WOW, my boy. I LOVED him so. It is hard to explain. It is a bit freaky the depth of my love for him. I can only imagine that it compares to how a parent loves a baby. So much that it just fills you completely. LESSON = these are absolutely amazing miracles in my mind. And I had TWO. Crazy.
Yes, it will hurt but I just may find another baby to pour my love into. If not, there will be some other purpose. That my be teaming with my DH more, focusing on the acreage activities like building the shed. Or who knows but there is a purpose I think. I just have to embrace it or simply let it come. I know it will only come when I am ready.
Anyway, enough blabber.
This is what I need. I will get back to this in a minute.
Sierra. Yep, she is still limping. I took her to the vet on Friday. She thinking it is her ACL/CCL. She suggested that we give it more time and try our best to keep her from running and jumping. She will be 10 on the 30th but acts like a 4 year old. I gave her a great bone yesterday and that did the trick. She even allowed me to go upstairs and vacuum without following me.
The vet also talked out taking her to a specialist and possible surgery (up to $2500 possibly). Very invasive but good surgery. Some research that I have been doing says let it heal itself but it will take months. I imagine it depends on if it is a pull or tear or rupture or who knows what. She mentioned an MRI (maybe $1500) or x-ray. Who knows. We are taking this a day at a time. You know me, I would like to go to the specialist just to know exactly what is going on.
She does not put weight on the foot but other than that she does not show that she is in pain. I do have her on some pain meds for another week. Then I think we will stop those. We'll see.
I seems to go from extreme to extreme. This is NOT at all new to be. My DH has pointed out more than once over the years that I get tunnel vision and I know I do. Anyway, I will skip to the lesson.
- Focus on balance, not going overboard.
Eat healthy foods but give yourself treats too (to avoid any sort of binges or feeling deprived).
Get on the treadmill. I seems to do 3 miles every day or nothing at all. I am not even walking or getting in my steps (as I consistently did) because I am not walking Sierra and I am not getting in walks when I go into the office because of the "cold".
Those really are the bare bones basics.
Oh and I think I really need to stick to basics when it come to
I need to do some consistently.
Lastly, work is going quite well. I am still not doing as well as I like but I am enjoying it. I was surprised one of the people I work with said I was being too hard on myself. That was nice to hear. Bottom line is like like to be busy again and I like being challenged.
I almost forgot to give a puppy search updates as well. The Golden rescue group does not have a pup/dog for us now but I have gone through the questionnaire process and interview process. The home visit is scheduled for tomorrow at noon. I cleaned yesterday. The house is still not great by any means but it is what it is. Then we will be set so if a pup (they are suggesting a pup around 4yo) becomes available we will be pre-approved people ready and willing. Again, time will tell.
A friend just posed this so I thought I would add it in as well.
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