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Something's gotta give

Wednesday, May 15, 2013

I have just about had it. I'm tired of gay men (designers, CEO of Abercrombie et al) telling me that I need to have the figure of a 14-year-old boy to be considered sexy. I'm tired of my size 2 friends telling me I'm not fat. I'm tired of my plus-size friends telling me I'm not fat. I'm tired of anonymous bloggers telling a size-4 cheerleader is fat.

I'm tired of people offering "helpful" advice -- eat more veggies, go for a walk, drink more water...Just to set the record straight, I eat an almost vegetarian diet, whole grains, proper hydration. I run three times a week and bike two or three as well.

I'm 50 years old and can't find decent clothes. I'm too tall for petite, too short for regular, too old for juniors (they don't fit anyway), to young for most 'women's'. Whoever had the bright idea that women under 5'5" needed capri pants should be fired. Seriously, if I wanted to dress like a hobbitt, I would.

Each day is a struggle. I don't wear what I want, I wear what fits. Finding workout clothes is just as hard--I'm looking at you, Nike. How do you expect us to "Just Do It" when your clothes only fit very tall, very thin women.

It's very hard to find a positive self image when I get blasted with movies and TV featuring stick figures. It's hard to keep a positive image working out when you get dusted CONSTANTLY by your "friends".

I'm not an ogre. I'm not huge. I'm healthy and have a lot to offer. I'm just tired of all the externals telling me I'm not good enough.

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TDICOIO 5/15/2013 11:48AM

    Just remember, as you were ranting, it's not YOU, it's THEM and the clothes. Chances are you need to find a custom store that will tailor. I like this one: http://www.eshakti.com/default.aspx

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So, I haven't been here since November?

Thursday, February 07, 2013

I saw my last post about new commitment...Yeah, that didn't quite go as planned. I guess if I confess my "sins", I might try a little harder. Something about accountability works for me.

Here goes: I have friends who have food allergies and intolerances. The super-skinny one hardly eats at all, but always brings potato chips to social time. Food is always cooked, but it seems like oil is used more often that it should.

Of course, no one is holding a gun to my head and forcing me to eat. And I know I have a problem with sugar.....so I should be a big girl and just say no.

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RAZORBAKER 2/8/2013 10:17AM

  Thanks for the input. One friend is vegan and two are gluten-free. Vegetables are usually the main course--I feel like they use maybe too much oil and salt in the food.

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MERRYMARY42 2/7/2013 8:08PM

    I know, but it is not always easy to say no, so suggest maybe vegetables or fruit, your next get together, I can not say no to sweets either, so I know where you are coming from.

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Progress, but I'm a little peckish right now

Monday, November 19, 2012

So, I got serious and finally started to see some results. I'm trying my best not to stress eat, but the difficulties of my job this time of year make it hard.

Anyway, it's 3:15 and I've eaten all my healthy snacks. I have a birthday dinner tonight at a chain restaurant, so I have to be very careful about food choices.

Alas, I didn't space out my snacks very well, so I'm a little peckish. Must. Stay. Focused.

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TXTOAD9970 11/19/2012 3:23PM

    Congrats on seeing progress. Good luck at your birthday dinner tonight - you can do it!

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going back to what worked in the past

Tuesday, November 13, 2012

Years ago, I managed to lose almost 40 pounds on WW. After struggling with my weight for the past year, I had a revelation this morning. Go back to what worked.

I'm not going to count points or anything, but I decided to do things like Lean Cuisine for lunch and a small chocolate or cookie for dessert.

Let's see how that goes.

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LAURIE160IN2013 11/13/2012 6:21PM

    Yay! Great to see you feeling committed and hopeful.

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ALICIA214 11/13/2012 2:24PM


Biggest problem with packaged food is sodium. Take care


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I just feel like giving up

Monday, November 12, 2012

I can't seem to lose an ounce, yet everyone around me is so successful. One friend lost so much weight, you can see her ribs, but she denies "trying". It's hard to be the fat girl among the skinny girls. I have friends that are bigger than me and get mad when I call myself fat. I AM fat. I'm not obese, I'm OVERWEIGHT so that makes me FAT! Quit telling me I'm not.

Just because I can dress to de-emphasize the rolls, that doesn't make me thin. Just because you can't see the fat rolls around my waist....I just give up. I'm waving the white flag.

I am 50 and fat. No matter what I do, I can't change either one of those facts.

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LAURIE160IN2013 11/12/2012 6:32PM

    It's very unhelpful for people to comment on our weight and weight loss efforts, but we need to stop encouraging it by discussing such things with them. That's one great thing about Sparkpeople--we come here for support, and we get it. We are all different. My daughter lost about 100 pounds in about a year without even trying. It was just her time to lose weight. She's been at a healthy weight for several years now, but some "friends" tell her she's "too skinny." So much negative input that we need to fight against! As for the rest of us, I think some of us need a LOT of exercise in order to lose weight, like at least an hour a day. And maybe some people need more cardio, while others need to focus on something else or change their routine often. Also, different diets work better for different people. Personally I need to stick with Atkins. If something isn't working for you, you can try something else. Good luck!

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RAZORBAKER 11/12/2012 5:37PM

  I appreciate the advice. I eat lots of fruits and veggies, I avoid fried foods, I don't eat a lot of meat or processed food and I don't drink soda or any sugary drinks. I've focused on cutting back on the sugar.

As for exercise, I run three times a week and try to fit a bike session in when I can. I had a trainer for a while, but that didn't seem to help with weight loss either.

I'm stuck in that 15 pounds rut.

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LIVEDAILY 11/12/2012 5:27PM

    Hi Molly,
I'm 56...I joined SP back in July. It is great that you are already active. That will help a lot. Every person is an individual. Every person looses weight differently. For the first 3 weeks I "sparked", my scale did not budge. Not so much as a hair. I was tracking my food and drinking water and working out every day. My body was in shock! I can still hear it...what are you doing??? lol THEN, it started to come off, slowly but surely. You can not compare yourself to others...it isn't fair to YOU. YOU have to do what is best for YOU. PJ had a good idea about picking just ONE thing to focus on. Maybe it's eating more fruits and veggies; maybe it's drinking more water. It doesn't matter what you pick, but it IS important to stick with it!! You've only been with SP since September. Re-assess your goals and your plans. You want to make a change or else you wouldn't be here, right? You can do it!! There are lots of folks here willing to help you too, as much as we can!

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PJBONARRIGO 11/12/2012 12:25PM

    Don't put yourself down, there are a lot of things you can do. Dressing with style is a real skill :-)
You can also change. Decide to start. First take a baby step (like writing this blog) and then take another. Spark people are here to help eachother. Pick a small goal that you can do and see the result/success- like eat a fruit or vegetable at every meal or move for 5-10 minutes. Pick a goal a day and keep track online or with a calendar- even give yourself stars. At the end of a month, you will be surprised at what you have done. Just think of where you will be at the end of a year. Don't forget to give yourself a reward; just a little something just for you- like a new nail polish or a book :-)
You are worth it- go for it! emoticon emoticon

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SENIMMO 11/12/2012 12:22PM

    You cannot change your age. You CAN change your weight!! At my heaviest I weighed probably over 400 (I avoided scales once I was over 360, and I was WAY over) this time 2 years ago when my dad passed away, I was still around 330. At the end of august this year, I found Sparkpeople. I am down to 290. Part of that is due to having a knee replacement surgery and not being up to eating for a couple of weeks, but its mostly been tracking food, getting my big caboose moving, and a LOT of support and cheering from my amazing SparkFriends!

Every little step you can take in the right direction will help. It really will! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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