Sunday, August 19, 2012
The scale looked exactly the same today as it did last week -- neither up nor down. That is a good thing considering that I had two of the three special events this past week. I got through the first one without much trouble, but the other one wasn't so great. Granted, I am making progress by being more purposeful about what is happening and I can tell that I am not partaking as much as I have in the past, but I still need to work very diligently on limiting my consumption at special events.
In looking at how things went last week, I identified three S's that I am going to make for my focus this week:
1. Sleep. For some reason, I have been exercising at around 8 or 9 at night lately. I know you are not supposed to do that, but that is just how it was working out. The result of doing that was that I would be up until about 1 AM or so. With school starting this week for my kids, that is a bad thing because we need to get up early to get to school in time.
2. Salt. When I first started on SP, I had a hard time reining in my sodium intake because I had not been aware of how much "hidden sodium" there was in food. By making a few adjustments, I've been able to bring it down to an appropriate level. But when I was out for my second event last night, my Achilles heel was potato chips and tortilla chips. That surprised me because I'm usually so big on sweets. It was a good reminder why I don't keep that in the house.
3. Schedule. I'm not sure why, but things have felt off all summer. I just never got into a real groove. I am hoping that the structure of school helps bring this along as I work to establish a regularity to my days.
What things do you find that you need to focus on more intently?
Wednesday, August 15, 2012
I had an interesting conversation with my 6-year-old daughter, my dear Miss M, last night:
Miss M (trying to make her hands like the hooves on Olivia the Pig*): It would be hard to hold on to anything with two fingers!
Me: Yes, it would. But did you know that some people are born with only two fingers on a hand?
Miss M: Really?
Me: Yes. Or some are born without an arm or a leg.
Miss M: Wow... it would be really hard to do stuff without an arm or a leg.
Me: Well, people learn how to do things without it because that's all they know. Or they might get something that helps them, kind of like the hearing aids Daddy uses.**
Miss M: I am sure glad I have all my fingers and arms and legs!
Me: And we show our appreciation to God for our bodies by eating nutritous food and getting exercise to keep us healthy.
After I said that to my daughter, I sat back and thought to myself, "Yeah, we do. Or we should, anyway." Of course, when being honest with myself, I know that I haven't shown that appreciation very often -- quite the opposite, in fact.
Whether or not you believe in God isn't the point here. It's about realizing how amazing the human body is! It deserves to be treated with love and respect, not abused with inactivity and with food that does nothing to nourish it.
No matter what has been happening in my life, it wasn't my body's fault. And yet, when I have been sad or angry or stressed out or bored or celebrating or whatever other excuse there is, I have chosen to harm this vessel that is carrying me through life. It's sad to realize what a dysfunctional relationship I have had with my body
This ended up being a positive epiphany (despite the fact that it made me feel bad for all the choices I have made in the past). To see that I have been actively working for the past month and a half to greatly limit my previous choices is gratifying. To understand that eating nutritous food and exercising isn't a chore, but showing appreciation for my wonderful body, was a little bit mind-blowing. It helps make this all a bit easier on some levels.
*Olivia is a storybook character created by Ian Falconer. She is quite precocious, much like Miss M :)
**My husband is hard of hearing.
Sunday, August 12, 2012
The scale gods smiled on me today -- I am down 1.5 lbs from last week Given that I had gained a pound last week, this is a net .5 lb since I reset my goals in week 3, but a total of 19.5 lbs since I started back with SP a little over a month ago. I'm definitely happy to be back on track.
Thanks to everyone who lent their support last week during my minor freak-out. The community here is definitely a big reason why people are able to refocus on their goals even when they fall. I appreciate being helped back up and set on the right path again. You all are
I've always believed that it's important to learn from experiences, both good and bad. Here's what I took from last week:
1) One bad day can be rectified. It's so easy to keep staring at the train wrecks that cross our paths that we fail to remember all the beauty of the road that came before it. Instead of letting everything be consumed by the train wreck, I need to remember all the positive things, working to circumvent the disaster so I can progress again.
2) Keep in mind what could be affecting the weight gain. Certainly, overeating brings weight gain in the form of fat, but it also is weight gain due to water retention since many of the items that were consumed the day before were of the high sodium variety. Getting back on track will certainly take off the water weight quickly.
3) Plan better for future events. Knowing that I have three special events in the next seven days, I need to develop an action plan and make a commitment to myself to stick with it. ADARKARA had a great idea of eating a big, low-cal salad before going. Especially since I don't do dressings or dips and no longer have croutons and bacon bits in the house, that is feasible. Taking a veggie tray to said events is also helpful. And being the designated driver for those events with alcohol will keep me from ingesting too many liquid calories.
4) Chances are, I am going to mess up *something.* Being real about this will help me be more OK when it does happen. That's not to say that I will be blasť, but accepting it and using it as a learning moment is a lot better than self-flagellation.
What have you learned from your missteps?
Wednesday, August 08, 2012
So after Sunday's pep talk, I thought, "Alright, I got this. I can do this." And every day this week has started out well -- getting in a healthy breakfast, a nutritious lunch, exercising every day -- but then I crash and burn starting in late afternoon.
Yesterday was especially appalling. It was the end of softball season potluck for my daughter's team. Knowing what is usually brought to these gatherings is crap, our contribution was a good-sized tray with fresh veggies and low-fat dip. At least there would be something healthy to eat. There was a decent amount of fresh fruit there, so I was doing OK with things, until the ice cream came out, that is.
I did a mid-week peek at the scale this morning to survey the damage, and it wasn't pretty.
I groaned. I had a good idea of how I wanted to handle things going into yesterday's party, and it all fell apart. Why? Was it boredom? Anxiety over not knowing many people? Perhaps a combination of the two.
This frustrates me because there is more of this to come. Between now and Labor Day, there is going to be a family birthday, a party that my husband's boss throws every year, the church picnic, and a gathering with my husband's family (in which the hostess has asked us to chip in monetarily instead of bringing a dish to pass). How will I do with each of these challenges, especially the one that I can't guarantee that something healthy will be there?
My mind keeps going back to something Einstein said: "Insanity: doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results."
By that definition, I'm not insane because I do the same thing again and again, but I know what the results will be. Why would I do that? I know those of you who are reading this don't have the answers, nor would I expect you to.
I'm just frustrated with myself and my (apparent) inability to get this right. There are always going to be the special events, and I need to learn how to navigate them successfully. If not, I'm going to be stuck in this rut of my own making.
Sunday, August 05, 2012
I may as well cut to the chase -- I gained a pound.
I didn't exactly say "Oops!" like THINNYGINNY reported in one of her blog posts, but I didn't go into a self-loathing episode, either. It bummed me out, to be sure, but I stopped and thought about it:
1) Last week wasn't the greatest week for me for whatever reason. Exercise was not as consistent as I would have liked. I wasn't being as diligent about entering everything into the food tracker. It really could have been worse.
2) Four weeks ago, I was 18 lbs heavier than I am today. It would be completely ridiculous to let this one week and one pound derail something that I am actually succeeding at thus far, not to mention the fact that I intend this to be a lifelong change.
3) Taking the long view puts it all in its proper perspective. Rarely does success march in a straight line to its intended destination. Obstacles are always going to present themselves. But instead of focusing on the immediate setback, considering the entire journey as a whole gives equal weight to the successes experienced up to this point.
4) When I consider the NSVs, *something* positive is happening. Baggier workout pants and more endurance while exercising are the most notable at this point, and I'm happy about that.
So with each choice I have to make, I need to ask myself, "Will this bring me closer or take me further away from where I want to be?" and then act accordingly. Sometimes I'll do well and other times not. I just need to not lose sight of the overall goal when I fall down.
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