Saturday, May 26, 2007
I used to think that it was selfish of me for thinking of me, and when I look back at that reasoning its because of the way I was brought up and the roles that have been placed on me. Its like if I don't put others before me or my needs then I am being selfish and not caring for others. I have started to work on this conception because I disagree with it. I believe that no one can take care of us, like we can. We know what we need and what we want. No one knows us better than ourselves with the exception of GOD. I think its up to us to make sure we are fueling our bodies with the right foods, drinking the right fluids, getting the proper rest and exercise to make sure we are feeling better about ourselves and doing the right things for ourselves. I look at how I feel now compared to last year when I was heavier and I was a mess. I think of how often I was doing for others, but then neglecting myself in the process, it was a shame because people will take advantage of you if you don't let them know that you are trying to do something for yourself. YOU owe it to YOURSELF to take care of YOU. I have been taking things slow and working on me. I am coming to new terms with me, and yes it will be all about me, there is room for others but we all need to be on the same page. We are doing it healthy style, no other style here on out!!!
Thursday, May 24, 2007
ME, Me, ME, ME, Me,
I have to do this for "ME". I had someone disagree with me on this one. I came to my breaking point and I woke up one morning deciding that it was time for me to make a change. I took the steps one by one to get here, I didn't think of anyone else to be my reason to lose weight. I can look at the benefits of my losing and yes 1 of those benefits will be to teach my daughter to live healthier, exercise and live a better life. I did not lose weight to look better to or for my husband. I didn't think of him in the equation, I am not trying to be selfish in this situation its just that sometimes people think that your reasons aren't good enough, and that everything I do for me is not about someone else. I am losing for me.
I just don't think that losing weight for someone else is a good reason, We all want to be attractive and feel good about ourselves but not at someone elses eepectations. It has to be your own!!!
Thursday, May 24, 2007
You know this journey is everlasting. It will never end. I may plan to get down to 181 lbs, then change my goal to lose even more weight, but then you know the lessons I have learned, the ones I will continue to learn and the ones I will need to share will all help me during this process. I know that we are all here to help one another in the forms of motivation, encouragement, and support. I plan and make goals to reach will help me along the way, I just have to take it one step at a time. I guess this is my half way speech, I know I am close to it, I hope the scale say so on Monday May 28th, Memorial Day!!!
Tuesday, May 22, 2007
I found myself wondering when am I going to meet my goal, I havent really sat down to plan a meeting date, I have been just taking it one step at a time, I found myself wondering why I am not farther down the line than I am, but yet I had to change my thinking around and be thankful that I have come this far. Its tricky this weight loss issue. I am a very positive person, but at the same time I have my down moments, too. Its funny though because as soon I feel one of those moments coming on, I think how far I have come, which in turn means how much closer I am to my goal. I am almost half way there, I will find out on Monday if I am or not. I hope to be. That is half way to the victory line. LOL I have come a long way just to get to this point and there is no stopping...............
Monday, May 21, 2007
Reflecting on myself can happen at any moment, its never an appointed time. Its funny because I find my reflections to be those of all that has passed and the things to come. I look at what I have lost in the weight lost (Insecurities) and what I am gaining (Confidence). Sounds cocky huh!?
I looked back at the aches in my body that I had and never went to the doctor to have them looked at because I never thought twice about them, but I have realized that they were all weight related because now with the weight gone I can see my body couldnt hold all of that weight. The aches and pains have left!!!
I have looked back at my parenting skills and although I was doing alot with my daughter at home, I didnt feel comfortable going out.
I used to hate working out, now I can't let a day slip by without me working out in some form. I have even progressed to running, I am starting to get irritated by those who make excuses because there arent any, there are days when I am tired and drag my self into the gym to workout, why ? because its going to make me better in the long run, and the other thing is why wouldn't I want to take care of myself. I guess you can see I talk to myself!!!
I found myself looking for some of my clothes that I have outgrown. I had alot of capri's to wear last year thanks to Fashion bugs, buy 1 get another for a dollar sale. I donated those capris last Sept to Goodwill, yet, I had forgotten the other day when I found myself looking for them.
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