Saturday, October 06, 2012
Even though I have been a Spark member for 4 years I have failed so today I am starting once again, not sure how many times this makes but I won't give up.
I started with 17 minutes on the treadmill at only 2.5 miles per hour and only got 0.63 miles, not far and piss poor timing. then I did several dumbbell exercises, probably not enough to do any good but I guess I have to start (re-start) somewhere. Hopefully I will get better and stronger and lose a couple of pounds and inches.
As far as my weight goes, I have no clue, last week I was at my home in the USA and weighed 158lbs, this week I am back in hell (Saudi Arabia for 9 months) and the scale read 155.5 but I feel miserable, I feel like I've gained weight and I feel bloated. Bleah!
So yes, I am back in hell until the end of May, 230+ days to go. It is 108 or hotter, so humid that the windows are fogged up in the mornings. I am cranky and miserable but did manage to get my bags unpacked and put away. I still can't sleep the right hours, I go to bed at 12:30AM, lay there tossing and turning for 2-3 hours, wake up around 8:30AM but still feel exhausted and want to take a nap. My eating is ok, there isn't any junk food here or any that I care to eat because it's nasty and local crap.
Yes I could stay back in my cozy home in New Hampshire, alone-not being able to see my husband except for 4 weeks a year, running up heating bills, electricity bills, car costs, grocery bills etc or I can sit here. Which would you choose? Run 2 full households year round, not see your spouse/partner for almost a year, freeze in winter or suffer? Hmmmm, save money or be miserable, I'm opting for saving money, staying warm, being able to cuddle with my husband, cuddle my kitties.
Oh well, time to settle in for the evening.
I know I will make it this time!