Sunday, March 11, 2007
Today I am a mixed ball of feelings. One minute I am so excited about this journey the next I am like constantly writing to help me plan out this journey. I really want to lose weight and keep it off this time. I think of all the positives and there really aren't any negatives in this process. I know how to stay grounded and do what I would like to do. I am aiming for a 2lbs weight loss a week and right now I am aiming to get down to 235 by April 30th, that is my daughters birthday and she will be 6 I will then be back down to my pre-pregnancy weight. LOL 6 years later. I didn't even count the 9 months. Oh well my goal weight is to get down to 181. My weight loss chart says that for my height, I should be 143-155 but right now I am just aiming to get down to 181, then I will look at losing down to 160. I don't want to lose too much neither do I plan on gaining my weight back. I have tried before to lose this weight only to gain it back, but when I look at the times before I don't remember feeling like I feel now about it. I mean I was excited and doing what i was doing but I wasn't thinking about the long term process of this change.