Sunday, May 27, 2007
Okay tomorrow is the day, The day of the weigh in. Tomorrow morning I will wake up at 0800 and head in to do my weigh in at 0830. I will then return home to do my post of my Memorial Day weigh in. I plan to stop all fluids tonight at 1900 hrs. LOL I act like I am on a mission and it truly is, a mission to have a good weigh in. I am going to eat dinner around 1730 and nothing else after 1900 hrs. I'm kind of excited, nervous, because I don't weigh in too often, because I hate to see the fluctuations and I seem to do better by waiting. So I will see tomorrow morning. Plus I will see the results of limiting my meat intake, increased workouts on some days, and starting work. I will start working on my June plan so that I will get everything in order for June. I do plan on making a goal for my bday and that will be better planned after the weigh in tomorrow!!!
Saturday, May 26, 2007
I want it bad. I want it more than anything, more than a fat kid wants cake. LOL. I just want to cross the finish line and see, feel, smell and taste the victory. I want to live it out for life, never to cross the lines again of having to lose the weight again. I want to be the one who they say she used to be really big then she just shriveled up. That would be funny. I want to be that sexy Mom that is in shape, takes care of herself they think I am her sister not her mom type of deal. The hubby is jealous because I catch the attention causing whip lash type. LOL okay maybe I am getting beside myself but I do want this more than you know, and I am willing to work on it as I have to. I will not stop or give up til I finish and even then I know that I will have to work on a maintenance phase.
Saturday, May 26, 2007
I used to think that it was selfish of me for thinking of me, and when I look back at that reasoning its because of the way I was brought up and the roles that have been placed on me. Its like if I don't put others before me or my needs then I am being selfish and not caring for others. I have started to work on this conception because I disagree with it. I believe that no one can take care of us, like we can. We know what we need and what we want. No one knows us better than ourselves with the exception of GOD. I think its up to us to make sure we are fueling our bodies with the right foods, drinking the right fluids, getting the proper rest and exercise to make sure we are feeling better about ourselves and doing the right things for ourselves. I look at how I feel now compared to last year when I was heavier and I was a mess. I think of how often I was doing for others, but then neglecting myself in the process, it was a shame because people will take advantage of you if you don't let them know that you are trying to do something for yourself. YOU owe it to YOURSELF to take care of YOU. I have been taking things slow and working on me. I am coming to new terms with me, and yes it will be all about me, there is room for others but we all need to be on the same page. We are doing it healthy style, no other style here on out!!!
Thursday, May 24, 2007
ME, Me, ME, ME, Me,
I have to do this for "ME". I had someone disagree with me on this one. I came to my breaking point and I woke up one morning deciding that it was time for me to make a change. I took the steps one by one to get here, I didn't think of anyone else to be my reason to lose weight. I can look at the benefits of my losing and yes 1 of those benefits will be to teach my daughter to live healthier, exercise and live a better life. I did not lose weight to look better to or for my husband. I didn't think of him in the equation, I am not trying to be selfish in this situation its just that sometimes people think that your reasons aren't good enough, and that everything I do for me is not about someone else. I am losing for me.
I just don't think that losing weight for someone else is a good reason, We all want to be attractive and feel good about ourselves but not at someone elses eepectations. It has to be your own!!!
Thursday, May 24, 2007
You know this journey is everlasting. It will never end. I may plan to get down to 181 lbs, then change my goal to lose even more weight, but then you know the lessons I have learned, the ones I will continue to learn and the ones I will need to share will all help me during this process. I know that we are all here to help one another in the forms of motivation, encouragement, and support. I plan and make goals to reach will help me along the way, I just have to take it one step at a time. I guess this is my half way speech, I know I am close to it, I hope the scale say so on Monday May 28th, Memorial Day!!!
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