Monday, July 28, 2014
The title of my last blog referred to coming back to SP as being 'scary' after lots of activity, and then taking a long SP break.
This time is different. I have been away from home for about 5 weeks. I was working at a sleep away summer camp and worked on swim staff. I had best intentions on taking the NoS lifestyle and SP with me, but that just didn't happen, and it's ok. I did my best with food, esp since I wasn't cooking for myself and was eating camp food. That part wasn't super bad. The challenging part was all the 'junk' that was down at the waterfront bc of my younger co-workers and camp treats that were kept all around.
Beyond all the walking I did around camp, and some swimming of my own (not as much as you might think), I really didn't do too much working out. What I did do was sleep really well, and enjoy lots of alone time. That's a luxury I don't have being a wife, a mom of 3 boys and a marketing professional. I savored being in my cabin by myself at night. It was a different way to 'be good' to myself.
That being said, this is the first time I've left camp having not lost weight. I pretty much stayed the same, but lost muscle. We did go to the beach for a week after camp, and I definitely went a bit over board there w food etc. BUT we're home now, not too much 'damage done', and I'm ready to get back on track with the methods and tools I know work for me to feel healthy and strong. That's why I chose to get back on SP today and not wait.
It might take a little while to get back into the swing of things, but my intent is to start another 21 day NoS streak. That's a tool that seems to work for me every time.
I hope everyone here is having a good summer, and finding ways to find times for themselves as well.
Saturday, May 10, 2014
After a months long break from Sparkpeople, I've decided to recommit myself to using and checking back in with this great resource daily again.
The overwhelming feeling that is going along with this decision is...scary.
I think the main reason I needed to take some time away from my active participation was that I kept starting and stopping and starting and stopping and I needed to break the cycle and try something else. Well, while I've always kept NoS in the back of my mind, the 'something else' mainly became more 'nothing' than something.
I guess the good news is that in the grand scheme of things I've stayed in the general range of health as I was back when I last posted. But, my 'nothing' isn't working so well, and I've backslides a bit and therefore haven't progressed towards my goals.
It was a rough winter on a number of fronts, and the cold, snowy weather that went on and on and on, didn't help things much.
I wish I had been more consistent with food and exercise choices, but I can't go back. I can only go forward. So, here I am.
I find myself in a destructive cycle often these days. I want to feel and look more healthy, fit and trim. I recommit every morning and by mid afternoon, my goals are forgotten. I will say that I haven't had a full out 'binge' in quite awhile. I think at this point for me, it's the small tweaks to this and that that I find to be the most challenging part to stick to.
The other cycle that affects me greatly is my sleep cycle. If I don't sleep well, then the probability of me working out the next day is super low. I need to workout not only for physical reasons, but also emotional and mental reasons. It keeps me focused and balanced. I was swimming regularly for awhile but unless I get up at 5:30 to get to the pool at 6am, I don't go.
I have tried a few classes at my gym lately. I took a boot camp type class, and while I wasn't a major straggler, I was at the back of the pack and at one point felt dizzy, but I pushed through a completed the workout. I felt accomplished by finishing that, but I think I need to work my way up to that intensity.
This summer, I'm going back on waterfront staff at my kids' sleep away camp. I have just over a month before it begins. I've wasted so much time and wish I could've made better choices to feel better about myself physically than I do right now. A month isn't much time to make a big difference, but it doesn't mean I couldn't make some.
It's a big step for me to come back to SP. However, I have to take the first step before I can take the second and third and so on as I begin to use the helpful tools and resources, including reconnecting with many of you.
Friday, January 10, 2014
Hi all! Happy new year!
There are two videos I've seen in the last day that I'd like to share and hear your comments on.
The first one is a short clip about how 'food addiction' is a real thing. Is this 'news'? I think the main reason I clicked on it is because the woman who is profiled happens to be the sister of a close friend of mine. Random. At the end of the clip my first thought was, "I should reach out to her and introduce her to NoS!"
The second clip is more interesting, but I have to say that I didn't finish it yet. It's about the neuroscience behind how our bodies interact with food and our personal blueprints regarding food and diet and weight loss.
I'll finish the video first before I comment, but so far, most of it resonates with me. I look forward to your comments.
Monday, December 23, 2013
So, in the grand scheme of things, my 'falling off track', assuming that I get solidly back on track today, the first N day of the week, I haven't fallen so far. However, this is a week of extended family time and bathing suit weather and 'all you can eat food' presented pretty much all the time. And, it's a week when I'm not in control of what the meals are going to be because I won't be in my own home, and I won't have access to the kitchen and it's basically just buffet after buffet.
I plan to keep things very simple. I think I can find hard boiled eggs for breakfast, and I'll do my best to stick with whole foods.
So, this wasn't really the best time for me to binge. I guess it is what it is, and I just have to make better choices from this point forward. Can't go back.
Monday, December 23, 2013
The big picture story is that I feel like I am in more control and have a more healthy relationship with food than I think maybe I ever have. NoS is a big part of why. That being said, I am still a work in progress and while I'm not bingeing on any kind of regular basis, I've gone 3-6 weeks without, I still haven't completely kicked the habit.
I know there are different opinions about using a scale as a measure, but I have been using it a lot and generally speaking it has become much more helpful than not to me in my recovery. This is mainly because lately I have seen a direct correlation between my actions and choices and what the scale says. For such a long time, the numbers never went down even though I believed based on what I was doing, it should be. Then, eventually, I switched things up food and exercise wise, and I found what works for me to lose weight. When I use that formula, the number has consistently gone down. When I veer from it, it goes up. Frustrating, but simple.
So, primarily just yesterday, I blew my formula out of the water. I tend to get a little cocky when I see progress and think that I can handle a trigger food. I eat said trigger food and it sets me into a tailspin that is next to impossible to get out of. That tailspin cost me 4 pounds. No guilt, no beating myself up. That's how I know I have a better relationship. I take responsibility for my actions, and stop the spiral and get back on track.
I do hate listing the gain in my sparkpeople tracker, but I've found that if I don't, then I can't have the satisfaction of listing a lower number when that happens.
Honest reporting is an important part of me taking responsibility and getting to the next level of sanity with food.
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