Wednesday, May 15, 2013
I have just about had it. I'm tired of gay men (designers, CEO of Abercrombie et al) telling me that I need to have the figure of a 14-year-old boy to be considered sexy. I'm tired of my size 2 friends telling me I'm not fat. I'm tired of my plus-size friends telling me I'm not fat. I'm tired of anonymous bloggers telling a size-4 cheerleader is fat.
I'm tired of people offering "helpful" advice -- eat more veggies, go for a walk, drink more water...Just to set the record straight, I eat an almost vegetarian diet, whole grains, proper hydration. I run three times a week and bike two or three as well.
I'm 50 years old and can't find decent clothes. I'm too tall for petite, too short for regular, too old for juniors (they don't fit anyway), to young for most 'women's'. Whoever had the bright idea that women under 5'5" needed capri pants should be fired. Seriously, if I wanted to dress like a hobbitt, I would.
Each day is a struggle. I don't wear what I want, I wear what fits. Finding workout clothes is just as hard--I'm looking at you, Nike. How do you expect us to "Just Do It" when your clothes only fit very tall, very thin women.
It's very hard to find a positive self image when I get blasted with movies and TV featuring stick figures. It's hard to keep a positive image working out when you get dusted CONSTANTLY by your "friends".
I'm not an ogre. I'm not huge. I'm healthy and have a lot to offer. I'm just tired of all the externals telling me I'm not good enough.
Thursday, February 07, 2013
I saw my last post about new commitment...Yeah, that didn't quite go as planned. I guess if I confess my "sins", I might try a little harder. Something about accountability works for me.
Here goes: I have friends who have food allergies and intolerances. The super-skinny one hardly eats at all, but always brings potato chips to social time. Food is always cooked, but it seems like oil is used more often that it should.
Of course, no one is holding a gun to my head and forcing me to eat. And I know I have a problem with sugar.....so I should be a big girl and just say no.
Monday, November 19, 2012
So, I got serious and finally started to see some results. I'm trying my best not to stress eat, but the difficulties of my job this time of year make it hard.
Anyway, it's 3:15 and I've eaten all my healthy snacks. I have a birthday dinner tonight at a chain restaurant, so I have to be very careful about food choices.
Alas, I didn't space out my snacks very well, so I'm a little peckish. Must. Stay. Focused.
Tuesday, November 13, 2012
Years ago, I managed to lose almost 40 pounds on WW. After struggling with my weight for the past year, I had a revelation this morning. Go back to what worked.
I'm not going to count points or anything, but I decided to do things like Lean Cuisine for lunch and a small chocolate or cookie for dessert.
Let's see how that goes.
Monday, November 12, 2012
I can't seem to lose an ounce, yet everyone around me is so successful. One friend lost so much weight, you can see her ribs, but she denies "trying". It's hard to be the fat girl among the skinny girls. I have friends that are bigger than me and get mad when I call myself fat. I AM fat. I'm not obese, I'm OVERWEIGHT so that makes me FAT! Quit telling me I'm not.
Just because I can dress to de-emphasize the rolls, that doesn't make me thin. Just because you can't see the fat rolls around my waist....I just give up. I'm waving the white flag.
I am 50 and fat. No matter what I do, I can't change either one of those facts.
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