Saturday, August 02, 2014
Well, although I had some exciting trips - Israel and Europe, there has been a lot of loss for me in the span of a few weeks. I am afraid it does come with aging these losses. As I get older, in my sixties, the things around me age as well. Does this fact help me except loss, well not really. It is always difficult.
Just a week before our Europe vacation my husband's father became gravely ill and we stood by his bed side as he had his oxygen cut off and chose to pass away. He was cremated and next week is his Celebration of Life.
Just after returning from Europe our beloved cat Cocoa, a thirteen year old Himalayan/Siamese cross, took another turn for the worse. He had liver disease, pancreatitis, cancer and was literally wasting away. Yesterday, we had the awful decision whether to be merciful and put him down or be selfish and have him for maybe a week or so longer in our lives. He made it hard the morning we took him in because he was still with the little strength he had so loving. Well, that is what a cat will do to the very end they will love you. I know we did the right thing but it was the hardest thing and I wish Cocoa could have told me what he wanted. We had a very compassionate vet who kissed Cocoa's head like we did. I plan to take his cat things to the SPCA today. One because I can't bear to see them and another because Cocoa will be helping other cats. We have a beautiful cat tree condo that we will attempt to get in our car.
Ever since our cat got sick two years age he has been going downhill. Would you believe he would no longer eat cat food and I had to buy him barbeque chicken and unsalted chicken broth? Kind of embarrassing at the store when people ask if you are making chicken for dinner and you have to admit it is for the cat. No, I don't recommend feeding cats human food but if they are going to starve themselves well you have to.
Sorry, for this sad post but I wanted you to know what is going on in my life and why I haven't been on Spark much. I plan to change this. I don't want to let my Peppers down in any way.
I admit I did have some chocolate yesterday but it didn't ease the pain. I guess time will do that.