Saturday, March 20, 2010
hey all so thank you soo much for all those great comments on yesterdays blog..
for some reason, i started good in the morning.. but we went fishing, and i brought up chips and fishy crackers for fishing (for my kid and bf) (and my apples for me) but after i was done my apple... i ended up eating the other chips! EEEK but i didn't have much but still.. and then the fishy crackers, and then some Smirnoff ice light! (2 of them) i dunno what happens to me when i go fishing, but i love to eat! so next time, NO CHIPS OR FISHY CRACKERS! but then when i got home, i dunno what else happened to me, i started to cheat even more! and i ordered pizza for the boys (i was babysitting and promised my son..) and what do you know? i ate some PIZZA!!! eeek! and plus i made myself yummy garlic shrimp, (which isn't bad) but i ate more than i should have)
i dunno what was with me yesterday.. (Even the great inches and feeling good that morning) something snapped.. and maybe i realized i am actutally changing my life here.. and i didn't want to let go of that old way of eating...................)
i feel soo motivated, and new! it is soo weird! i set up little encouragement notes to help me through the day 6 times a day through my phone to pop up.. and i just feel better.. (man iv gone to bathroom soo many times as well and i feel like i lost 10lbs there.. lol (TMI) lol sorry..
but i dunno today it is like a brand new me! weird.. i just feel so much better, and maybe i just needed that weird day yesterday for today and rest of my life.. i dunno.. i dunno if im just bull sh!tting myself or what.. but its like i have a weight lifted off of my shoulders today..
and i think i started out great this morning i just felt it first thing i woke up.. and i just started my brand new life from the get go this morning.. and yeah...... (for jeff hehe)
but WOW this is a different feeeling.. and maybe it helps i have a friend who i found online here in SP who lives really close by.. and we both have same goals, same amount of weight.. and its just really nice to have another friend who is a girl who i can talk with about this diet who is going through the diet at same time, and to give each other encouragement that is more than online (cause i cant always get online all lday long, but texting and stuff.. i dunno it helps alot.. and that we can get together like once a week is soooo cool!
yeah so thats how i feel.. and with my great encuragment from SP and from family, and from Jeff (bf) and new friend whom i can be friends with in person as well as online.. I thank you :)
and we can all do this, and get to be where we are SUPPOST to be for our bodys to LIVE.. really LIVE and not be tired or huffy puffy, and if we do get tired and huffy puffy, it is because we actutally did something to make us feel that way, and not just a walk up the stairs, or just every day living that shouldnt make us feel that way.. and i CANT WAIT TO FEEL that way!! and i know i will! :)
ok im done for now.. sheesh i talk alot.. and maybe it all sounds stupid.. but to me.. WOW!