Now 4 days may not seem like a lot but for me it is a lot. I've never gotten up early and worked out for 4 days straight. I'm so proud of myself. I work out for 30 mins in the morning and another 30-40 mins in the evening. I feel great and I even got a trophy- I haven't gotten one of those in a while. I'm not a morning person AT ALL but I wanna change and 'nothing will change unless I change'.
I've also been tracking my food on SP again.
The weekend is coming up so I don't have to wake up early but will make sure I make it a priority on the weekend as I have in the week.
I'm a sucker for the junk at home so next month I'm gonna buy myself one treat instead of 6, for instance, just cut down. Make it a gradual change so that I'll be more likely to stick to it. I eat badly at home so that's the next thing I'm gonna tackle. If there's no junk or a lot less of it, I won't be able to eat it. Also to find healthier alternatives that I can have readily available.
Oy 6 months to go .. I remember when it was the start of the year. EEEEKKKK!!!!.
I'm running out of time but I had a tumultuous 7 mths prior to today. Dealing with a lot, I'm single again now and just trying to find out things about myself and figure out where to go from here. But I'm feeling good about the future and about myself and I feel I am on a set path and I have figured out where I am, where I wanna go and what I have to do to get there. Also trying to achieve my goals and aspirations such as doing cartoon voice overs. I have a 'childlike voice' and I'm almost 30. Reached out to someone that I happen to stumble onto her blog and saw that she does voice overs.
So I'm trying to regroup and find the motivation and discipline I need to kick this weight issue once and for all. Sigh, I am trying and I find peace in that, at least try and if I fail I know at least I tried.
To go home today and start over, hit the reset button and try to start again my commitment to this whole lifestyle change.
I've figured out that working out in the AM is the best thing and key to my success. I am not a morning person at all but guess what I wanna lose the weight and I'm gonna have to change my ways- Nothing will change unless I change!!
Started tracking my food again. Need to really use all the tools available to me. I have all the tools I need, more than enough. I have to make the commitment- it starts in my mind. Let's do this!!!
Ok so I'm on a mission- Thinner for 30. I really haven't been that serious about it. I'm down 10 lbs overall but I can't seem to get to that 12lbs mark where I get to 175lbs. the lowest I've gotten to is 177 then I keep fluctuationg between that and maybe 181. Sigh. But I ain't giving up.
Need to solve my sleep problems before anything else. Then I'll be able to do the AM workouts. Then I'll really see change. I printed a calendar so that I can put an X for every day I work out- a visual. Did that Feb & Mar 2012 and I did my best, over 1000 fitness minutes in March 2012, I wanna get back there. And that was when I realized something was wrong as I was working out a lot yet not losing any weight or inches- went to the doc got tested and found out I had PCOS. Although I'm about working smarter not harder- straight from my Jillian Michaels 30 day Shred DVD. Been doing that, but not as consistently as I'd like and I wanna add 30 mins more cardio to that.
One day, one step at a time.
O forgot what I had set out to do long ago, any time I blogged I had to say 3 things I'm grateful for:
1. My job. With some recent changes in the country's macroeconomic environment, some people at my old job lost their jobs. This current one is a lot more stressful but I'm happy to have a job.
2. My babies- Coco and Chucky. My 2 dogs. Adopted Chucky in late December and we've become a lot closer. He had issues man.
3. My love for art and fashion. I call myself a fashionista and a frugalista. With my new job I don't have to wear uniforms so I get to express myself. It's been 4 months and I haven't repeated an outfit yet. I don't have a ton load of clothes but I mix and match and accessorize. My dream is to be a buyer. Right now I'm a Treasury Manager at a leading investment house in my country . I love art and fashion and that's what I'm passionate about. I've been asked if I want to further my qualifications and I don't see myself doing a MBA or CFA. My heart isn't in it. I have kept my love for art alive through my jewellery & cupcakes (www.ronzjewellery.weebly.com & www.heybabycakesja.weebly.com). I would love to do these things full time but would have to sell a truck load of jewellery and cupcakes to make up for my current salary. Sigh. I'm scared to have to start over at and after 30 as I may have to start at the bottom but my passion has always been art and fashion is a great outlet for that.
So now I didn't work out yesterday and not going to today. Went movies last night as my boyfriend wanted to go and told me while I was at work. Today i have to work really late. so that's 2 days i haven't worked out and this is the problem with me being consistent with my exercise. I would like to wake up and do AM wrokouts but I can't sleep early.
I've always had sleep issues I even joined a SP called I need sleep. More so now work and my BF is stressing me out greatly and it's hard for me to sleep. I drink red wine sometimes but don't want to get hooked on that or melatinin or zzquil. The last 2 get me to sleep but i feel like crap the whole day. I have even tried BBW sleep mist, which is aromatherapy and I have sinus issues also and they make me feel tired a lot.
I know the above may seem like excuses but they are reasons. I will try harder however as I had finally recognized that this is the biggest obstacle to me achieving my goals of weight loss. I eat a whole lot better but there is only so much healthier eating can do, I need to exercise. sigh.
I need some help with some effective sleep methods. I wonder about sleep machines but I don't know which one actually works.
So as my blog title says I'm on a mission. I turn 30 this year November and on New Year's I made a resolution to be thinner for 30. Tired of being overweight and obese and people calling me fat etc. I'm gonna be 30 and fabulous.
So so far I've lost a total of 10 lbs since May 2012 since I was at my heaviest . Baby steps but happy I've done it. I've been more diligent, yet not perfect, with checking in on SP. I need to do this, I have to do this. I have PCOS and I know it's gonna hamper a lot of my efforts but I'm going to do this.
I've been jotting down all the motivational qoutes in a memo note in my phone to help me along. The best one so far that I keep remembering is- NOTHING WILL CHANGE THAT I WANT TO CHANGE UNLESS I CHANGE. Simple yet profound. I've been trying with no success however to change by waking up early and working out. Problem is I can't go to bed early enough. I've always had sleep issues so it's gonna be hard to break that but I sure am gonna try. I've been working out when I get home but often times, things come up or I have to do something in the evenings and miss my workout. I'm still working on it. I've noticed changes in my body and I'm working on being a better me. Starting with loving myself, rolls and flabby arms and all.
Need to blog more often yow.
HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY ALL . Not really a fan of the day but I'm loving myself so Happy Valentine's Day to me and my Spark Family. Let yourself be your Valentine!