Wednesday, May 16, 2007
Okay here it goes, I have finally started working again, (monday was my first day) I have to Thank God, first because I was off for 9 months, which gave me time to work on losing my weight, and slowly get back into the mix of things. I went to the gym on Monday after I got off, however yesterday I didn't have time to go to the gym, so I rushed home, fed my daughter and then I went to hit the track. I am just taking every thing one step at a time, because I have to lose this weight, I really want to reach my goals, I definitely don't want to gain it back, I am going to do this. I even took my lunch so that I would have something to eat, instead of running out to the fast food joints, or the snack machine. I will just take some snacks to keep there for me when I get a munchy or feeling lethargic. LOL..............needing energy. This lifestyle is just something that I have to keep working towards. I just have to be DETERMINED not to let anyhthing get in my way!!!
Monday, May 14, 2007
Listening to the radio today, I heard Michael Baisden say that if you lose weight, gain weight, stop taking care of yourself in the course of a relationship that should be means of breaking up. It got me to thinking.........hmmmm..........How did my spouse feel when I gained weight? I asked him many times before, and his response was always that of " I don't care about your weight" or the "If you want to lose it I will help you" or the " YOu look good the way you are" Its funny though because looking back I look at my own pictures I think, UGH!
I kind of wonder how would I feel if my spouse started gaining weight???? I would actually have to approach him about it, before it got of hand. I think that if you love and care for your spouse that you should be looking out for their best interest. I look back at my own weight gain and think to myself would I want to be my spouse, with me looking the way I looked?? The answer is no, because you would have to take into consideration did I care for myself, I think that its up to us to help take care of one another, think about it health wise, I want to be there to live a long healthy life, see my daughter have kids, and that kid have kids, and so on. I don't think you should leave someone because they gained weight, but if anything
We sometimes confuse looking good, nice clothes, hair done, make up done, and the right shoes as looking good, and yet when we strip away all of that, we are not what we want to be. We have to do this, we cannot just let ourselves go, it's not even about keeping a spouse its about BEING YOU!!!!!!!!
Saturday, May 12, 2007
I'm looking to be me, looking to be free, to find the girl who is deep down inside of me. She is slowly coming back out, like she was buried beneath the fat. She is me, the long lost me, the me I used to be, I need her to come back and live life like I'm supposed to be, I missed that girl, never realized til layer after layer started peeling away she slowly started coming back alive, its funny how I forgot how to live, like it was lost in the wind but now looking back I realize that I had not forgotten, but had put on a suit of shame, a suit of discomfort, a suit of excuses, a suit of laziness, a suit of so many things the list could go on and on. I am glad that as th suit is peeling away she is showing her face, the new suit is filled with energy, life, love, comfort, motivation and determination. I am proud to wear this suit yet it doesn't fit right just yet I am growing into it, because it is in a one size fits all and as my weight comes down it will be just right, maybe a little big but thats okay its to share with others on this journey as well.
Saturday, May 12, 2007
I have made it, I never gave it a second thought, this has been something that I have been thinking about for quite some time. I have been thinking about giving up meat, not completely but for most of my diet, meaning maybe once or twice a week, but not even that often, because I am truely not missing anything. I will tell you from this week of not eating meat, I was okay with it, I noticed that not alot of places cater to those who don't eat meat, you have to be creative with your meals if you will make this a lifestyle, I will still eat eggs, beans and nuts although they are a part of the meat family. I am not claiming to be a full vegetarian or a partial vegetarian, I just don't want to eat all of that meat. I did lose 3 lbs since leaving out meat. I am not looking for them so if you see them, I advise you to run as fast as you can. LOL, I do know that I dont feel as heavy after a meal, as I do when I eat meat. I plan to continue to do this maybe this week I will eat meat once, but I want to see what effect this has on my cycle. I wonder if it will lessen my flow. I will write more on that as the time comes.
Friday, May 11, 2007
Today is another day, yet it is anew because to me every day is a journey on the path to success. I am on a road that has been travelled many times, yet I never got this far down the road to see the accomplishments of hard work and determination. Who would have known that this would be so refreshing and helpful to me.
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