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Starting on The Engine 2 Diet by Rip Esselstyn

Sunday, September 09, 2012

Therapy has been tough but going well. Now that I am working on my mental and emotional health, I am setting some goals and changing things for my physical health. I have been reading the Engine 2 Diet by Rip Esselstyn and really like what I have been reading. I am going to start to change my diet over to a more plant strong diet. I have also successfully added a fitness/exercise component to my whole like makeover. I am not regularly exercising at least 15 minutes 3 to 4 times a week. I want to get this up to every day and maintain and then increase it to 20 minutes every day. I can feel the difference in my life and energy as I work towards my goals. I am even finding it easier to deal with the the mental health issues as I work toward my physical health goals. Everything seems to be working together and it feels great.


starting therapy

Monday, July 02, 2012

I finally found the courage to seek help for my depression and anxiety. I start group therapy tomorrow and will attend all day sessions 3 days a week. On one hand I am relieved to finally be getting some help and to know that I am not alone but on the other hand I am horribly afraid and my anxiety is very high right now. Part of me wants to call and cancel and stay in my house where I am safe. I know though that this is not the answer. I want to be able to go to the park with my kids, take them to parades and carnivals. I tired of feeling so bad all the time and being so afraid of everything. I can't even go to the store without an anxiety attack. So I will do this. I will stick with it. I could look at it as adding in the mental health and emotional health component to my overall life style changes. After all there is more to healthy eating and exercise to a healthy happy life.

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RAYVENSTAR 7/3/2012 7:32PM

    Thank you everyone for all your encouragement. It means a lot to me.

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BLESSEDBEING 7/2/2012 9:48PM

    emoticon You are right, seeking help is an act of courage. Be proud! I could not have made the weight loss progress I have here on Spark without the foundation of emotional awareness and healing that came from several years of therapy.

Remember, you may be releasing a lot of toxic emotional stuff, so drink lots of water and get plenty of rest along with your inner work. I'm sending you supportive, strengthening energy.

Blessed Be, Amanda emoticon

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LINDA! 7/2/2012 6:35PM

    I started therapy in 2008. I was already over 50 and had been so anxious and depressed for years. It really has helped me. I know that you are having some uncertainty before the therapy. That is common. But go to the meetings. I really think that you will find it helpful. emoticon

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BLACK741 7/2/2012 5:36PM

    Wow, such an amazing step, so very proud of you for trying to get your life back together so that you can be better and have more fun with the kids. They are not kids for very long, so go and take advantage of all the help you can get to enjoy these years.

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KNITTINGNAN 7/2/2012 5:17PM

  I'm Cheering for you. Be brave for your children, so you are able to have a happy healthy life. You are right.....being fit and physically healthy means nothing if you are not mentally healthy! Your therapy surely will make you realize that you are not alone. emoticon

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BONDMANUS2002 7/2/2012 5:07PM

  good for you

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Starting Again

Sunday, April 01, 2012

I have headed down the path of weight loss many many times and usually my depression gets in the way. I start feeling like it is hopeless and I will never get anywhere. I am going to give it another go and keep telling myself that this time I will be able to change my lifestyle and also work on my self esteem and depression at the same time. My first goal is simply to just start reading the Spark and logging in to sparkpeople every day.

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RAYVENSTAR 4/2/2012 7:05PM

    @Trishasparkles Thank you for the encouragement. I really like the idea of reminding myself that every healthy choice is an act of nurturing myself. Thanks for the idea.

@Amywright78 Thanks for the encouragement. It is appreciated. emoticon

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Depression can make weight-loss even more challenging. I wish you strength on your journey and that you always remember that as a child of the universe you have every right to be on this journey. I've found something that is currently helping me is reminding myself that every healthy choice I make is an act of loving and nurturing myself.

Good luck,

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