Friday, December 02, 2011
I've been back in this hell hole for 2 months and not much has changed as far as my weight goes. I have lost the ambition to get up and exercise every day but stick to 4 days a week, I still watch what I eat, I take my insulin and Victoza-at least until it runs out then I am SOL because they don't sell it here (I AM NOT IN THE USA AND IT IS ILLEGAL TO SEND MEDICATION THROUGH THE MAIL SYSTEM HERE)
On December 6 it will be 27 years since I came to this land of sand. In some ways it's gotten better but in some ways it's gotten worse. We don't do much outside of our home but that is our choice. I do have plenty to keep me busy and content.
I hate this month because of the heartbreak, pain and loneliness it brings. I'm tired of all the sweet, sappy, sloppy, drippy, oozy holiday crap that people infest on others who HATE this time of year. Christmas is forbidden, illegal, against the law and frowned upon in this country so there are no holiday decorations out in stores. I went through MAJOR family issues a few years ago and all these years later the pain, hearbreak, hurt feelings still remain and just comes flooding back at this time of year.
Please don't post any god or jesus or prayer stuff, I'm not into that, I'll just be glad when March comes.