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Sunday, October 20, 2013

Sunday is my official weigh-in day, though I do also check throughout the week. Needless to say, it's great to be 30+ lbs down from my highest weight, instead of bouncing around between 20-25 lbs lost. Of course, the fact that some pants that were fitting too well are now looser is also concrete example that things are going well.

I have not had a week like this in a very long time. I tracked everything I ate and didn't take any extra licks in there like I usually have when doing things like making the kids' lunches or doing other cooking. I resisted temptations (something that is completely unheard of for me). I exercised, not as much as I would have liked, but I think I have figured out enough ways to work around my ankle so that the upcoming week is better in that area.

There were a few things that could have tripped me up this weekend, but didn't:

-My husband and I went to a Mexican restaurant yesterday. I had looked at the menu online in advance so I knew what they served. We decided to split an order of chicken fajitas - that usually has a good amount of veggies, plus an order is generally pretty generously sized.

When we got to the restaurant, they immediately brought out the basket of tortilla chips with salsa. Oh, how could I forget the chips? I love chips and salsa! I figured out how I was doing for the day and determined that I would be fine with having a 1-ounce serving of chips (I guessed 10 chips) and 2 Tbsp of salsa. After I had that amount, I pushed the basket toward my husband. I was done. I think this was the first time ever that he and I have gone to a Mexican restaurant and the two of us have only eaten one basket of tortilla chips before the meal.

-The chicken fajita order was HUGE! So much so that even with splitting the order, there was still filling left over. Instead of trying to finish it off, we just got a to-go box. I was full from what I had eaten, so ordering dessert was definitely not in the plan.

-After doing some other activities, we went to pick up our kids from a friend's house. We got there a little earlier than anticipated, so they were still eating dinner. My friend said, "We made brownies for dessert, so I'll just put those in a baggie for your kids. Would you like one, too?" As a die-hard chocoholic, the words that came out of my mouth next surprised even me: "Oh, no, thank you. I'm very full from our meal" and I told her about the gigantic fajita. "Are you sure?" she asked again. "Oh, yes," I replied, "I appreciate it, but no." We left, I gave the kids the brownies, and I didn't spend all evening pining over the brownie that could have been.

-Later in the evening, I was feeling a little hungry. The old me would have devoured the leftovers. But instead, I ate a few carrots and nibbled on a couple peppers and onions from the leftovers. Nice that I will have yummy leftovers for dinner tonight emoticon

-On Sundays, we go to church and Bible study. Every week at Bible study, one of the families is responsible for something brunch-y for all the attendees. Not knowing what was going to be served, I ate half of a protein bar and hoped there would be something semi-nutritious there. It ended up being these muffins as big as your head (cut in half, but still not a good choice), powdered donut holes, cake donuts, and bananas. This did help - I'm not a big donut fan, and muffins sometimes leave a filmy residue in my mouth. Was it worth it to spend calories on that? No, but I was tempted by the muffins a bit. It wasn't a big draw, so I grabbed a banana and sat down. I had the rest of my protein bar after Bible study to round out my breakfast.


Of course, there are always other temptations. For example, my husband's birthday is this week, which means I will be making treats for his workplace and something special for his birthday here at home. Will I lick the bowls? If I do, I will be sure to track it. I will also be going out for coffee with a friend this week, and we all know what landmines exist in coffee shops. But, I just need to learn from my successes, make the best choices I can in the moment, pray for strength in those situations that I know may be problematic, and forgive myself when I fall short.

Hope all is going well in your world!

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LIZZIE138 10/30/2013 11:19AM

    Your self control is shining through. Preplanning when eating out is something I always mean to do but never get around to doing. You have shown me it is worth the effort. Keep up the good work. You are an inspiration to me.

Liz emoticon

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DDOORN 10/20/2013 10:45PM

    Your SPARK is stronger than those temptations...woo hoo!


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    Way to go i am so excited for you and how well you are doing. You are my inspiration

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HEYITSLISA 10/20/2013 7:43PM

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KELLYD2112 10/20/2013 5:08PM


Yep Yep Yep! Temptation is around every single corner it seems like.

I went to Applebees Friday night and to prepare I looked over the menu online and the nutrition info. Yikes! It's a good thing. I had no idea how high calorie the food there is. I was in shock. For the first time in ages, I ordered from the Weight Watchers Menu. Another place we go a lot of Sundays after church is Long John Silvers. Went online to check there info out and boy oh boy. Now that I'm trying to arm myself with calorie info, I fully realize where all this weight is coming from having gained 40 pounds in 3 years since getting married. I've been eating what my hubby and step daughter eat (not wanting to rock the boat) and eating a lot more than ever because of the stress of a new marriage, job, step-mothering, being away from my grown kids, living in a new state etc. No wonder I've blown up. Now that I've adjusted to all the changes I realize I've got to take control of what's going in my mouth even if I rock the boat a little or I might get so fat I'll sink the boat I'm trying not to rock.

I enjoyed your blog so much. It really helps to hear how others deal with their daily challenges.

Do not emoticon to temptation, emoticon from it. I burn more calories from running from temptation than anything else I do emoticon
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_BABE_ 10/20/2013 5:05PM

    emoticon I am proud of you for exhibiting such self control. It's tough to say no and I know that it's so easy to say well maybe just this once I can indulge or one brownie won't hurt.

Truth is it does hurt because every time we relax that resolve it's easier to do the next time but at least the reverse is true as week and the week after it will become second nature...I am saying this with my fingers has to get easier, doesn't it? emoticon

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DELIA38961 10/20/2013 4:44PM

    congrats on your progress so far emoticon

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Finally -- FINALLY Feeling the Spark Again!

Thursday, October 17, 2013

And I am pretty excited about it emoticon

I feel like I have been sputtering along for quite some time. I had regained a big chunk of the weight I lost last year, though I am grateful that I came to my senses this past summer and started turning the freight train around. While that was a good first step, I was stuck there for a few months, basically maintaining, but not making more progress toward better health.

Then I had my bloodwork done last week for my checkup with the doctor (which was today). Again, not as bad as it had been prior to starting with SP last year, but definitely an uptick.

I think a little explosion went off in my head as I read the results. "Seriously? Seriously! What did I think would happen? How could I *not* expect this?"

This first feeling of anger quickly gave way to determination: "Enough of what I have been doing these past few months." Time to do what I need to do to make this work:

1. Pray. I know this may not be a part of the plan for some of you, but it is something that has been a big benefit to me. This past week, when I have felt the cravings or the triggers that lead to overeating, I have prayed for the strength to overcome it. And it has worked.

2. Tracking my food. I have not been this good about tracking my food in a very long time. Why I let myself get lax about it is beyond me, but I have been tracking every bite I eat and staying within the calorie range I have set for myself over the past several days. Not surprisingly, I've been getting good results on the scale, too.

3. Meal planning. This also allows me to plan my grocery shopping, which makes junk food less likely to make its way into the house.

4. Sleep. emoticon Feels so good to be well rested!

5. Exercise. That has been more hit and miss because of the fact that the ankle that I sprained over the Labor Day weekend is still giving me grief. I rest it and ice it, it gets to feeling better so I resume walking for exercise again, but within a week it is hurting (usually after I have walked outside).

At my appointment, my doctor was concerned that it is not healing as fast as he would like it to be, so he had it x-rayed to make sure that I didn't have a stress fracture in there. He didn't think it was likely, but good to be on the safe side. I didn't get a call from the doctor's office this afternoon, so I'm hoping it's OK.

He does want me to continue icing and resting it, and is restricting my exercise to about 10 minutes of walking every other day for the next 2-3 weeks. I am bummed about this because that means I will not get to participate in the 3K that I was planning to do on the 26th. emoticon

But, knowing that this is my situation, I need to find other ways to get a workout in. I know SP has a lot of videos so I just need to find something that will work for what I can do right now.

Hoping this month is shaping up to be a good one for you, too!

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_BABE_ 10/18/2013 1:09PM


It's funny how getting mad can really be the trick to turning a corner. I finally got tired of feeling like a failure. I want to change things up and put a new spin on life.....losing 100 pounds is a start!


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DDOORN 10/18/2013 9:38AM

    So pleased to hear of your progress!

A fellow SP member turned me onto a very helpful piece of inspiration:


Be sure to check out the YouTube link to Lissa's TEDx talk...GREAT INSPIRATION!


.thx for stopping by my blog! :-)

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HEYITSLISA 10/18/2013 7:10AM

    SP has tons of seated workout videos. I love them and do them all the time. Despite being done sitting they are still pretty challenging. emoticon

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Name Change

Friday, September 13, 2013

I have been contemplating changing my SP username for a while since the other one didn't "add value" to my journey here. But, being the creatively challenged person that I am, nothing really came to me.

Then I stumbled onto fellow Sparker STEPH-KNEE's page and read her blog post from today. In it, she talked about the negative mental tapes that rear their ugly heads when we are working to improve ourselves -- "What's the point? You're just going to regain it all again, anyway." "You've always been fat. What makes you think that will ever change?" Blah, blah, BLAH!

It's something I have faced in my journey. Some days, I have been able to quiet the voices, and other days, the voices ring so loudly in my ears that they seem to drown everything else out. Being able to manage their effect on me is as much a part of what I am doing to be healthy as logging my food in the nutrition tracker or choosing to exercise.

In thinking about those negative messages, it came to me that to effectively neutralize them, I need to redefine the situation. I need to redefine *me*. Yes, I've always been the fat girl. I don't remember a moment in my life that I wasn't, really. But just because it's always been, does it always need to be? Truthfully, no.

So I was going to change my name to REDEFINING_ME. But it was taken -- dang. Being the nerd I am, I went to to find another way to convey the same message. I saw the word "reinvent." REINVENTING_ME - yes, that works! Except it was taken, too.

Then I spied "recreate." I paused. With how I perceive "redefine" and "reinvent," there seems to be an element of retaining what is at the core. But "recreate?" It felt a little scarier because I see recreating something as totally breaking it down and making it into something new.

"But," a small voice in my head said, "isn't that what you *should* be doing? Making a total break from past perceptions, thoughts, and actions and recreating yourself in a completely new way?"

As scary as that seems, it is what I should be doing. To succeed, I need to embrace something that is totally foreign to how I have been living life up until now. To make the small, incremental changes that will take me further from my current existence to a new way of living.


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DDOORN 9/25/2013 9:09AM

    LOVE the name change! Goes along with this quote used by SparkPeople:


which I've put on my Pinterest board:



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WHITNEYLD 9/20/2013 12:48PM

    Love it!

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_BABE_ 9/13/2013 5:24PM

    Love the new name. You can be who you want to rules. emoticon

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HWNHMMBRD 9/13/2013 4:52PM

    I think that is a emoticon idea.

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CAN_DO73 9/13/2013 2:19PM

    Good for you! I like the name choice and the reasons behind it. Incidentally, I chose my name because have never really felt like I could do this, so CAN DO it is :) Great minds... haha!

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HEYITSLISA 9/13/2013 1:19PM

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DAWNSJOURNEY 9/13/2013 1:08PM

    Here is to Recreating YOU !! How awesome .. pushing through the fear.. oh how free you will feel !!

you can do it ...

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Small Changes Matter

Thursday, September 12, 2013

Lately, the changes I have made to my SP page have been as a result of quotes that make me think. Since the quote I just put up is so hard to read on my page itself, I'll put it here, too:

It's one of those "Yes, I know this, but I need to be reminded of it" kind of quotes. And the fact that this truth was brought to my attention twice in a 24-hour period, I thought that God might be trying to bring it to the forefront for me so that I would, y'know, incorporate it into my life.

It is something I should keep in mind since there are times where I can be an all-or-nothing kind of girl. It's silly, I know, since the small choices (both positive and negative) do add up and can either move me closer to my goal or take me further away. No need to be overwhelmed by it all. Whether it is eating a fruit or veggie instead of a bag of chips or drinking enough water or getting enough sleep, it all helps!

The other place that my life and this wisdom intersected was on an interview that one of my SP idols, Jan-Marie (BOBCATGIRL76), did for SparkRadio. She is truly a rock star, and her story of how she has lost nearly 100 lbs and keeps focused is inspirational. Here's the link to her blog post on her SparkRadio interview:

Jan-Marie also talked about how she made small choices that ended up having a tremendous impact. So cool to see her real-life example of implementing this practice!

What small changes have you made that have positively affected your efforts to become healthier? If you're just starting out, what one thing can you change today?

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GINNYGIRL1982 10/11/2013 6:16PM

    Yes Baby Steps!

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BOBCATGIRL76 10/11/2013 2:44PM

    THANK YOU SO MUCH! You have no idea what it means when I randomly come across a Sparkfriend's blog to see that I've inspired someone. I SO appreciate your kind words. It means more than you could ever know.

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HOLLYS_NEW_LIFE 9/12/2013 8:24PM

    It's all about the baby steps!

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HEYITSLISA 9/12/2013 3:42PM

    I love Jan-Marie, she is so stinkin' adorable!

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KENDRACARROLL 9/12/2013 3:25PM

    Add all the small changes and mini steps and you'll get there.
Looking at the big picture is much too overwhelming.
Concentrate on one meal and one workout at a time; keeps down the stress level :)
Keep pushing! Practice makes perfect :)

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HWNHMMBRD 9/12/2013 2:59PM

    emoticon and well said.

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Getting Back the Spark a Little

Thursday, August 29, 2013

I can't believe that my kids are nearing the end of their second week in school! And as much as I miss them during the day, a regular pattern is emerging:

-I'm getting to be around 11:30-11:45 every night. No, not the 10:30 that I had been aiming for, but given that I have been getting up around 6:30 (before my alarm goes off at 7 AM), I am getting close to 7 hours of sleep! emoticon

-Meal planning has been off and on throughout my process, but I always feel better when there is a plan. It makes grocery shopping easier, it saves time from trying to figure out what we have and don't have, meals can be more healthful, etc. And not only do I have the time to do this again, but there is a relatively good chance that I will be able to stick with it because we aren't going all over the place like we do in the summer! DH made a yummy chili tonight emoticon

-I'm getting into cleaning, like a deeper level of cleaning than I have done before. That is a weird one for me because -- true confessions time -- I have been a slob my entire life. There's a lot to be done, but I am taking it slowly, cleaning one area, then ensuring that it stays clean before expanding into another area. I'm working up a sweat when I do this cleaning, so I guess it should be benefiting me in other ways, too, right? ;)

I know that consistent schedules come and go, but I am grateful for the stability of the past couple weeks to feel like I am making progress. Eventually, it will all fall into place!

Another thing I saw this past week was a notice about a 5K/3K that a nearby nonprofit is having toward the end of October. I like the idea of doing a 3K because:

a) I am dreadfully slow. Like really, really slow. At least with a 3K I will be able to finish it well under an hour.
b) I want to get my 7-year-old daughter into this more. She's slim and likes to participate in basketball, softball, and swimming, but she peters out if our family walks go much beyond .75 miles in one clip. Given the time frame, I think we can be ready for this event. She's excited for it, and I like how this gives us a goal to shoot for.

That's all from me. Hope you have had a great week of Sparking!

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FORBANDE 9/7/2013 10:56AM

    On the house cleaning front, is awesome!! Check it out if you get a few moments. Lots of tips and tricks for those of us not naturally "organized". :)

YAY for the good sleep! From the sounds of it, it's really helping your energy levels.

The 3K sounds perfect. Just do it! Don't worry about how slow you are. Race people are so incredibly supportive!

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HEYITSLISA 8/30/2013 5:11PM

    I'm a slob too. emoticon I'm taking some vacation days week after next with the intention of cleaning thoroughly before winter comes.

A 3k sounds like an awesome idea!

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DAUGHTEROFTWIN 8/30/2013 11:21AM

    It's good to see ya girl! Keep plugging away. I have done one regular 5K and 2 obstacle course 5Ks and another 5K in Oct. I am SLOW!!! Don't worry about your speed and just do it. A 3K sounds like the perfect introduction for you and your daughter. YAAAAYYYY for you!!

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KENDRACARROLL 8/30/2013 10:14AM

    It does sound like you're getting back your spark. Any time there is a plan, anytime there is an accomplishment, there is a spark. Cleaning definitely counts :)
I like the 3k idea. Great exercise and precious time with your daughter.
Keep it going.

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DDOORN 8/29/2013 11:18PM

    There is no such thing as slow when you're putting one foot ahead of the other! :-)

Kudos! I'm putting the bellows to your SPARK!


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