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Mind vs Body

Thursday, April 19, 2007

Referring back to yesterday!!!!
Okay my body is wacky!!! This morning, I was not going to go to the gym, because I had so much to do, and I guess out of habit, I put on my sweats, and my t shirt, put on my gym shoes, grabbed my IPOD, my water bottle, my body was saying to come back home and go back to sleep for 1 hour, then finish my paperwork but my mind said you have come to far to stop now, My body was calling for the sleep but when I got to the gym, I ran my 2 miles first to wake up my body and even then its like my body was trying to fight it, I dont know, now its 1217 midnight and I am wired, my body is full of energy. Am I reverting back to European time. Hmmmmm...............

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PROLOS247 4/21/2007 10:21AM

    You know what? You hit it on the nail. You got prepared to go to the gym because you were in the habit of doing so. You have retrained your mind. So many of us become overweight because we are stuck in a certain habit. I know I can eat a fulfilling meal and 1 hr later be in the mood for something. Now that I recognize the habit, I stop it. As tired as you were, you went and ran 2 miles (u go girl) and it gave you energy. I have to remember your story next time I think I am too tired to workout. I'll think about the benefits if I do workout vs if i don't

Keep up the good work!

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How did I get here???

Tuesday, April 17, 2007

Today is a good day, I had to answer a question yesterday that made me look at myself deeper because I had never been asked the question before.

The question was "How did you get that big?"

I had to give it a thought and once I started typing it just flowed out of my soul. Here's my response.

For one I was never small, I weighed 199 in 9th grade but I was really active, and it wasn't flabby or anything, So my mom never pushed the weight issue with me. I weighed 210 at 18 but I still wasn't unhappy about my weight I figured I was just thick, but cute, living life and hanging out no one ever complained about it, and I didnt see anything wrong with it. Now when I was 20 and weighed in at 245 ( going through alot of problems with my boyfriend at the time) I had gotten comfortable, my mom and I went to a weight loss clinic in Texas where I started taking Phentermine and she was taking Adipex, I lost 10lbs in the first week I was doing really good, then I stopped taking the pills when I got back down to 210 and gained the weight back really fast, I got pregnant, married, and then I would try to lose the weight but would lose a little bit but then I would gain more back, we moved to Italy right before my daughter turned 1, I was working, going to school, and not taking time out for me, plus I was going through a depression over there, small community where everyone knows everyones business, hubby was out doing his thing and I wasnt doing mine, and the weight just came on, last year when I moved back to the states, I went to a gym in Georgia, and I weighed myself and saw the 281 mark, I nearly cried because it's not something I was proud of I started working out, July will be my one year anniversary where I started putting me first. I joined SP back in Feb 07 to get extra support, but now I can talk more about it, Any questions you have I can answer I am not ashamed, I just reached my breaking point, where I wanted to do something for me, trust me now my husband is trying to make up for all the stuff he did in italy, because he sees how I am putting me first now. LOL, I just didnt put me first.

Now to those of you who come here I ask you the same question, "How did you get this big?" Do not let it offend you, because it is something we need t come to terms with.

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MOVEN_KARI 4/19/2007 9:32PM

    I woke up one morning and asked myself the same question. We are all together on that one.

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JQUISTA 4/18/2007 10:56AM

    Like you Red, I never really was a small girl. I've been overweight since I was 3. But to get to 283 pounds my starting weight here was a combination of greed, emotional eating and a sedentary lifestyle. I came to the realization that I was literally eating myself to death on February 22, 2007 before that I knew I was unhealthy but I was in serious denial. Now I know that I have the power to change and I excercise that power each and every day. I want to change more than anything else and I'm fighting daily to reach my goal. I'm changing not only for me but because I don't want my daughter to follow in my footsteps. I want her to know that she doesn't have to be addicted to food like I was. I want her to live a full and healthy life, I'm her biggest and most powerful role model. I want her to be proud of her mommy.

*****I know your secret to success now (running) I'll definately add that to my workout I want a tight runner's body!

Good luck and much love to you Red, see you at 180!

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ANGELGREGZION 4/17/2007 12:40PM

    I know it's because of my emotional eating, and the way I was raised. Sometimes I try to ignore it. But like you, I joined SP a little over a year ago and I am still in the same weight catagory. It's hard, but there are so many resources on this web that we can use, we should use them! Good luck to you and God Bless.

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A few fears.....

Monday, April 16, 2007

1. Will I be able to maintain my weight once its all gone, I don't ever want to gain it back.

2. Will I get a big head once I lose all of my weight???

I know that I am doing this the right way, but at the same time, I don't want to lose what I am working so hard to make a lifestyle. I am doing my best here and truly want to accomplish this goal, but then I am worried that all the attention I am starting to get will make me get a big head. LOL, HELP!!! Getting more attention, not just from other males, but hubby too. Hmmmm.........

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AJIOTAL 4/16/2007 7:45PM

    Well not "any man"

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AJIOTAL 4/16/2007 7:44PM

    LOL funny you should bring this up!! I hope I don't get a big head and if I do God will put me in MY PLACE again for sure. My friend was like "you not even going to know my name anymore when you lose weight" I fantasize about being a sexy diva and attracting this FINE Shemar Moore type of guy all of the time. But all in all I really have feelings for my male friend but he is really not the type of guy I fantasize about and I am not the type of girl he see's in his dreams! So basically it all boils down to this, looks don't last but love does and thats all that matters (but it is fun to get noticed by any man) I hope I can maintain my weight because right now I have hit a plateau ALREADY! Check me blog if you want. Talk layta!!

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Sunday, April 15, 2007

I just realized TOM must be on the way because I am extremely sleepy the past two days, and I have the munchies. I am going to focus extra hard with him on the way because I don't want to miss our on my April 30th goal weight of 235. I want him to come on and leave already, because I always have a tendency to gain 5lbs, but I want him to come and go so those lbs don't show on the scale. LOL. Every month why must we go through this????


15 days

Sunday, April 15, 2007

Okay, I am down to 15 days til my daughters bday, I am hoping to be down to 235, I plan on going to GNC that morning and do my weigh in on their scale, it is very accurate and down to the oz. I am re-evaluating my self and plan to make this goal, I last did my official weigh in on April 1st for 244, I don't know my current #, I am not stressing I do plan to do my weigh in on the 30th.

Drink 8 glasses of water
Get 8 hours of sleep
Eat 5 fruits & veggies a day
Stay within calorie range

I am pretty much doing the water and calorie range, I just need to work on my sleep and get my fruits and veggies. I also slacked off on my crunches this week, so I need to crunch back up, Hopefully if I meet my goal for April 30th, I will be at my 50 lbs mark (231) for Mothers Day. YEAH!!!! I need to find a reward for that. A friend of mine was telling me to go out to eat, I had to explain that I no longer reward with food, I might order a nice summer dress, to wear.


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