Monday, September 12, 2011
After almost a week without touching my hoop, I got back to it in a BIG way tonight. Thirty minutes on my own, and then an hour of hoopdance class. SOOOOO much fun! I'm finally starting to "get" some of the tricks, and it feels so darn good.
I almost didn't go to class because I've had a little bit of a sinus headache all day, but I went, and I'm so glad I did. I'm now sufficiently hopped up on sinus meds and headed to bed. Here's hoping it knocks this stupid headache out. Busy week ahead!
Thursday, September 08, 2011
Not a great day at all. Things just haven't gone as I'd hoped, and now, to add to my frustration my computer is acting up. Sloooooow going! Glad I'm done with my spark stuff now.
Wednesday, September 07, 2011
...eating healthy, working out, living a healthy lifestyle, I mean.
I know why it doesn't. It's not something I was raised even thinking about. My parents weren't exactly good examples of how to live healthy. Matter of fact, my dad was diagnosed with diabetes in his 40s(as were my uncles, his brothers) and he could have controlled it through diet and exercise at that point if he'd chosen to. He was a stubborn, stubborn man though, and refused to change how he did anything and that's why I'm referring to him in past tense now. He died just over 6 years ago, at the age of 69, from the complications of diabetes. He had several heart attacks, 2 strokes (that I'm sure of) and many other problems. He also lost his left leg just below the knee about 8 months before he died. All of it could be traced back to the diabetes.
I felt cheated when we lost him...cheated out of a dad I loved, and cheated on behalf of my children, who lost an incredible grandpa. My daughter, who was 14 when he passed away adored himand can hardly hear his name without tears. My oldest son was 12 and he still grieves to this day, the fastest way to motivate him is to say "Your grandpa would be so proud of you." or "What would grandpa say?" My 2nd son, who was 4 when he died, was Grandpa's little buddy and that's a relationship that was cut MUCH to short. Saddest to me though, is my youngest, who will never have any memories of his own aobut my dad, because he was only 2 when we lost him. He's the one that I feel was cheated the most.
The one thing my dad did for me, without meaning to, was show me where I was headed. I was 42 years old, and had already started to take steps to get healthy, but he showed me why I needed to keep working at it. Although I'd been fit on and off through my life, I had kind of let myself slide for a while. I had quit smoking and remarried at 36, had a baby at 38, then another at 40. For me...it was like the perfect recipe to get fat. By the time my youngest son was born I weighed about 300 lbsand had gestational diabetes with each of my last pregnancies. I was told by my doctors that if I didn't do something, I was sure to end up with type 2 diabetes. I had a family history, was obese, and had every other marker but one I think.
I started exercising and losing weight with a well-known weight loss program, and I was doing okay. I was watching my dad die...slowly..and painfully, and I was realizing that if I didn't want to go through the same thing, I needed to keep up what I was doing. I got down to my goal weight shortly after he died. My dad wasn't able to be a good example for me when it came to healthy living, but he was great at being a horrible warning. (I can still hear him laughing whenever I say that. I'm sure he'd approve.)
So why am I back where I am now? Why am I so far over my goal and here at Sparkpeople trying again? Because my life changed and I didn't change with it. I forgot the lessons of my dad, temporarily, and now I'm getting back on track. For him, for my kids so they don't have to feel cheated of me much to young, and mostly for myself.
I started my own business just over a year ago, and I never realized what an impact it would have on my own healthy habits. When you're runnign a business, so much seems to take precedence over what you want to, or should be doing for yourself. The real irony is, our business is one based on health and fitness. I'm a massage therapist, and my partner is a personal trainer. We make our living helping other people reach their health and fitness goals. (and if you think massage has no part in that, that's a conversation you and I need to have. There are tremendous health benefits to massage, and regular massage should be a part of everyone's wellness program along with working out eating right.) Somehow, my own health and fitness have taken a backseat for too long, and I'm tired of it. I want ME back.
Actually the business is only part of the story of why I gained weight back.. or really, part of the excuse because really, I KNOW it all starts and ends with me. I know I have to do this, I know I'm the one that gets up every day and decides to make good choices or bad choices...who decides whether I'm going to make the time to exercise or not. It's all me, baby, and I have to work it to make it work. SO here I am....working sparkpeople....planning my life, taking on new challenges. So far it's working the way it's supposed to, and I pray that I can keep going in this direction.
Dad would want me to.
Tuesday, September 06, 2011
Since school starts for my sons on Thursday, I wanted to do something a little more fun than usual today. We met my mom, my daughter and my granddaughter for lunch halfway across the state. (mom and the girls live on the other side of the state, so that was the easiest way to meet.) Kenzie, my granddaughter, is almost 5 months old, and every time I see her she gets bigger and sweeter! She's just this adorable, smiley little chunk and I couldn't love her more if I tried. She also looks JUST like her mommy did at her age. I love it. I love watching my kids together...and my younger sons with their baby niece. And she loves her 10 and almost 8 year old uncles. The only downside was that my oldest son..who is 18...couldn't come because he had to work. He loves his job and he's happy, so that was kind of okay too.
When we got home, the boys and I went for a really nice walk up to the 10 year old's school so we could find out who his teacher will be, and then after dinner I made our traditional back to school muffins...lol. I'm a day early on those, but we have a lot to do tomorrow, so I'm glad it's done. Mmmmmm..the smell of pumpkin muffins in the oven, it's officially fall!
Monday, September 05, 2011
So it wasn't a perfect day, foodwise, but it was an AWESOME day other than that. Went for a walk/run this morning and ran more than I have so far. I think maybe I'm at least half run now. Then we went to a party this afternoon, a yearly ice cream social that some friends of ours do every year to celebrate the end of summer. That's why my eating wasn't great today, but honestly, it wasn't terrible either, so I'm happy with it.
Tonight was hoopdance class again, and I can't begin to say how much I looooove that class! I'm slowly starting to get some of the moves, and it's so fun doing it. I've been to the class 3 times since last Thursday....lol. I think I"m officially HOOKED!
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