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Living in a fastfood crackhouse

Monday, December 09, 2013

It has been awhile since I have been on here. I was much more successful and happy. All of sudden I fell off the Spark wagon, so to speak. I can blame this and that but ultimately I control my life and what happens. We all have unforeseen craziness that happens but we deal with it and move on. I'm frustrated because I lost a lot of weight and I KNOW how good it feels. I get that siren call of greasy, fatty, salty food and I break the speed limit to get my fix. It comforts me, whispers sweet nothings, and tells me it is cheap and easy. I was inhaling 6 cheese coneys yesterday and washing it down with Coke when I just about made myself sick eating it. I was thinking WTH am I doing... Wait, I know what I am doing.. I am killing myself one swallow at a time. I'm stopping that right now. I am going to start living better and treating my body the way it deserves to be treated and that is the temple of God that was given to each and every one of us.

I am moving out of my fastfood crackhouse today.

  
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VALERIENEAL 12/10/2013 4:15PM

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You ate it, you owned it, you stopped!!!! Proud of you!

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THINANDFITEMILY 12/9/2013 8:28PM

    emoticon I missed you!!!!

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KITT52 12/9/2013 1:05PM

    emoticon .....be strong ...I know it's not easy but you can do it...we are here to help

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DSBRIDE 12/9/2013 12:21PM

    Hey, look who's back! I missed you! I'm so glad you're still here!

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OUT OF CONTROL..and then some

Tuesday, November 27, 2012

I am definitely feeling the effects of the holidays and not having my Mom. I have made sure to stuff my face all day and all night with crap that I know is horrible for me. Does it make me feel better? Sure..until I need it again and again and again. Sounds like a drug addict and Ronald McDonald is my supplier and when he's out I head for Wendys. Ugh, how disgusting to admit that but I keep rolling on ignoring the disgusting nature of my actions. la la la la...
I am packing weight back on at record pace. Maybe I'll set a record for it, who knows. I have sooo much stress on me right now, my Mom being gone, husband out of work, no money, son's December 16th bday, Christmas... I have to somehow figure out how to get this runaway train back on track before it derails for good.

  
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WONKYSOX 12/1/2012 12:25PM

    I ma sorry about your mom. I know approximately where you are right now though, just dealing with some different things. The stress you are experiencing is really tough at the moment but you know, things will somehow get together and you will get through. I am here for you!!

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ERINMARIE424 11/27/2012 10:12PM

    I'm so sorry. We lost my boyfriend's dad this spring also and the holidays are difficult. And with all the other stress as well in your life, it must seem like too much. But try to find one small thing to "win" each day - even if it's getting a small cheeseburger instead of a Big Mac, or skipping the fries. It will make you feel good about yourself!

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KOOKYCOOKIE 11/27/2012 11:03AM

    The best thing right now is to take a deep breath and try and focus on the present. Push everything else out of your mind and really focus on the here and now. If you start feeling the urge to go to McDonalds or to eat something unhealthy, try and focus on something else (Mindfulness is a great tool for this). I can't say I understand the stresses you are going through, but I have definitely been at the bottom of a dark pit trying to get out and feeling helpless. Things will get better, it will take a while, but they will get better. The first thing you need to do is take care of yourself and everything else will fall into place.

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SHEENADEE 11/27/2012 10:58AM

    Hi!

I'm sorry to read about how you are struggling. You definitely have a lot of stressors in your life right now. I don't have the magic answer for you; but, wanted to let you know that all us Sparkers can understand what you are going through and wish you all the best.

Remember that your forward progress is a whole series of one small step after another. Maybe it will help if you identify some new goal or motivation and plan a few daily actions that will move you closer to that goal.

You can do this! Hugs and calming thoughts coming your way.



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DSBRIDE 11/27/2012 10:47AM

    I've been missing you and I'm sorry to hear about your Mom. You definately have a lot of stress and with the holidays it just piles on more stress. Take a breathe, slow down and for a minute, just think of yourself. Think of the good things and let your mind take you away to a safe place. Sending lots of prayers and hugs. We're here for you and know what a strong person you are, you will get thru this!

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Friday Motivation

Friday, October 05, 2012

  
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ERINMARIE424 10/6/2012 9:11PM

    Nice!

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PIXIE-LICIOUS 10/6/2012 11:45AM

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KARIDIAN1 10/5/2012 10:12PM

    Great saying. How have you been? Long time no see.

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I *heart* MY PERSONAL TRAINER!!!

Thursday, August 30, 2012

I love my pesonal trainer, not only is he the hottest man on the planet (sorry Tim Tebow) but in the person that he is.

I, just like the majority of Americans, are in financial dire straits. I can no longer afford the luxury of having my personal trainer as my income is already tapped out. I sent him a text because I was too chicken, too ashamed to tell him I can no longer afford to see him. He has been in my life for well over a year seeing to my physical and mental well being. He can lend a kind ear or kick my ass. I get a 2-for-1 in him. A day went by and I never heard from him. When I was due to see him that night, I got a text that morning. I was having a really bad day and thought this will probably send me jumping out the window to my death about 2 feet down. I gathered myself and began to read. He said there is no way I was quitting. He told me I would continue on just like normal and I can pay him when I can and what I can. He said there was no way he was going to let me stop now, I have come too far. I was immediately humbled by his caring and generousity. We see so many self-serving people in our world that only care for themselves and to have someone put someone else first renewed my faith in my fellow man. I'm so blessed to have him in my life. I told him I will remember his kindness and keep my moaning, griping, and foul language to a minimum when he makes me do things I don't wanna do.

I sure didn't have the best of weeks this week but he definitely made me remember that I do truly have things to be thankful for!

  
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SHEENADEE 9/5/2012 10:14AM

    emoticon guy!

This gives me that good-all-over feeling. I'm so happy you have him in your life.

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HSMOM2FOUR 9/3/2012 9:13AM

    Awesome!! I'm with DSBRIDE -- Now do him proud!! That would be the greatest 'payment' of all -- a payment of true gratitude & seizing the opportunity of a lifetime!! YOU GO GIRL!! YOU CAN DO THIS!!!!!

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XFITSTRONG 9/2/2012 5:55AM

    That touches my heart! Some people are truley in that business because they want to make a difference in the lives of people. I love hearing stories like this!

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VENISEW1 8/30/2012 10:13PM

    Awwee, love it when good things happen to good people, yay!

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KARIDIAN1 8/30/2012 10:03PM

    You are so lucky to have found a gem of a trainer.

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ERINMARIE424 8/30/2012 8:59PM

    That is so nice! Stories like this one really restore my faith in humanity!

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ORCHIDLADY56 8/30/2012 7:56PM

    What a gem! It's nice to see that he truly cares about his clients!

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DSBRIDE 8/30/2012 5:52PM

    Yes, you are blessed! People just don't do something for nothing anymore and that includes family! You found a real gem, now make him proud!!

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CHANGINGSAM 8/30/2012 1:42PM

    Wow! That's awesome!

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Tuesday Motivation

Tuesday, August 28, 2012

  
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ERINMARIE424 8/28/2012 7:30PM

    When I was 16 I could lose a size in about 20 minutes LOL but some things change! Thanks for the reminder to stick to it!
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    It helped to read this today! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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MCMINDY6 8/28/2012 11:52AM

  This is just what I needed to read today. Thank you. emoticon

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DSBRIDE 8/28/2012 11:15AM

    Ahhh, but we can dream about losing 2 sizes in a day!!

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