Tuesday, May 15, 2012
There are many times when I don't eat right. But the good news within the bad is that on those occasions, my food choices are better than they used to be and my portion sizes are smaller than they once were -- and I'm not going back nearly as many times (for seconds and what not) as I used to.
Monday, May 14, 2012
So, I'm trying to blog more and I have a sneaking suspicion a recurring topic will be my job. Today was one of those days. I used to really, really like my job - until earlier October - when the team's roster changed...for the worse. But I'm not gonna go into that now.
We have a lot of growth at my job (it's true!) and there have been recent re-org-type changes. These changes include, but are not limited to a new manager with limited knowledge of the overall picture and new duties for me that 1) I didn't ask for and 2) I'm not being compensated for. The latter is not so much an issue for me.
Here's my issue with today. I got reprimanded for doing what was right a time before, but it was wrong today. There's enough that's confusing these days without having the same thing be right one time, then wrong the next. I don't get it. I could ramble on, but I'll save that for another time. Heavy sigh.
I do recognize I am fortunate with my employment, as there are many not working who would like to be. Out of the things I have to complain about, I'm thankful to have a job on that list - even when it drives me crazy.
Sunday, May 13, 2012
Since losing my Mother many years ago and not being a Mother myself, Mother's Day has not been a day of high celebration for me. I've gone through a range of emotions on Mother's Days past. Not all Mother's are good ones - true enough. However, there are many of us who don't have the privilege of having a "bad" Mother physically here to complain about. Heavy sigh. I miss my Mom so. I wish she could see me at this point in my life and I really wish I could have conversations with her. More sighing.
All in all, this year was not too painful. It was not hard wishing other Mom's a Happy Mother's Day. We wouldn't be here without them!!
Sunday, May 13, 2012
I've been teetering around the 40 pound weight loss mark for a few weeks, but hesitated changing my photo icon thingy from 30 pounds lost to 40. In the past, my weight has fluctuated so much that the week I "technically" had the 40+ pound weight loss, the following week, I would gain weight back and no longer be in the club. Well, it has been a few weeks and I have consistently maintained 40+ pounds of weight loss. (Yay me!!) and OFFICIALLY changed my photo to 40 pounds lost.
I feel really good about this. Something else that's made me feel pretty darn good was looking at my weight loss goal tracker. I'm at my halfway point to my goal. When did that happen?!?!?! It feels like the weight is taking absolutely forever to come off, but then days like today happen when I realize I've lost and kept 40+ pounds off for over three years. That part is impressive!! Slow and steady wins the race, right?
And at this pace, I'm enjoying my progress. I'm not streaking through different sizes in such a fast blur I don't remember what it's like to be the next size down. I'm a bit frugal and if I'm investing in a new wardrobe, I'd like to enjoy it for a little while before I have to save up for and invest in the next size down.
I'm starting to get compliments on my looks again (which is a good and bad thing for me -- we all have our issues...). This next statement is from other peoples' comments, not mine: they imply I could model. I haven't heard stuff like that in decades. Decades!! Since we're our own worst critic, I never fully believed such a statement, but it's nice to hear again. When I see me in pictures these days, I no longer am repulsed, or audibly react like I used to. This is very good! Sometimes, I even find me almost nice looking. That's as close to a compliment as I can give me, today. I'm still a work in progress.
Can't wait to see what I'll be thinking when I get even closer to that goal weight or when I hit the 50 pounds lost. We shall see!!
Saturday, November 26, 2011
Happy post-Thanksgiving everyone! It looks as if it's been forever since my last blog. It's clearly not something I do regularly. Not that I don't have topics, just haven't taken the time to blog.
So, I got on the scale this morning — out of curiosity. My body has been feeling differently lately. I can't always tell if this is a feeling differently cause I'm thinner or feeling differently cause I'm not thinner. And sure, I could do the try on certain clothes thing, but right now, sweats are my clothing of choice. I opted to go by what the scale showed me.
Keeping in mind Thanksgiving was just a couple of days ago...and I used a big plate (and loaded it up) when I planned to use a small plate, and I didn't walk off the damage I did as I fleetingly thought I would, and I didn't drink as much water as I intended beforehand (although I drank a good amount) and didn't do as well with a number of other things as I had envisioned before Thanksgiving and some after, I was pleasantly surprised to see I hadn't gained a huge amount of weight over Thanksgiving. (Actually, my weight was very close to my pre-Thanksgiving weight. I do a weekly weigh in on Wednesdays and happened to be down 2.6 pounds from last week to this week. Whoo-hoo!!)
This was encouraging! I have lacked the motivation to even attempt to lose more weight for most of this year. Last year I lost 30-35 pounds and have mostly kept it off, fluctuating with about 10 pounds over the year. I keep saying I'd like to lose the next 20-25 pounds, but due to various life events, circumstances, etc., I've allowed myself to be distracted and less motivated. I'm not sure if I'm quite there yet with my motivation, but seeing the numbers on the scale as I did this morning, especially after eating as I did for Thanksgiving, moves the needle in the right direction of encouraging. Yay!!
We'll see how well I do.
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