Friday, January 10, 2014
Hi all! Happy new year!
There are two videos I've seen in the last day that I'd like to share and hear your comments on.
The first one is a short clip about how 'food addiction' is a real thing. Is this 'news'? I think the main reason I clicked on it is because the woman who is profiled happens to be the sister of a close friend of mine. Random. At the end of the clip my first thought was, "I should reach out to her and introduce her to NoS!"
The second clip is more interesting, but I have to say that I didn't finish it yet. It's about the neuroscience behind how our bodies interact with food and our personal blueprints regarding food and diet and weight loss.
I'll finish the video first before I comment, but so far, most of it resonates with me. I look forward to your comments.
Monday, December 23, 2013
So, in the grand scheme of things, my 'falling off track', assuming that I get solidly back on track today, the first N day of the week, I haven't fallen so far. However, this is a week of extended family time and bathing suit weather and 'all you can eat food' presented pretty much all the time. And, it's a week when I'm not in control of what the meals are going to be because I won't be in my own home, and I won't have access to the kitchen and it's basically just buffet after buffet.
I plan to keep things very simple. I think I can find hard boiled eggs for breakfast, and I'll do my best to stick with whole foods.
So, this wasn't really the best time for me to binge. I guess it is what it is, and I just have to make better choices from this point forward. Can't go back.
Monday, December 23, 2013
The big picture story is that I feel like I am in more control and have a more healthy relationship with food than I think maybe I ever have. NoS is a big part of why. That being said, I am still a work in progress and while I'm not bingeing on any kind of regular basis, I've gone 3-6 weeks without, I still haven't completely kicked the habit.
I know there are different opinions about using a scale as a measure, but I have been using it a lot and generally speaking it has become much more helpful than not to me in my recovery. This is mainly because lately I have seen a direct correlation between my actions and choices and what the scale says. For such a long time, the numbers never went down even though I believed based on what I was doing, it should be. Then, eventually, I switched things up food and exercise wise, and I found what works for me to lose weight. When I use that formula, the number has consistently gone down. When I veer from it, it goes up. Frustrating, but simple.
So, primarily just yesterday, I blew my formula out of the water. I tend to get a little cocky when I see progress and think that I can handle a trigger food. I eat said trigger food and it sets me into a tailspin that is next to impossible to get out of. That tailspin cost me 4 pounds. No guilt, no beating myself up. That's how I know I have a better relationship. I take responsibility for my actions, and stop the spiral and get back on track.
I do hate listing the gain in my sparkpeople tracker, but I've found that if I don't, then I can't have the satisfaction of listing a lower number when that happens.
Honest reporting is an important part of me taking responsibility and getting to the next level of sanity with food.
Tuesday, December 10, 2013
I did it! Yesterday was a success even with being home with kids ALL DAY because of the weather. We have another no school snow day today. It's not Midwest or Buffalo snow, in fact, in my area (suburbs of Washington DC), they cancel school before the first flake even falls. Pretty funny to hear, I'm sure for all of you who know and get 'real' snow. I went to the University of Wisconsin; Madison, so I've experienced real weather too. The thing is this area is that the road conditions get bad very quickly, primarily because of ice, not snow. We also don't have the large supply of snow removal equipment because we don't get huge snow regularly. When it does happen, it shuts everything down for a long time (including the government).
ANYWAY. 3 meals, no snacks, seconds or sweets yesterday. I will say that while making lunch, I did find myself picking at food because I was being more mindful. I need to kick that habit out the door and just eat once I'm sitting down. I think little 'tweaks' like that can go a long way.
Wish me luck with my 3 boys. My teen will probably sleep for awhile longer. The other two (9 and 11) are already fighting about the darn Wii. I have to think of 'off screen' activities to do. Getting them outside in the snow will be harder than you can imagine. I don't even know if I have snow gear for them, so that I guess will be my first project. It's a good thing that my work load (I'm a marketing communications lead for a consulting firm) is slow right now. While that means a smaller pay check, I'm enjoying not having the stress of it for the moment. I guess my DH will be working from home too today. Full house... Hopefully they get those roads cleared for tomorrow!!!
I weighed myself yesterday after a few days of being off plan, and I weighed 154 (2 pounds up from where I have been maintaining). This morning, I was back down to 151.5. It will continue to fluctuate, and habits of NoS and working out, and knowing my clothes fit better are better gauges and things to focus on, BUT it's nice that the scale is verifying the my choices are the ones I need to be making right now.
Sunday, December 08, 2013
I've been maintaining my weight lately which I think is a good thing, not a bad thing. I look at it as maintaining and not plateauing because by using NoS and other checks and balances I have in place, I know full well when I'm giving it all I've got, and when I'm not. When I give it all I've got, I lose weight, I allow myself to feel hunger without getting scared and I generally feel so good about how I'm interacting with food. I lost 15 pounds in the last 3 months and have gained 2 and have maintained that weight now for a few weeks. Why tighten the screws now?
1. I still am about 8-12 pounds from my goal weight.
2. I don't have any wiggle room to 'make mistakes' or to have some leeway on S days.
3. The leeway I'm giving myself isn't making me feel good physically even though I enjoy the taste of the treats as I eat them.
4. I am enjoying the clothes that I've been able to wear and they are starting to get a tab bit tight.
5. I've come a long way and don't want to back slide.
6. I'm going on vacation at the end of the month and want to look and feel good.
7. While I'm using NoS quite closely, I've gotten a bit lax during the past week in regards to eating while making my meals, and then on S days, while it's within the rules of NoS, I'm going beyond foodwise with what my body really needs and it's taking me farther from my goals.
So, this week, starting tomorrow I'm tightening the screws again. So what will that look like for me?
1. No picking at the food I'm making for my meal. I'll wait until I sit down to eat.
2. Logging in SP (This is not NoS, but it works for me, so it's my own 'mod' so to speak).
3. Working with my health/life coach by checking in with him in the AM and PM. I have a list of questions that he gave me that I have answered daily in the past, and I stopped doing it this past week which is when I started to get off track. Maybe I'll share those questions in a future blog.
4. Use the binge free board to post when I'm done eating and when I'll eat again.
This is my commitment for tomorrow. I can't think beyond a day, or even a meal, but my plan is start tomorrow, and go from there.
Thanks for reading!
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