Thursday, October 30, 2014
I figure if KEKEIKO can take the time to check on me and BLESSED2BEME can type two days in a row (great blogs btw). Then I can get off my lazy rear and type.
I think of you all, all the time. I am just on the computer all day long and don't feel like blogging at night. I am a bit too rushed maybe in the morning. EXCUSES, EXCUSES. I really should blog it helps.
OK the most important thing... NO pup. It ended up being a weird and stressful situation. I think BLESSED2BEME can understand. I got close to when we need to make a decision and I got physically sick. It was like the flu came back on Sunday. I slept and my DH went to the acreage with Sierra. It was so odd. I did not realize until days later that I think it was stress. It just didn't feel right and things got quirky.
I just wanted it to work so badly. I wanted it to be the right fit but wanted to be sure it was the right fit, sure that I wasn't forcing anything. Utah was a perfect fit and I knew it immediately. Never a doubt in my mind. It was seriously the same with my DH. I knew he it the man for me, never a question. Crazy feeling both times. I want that again.
It is hard for me to even look. It stresses me out completely. It is crazy. I suppose I need to listen to my own words and TRUST THE PROCESS.
A bit more stress when I looked at Sierra's docs and realize that she will be 10, YES TEN, next month... my baby girl. It scares me. I don't let myself think about it. Crazy.
Work is still real good. It is week 5 already. It is starting to get a lot busier. I see gobbs and gobbs of work I could and should be doing. I get to meet my "boss" in person next week. She is in town from NY. That should be very nice. On the down side I will have to be in the office all week or should at least.
I have been spoiled rotten working from home. I honestly feel like I really seriously need it. I am not sure how I would get anything done around here otherwise. I am having a bit of a challenging time fitting everything in.
DH and I were awful sick Saturday and Sunday (18th and 19th). Last week I was real down on exercise & steps in general. My weight is up again. I am trying not to stress about it. I know the stress just makes it worse. This week I am doing better.
Sierra has been a bit quirky too. She seems to get a bit of separation anxiety now. Part of it may be my imagination but part is definitely NOT. She ate the cover of DH's book. She NEVER does anything like that. And then Saturday before going to the acreage, we went to Home depot and she did not understand and she got into a plant.
It is crazy but true that if I explain to her the situation she is ok but if she does not understand she gets upset. I can tell if she understand because she will be accepting and just go lay down. I could go on and on.
Let's see, what else? Not much.
Oh the acreage. We are working like snails. Last Saturday we got 1, yes, just ONE piece of plywood/OSB on the roof. I have pictures I should post. DH wasn't feeling great so we stopped early. I could have gone on for hours more. Then Sunday it was me that was feeling bad. Crazy.
Well, I'll try to get some pictures posted. Thinking of you. HUGS!
A friend posted this the other day. I am a blessed person.
Thursday, October 09, 2014
I want to blog but also want to walk Sierra, have time for the treadmill and get to work early today. Anyway... It hit me yesterday that I was feeling really happy. I was feeling fulfilled in what I was doing for work.
This scared me. Does this mean a shoe is going to drop.
Then this morning I thought maybe not necessarily. The last time I felt this fulfilled and useful in my work was with my Project Manager position at EnPro. I of course got my EnPro job immediately after I lost Aspen. Interesting. Now this one after Utah.
I had a chat with my big boss yesterday and she confirmed that it is completely fine for meto work from home. Just be in the office if there are meeting where I am actually meeting with someone. This is great because the one thing missing with this job is friends. It of course is only week 2 but I don't really have any friends. This is fine of course, but different. I am used to having someone to chat with or walk with or eat with.
This is great.
Yesterday I of course walked Sierra.
Got in 3 miles on the treadmill. I was proud that I did not do more. I wanted to still start work around 8:00. Days not at home I can't seem to fit in more than 1 treadmill mile.
I took an hour lunch break and made the carrot muffins/cup cakes and also a small batch of banana. I used wheat flour, egg whites, protein powder, apple sauce and spices. It is great. I seems to work real well for me in that it satisfies my craving for a bit of carbs and at the same time is super filling. YIPPEE.
I got a good amount of work done.
Got a load of laundry done.
Walked Sierra again around 6.
It was a good day. This could work. Interesting.
I am of course missing my boy. It is odd being home working and not having him here. Also, Sierra is doing things that remind me of him. She also did an "Aspen move" the other day. It was wild! When I am busy, straightening my hair for example, Aspen you to lay there looking at me then she would hit the ball with her nose and roll it to me. I would then grab it and throw it for her. Yes, I am thinking a lot about getting another pup, can't wait.
Friday I am supposed to pick up the roofing for the shed. I am starting to get nervous. We are planning to work on it this weekend. Ug, now weather is changing again. Who knows.
Better get going.
for being there and listening!
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