Saturday, July 05, 2014
In May, apparently, I was doing decent with holding steady with a +/- 10 pound loss for the past couple of years. Well, there's been a change -- probably more than one. That +/- 10 pounds has increased to a +/- 15 pound loss. I seem to be giving back my weight loss success. Time to stop giving back my success!
I was in a car accident 05/17 and have been off my regular exercise routine since then. Doc says no exercise through August. Yikes!! It's not like I was tearing it up on the exercise scene, but what I was doing made a difference. I can tell, because my food intake has been the same, however, the scale has inched upwards since then.
My activity has been limited. . . very limited since the accident. Doc says I can walk. I'm just now getting into stretches. Me and I have re-decided, for I couldn't accurately tell for what time, to make some changes -- again. If I can walk, then I need to walk. I keep my stepometer (pedometer) on me daily, so I can tell how many steps I've taken (or not taken) that day. Since this latest revelation "to walk", I have had numbers on my stepometer I've not consistently seen in a very long time. For me, this is a good start.
As I try to be mindful of my steps, I want to do better with my food intake as well. I know I won't be picture perfect every day or even many days, however, I want to do better. It's a start! I did better yesterday, than the day before. I want to do better today than I did yesterday. Put enough better days together and I'll have a streak of doing good going.
Subject change. In sharing my plight with a coworker on a similar path, she shared one of her motivations is looking at a picture of her 10 years ago when she was thinner. This is when I had the realization that I need a different form of motivation than a photo from the past. I've been this kind of too heavy for closer to 20 years. THAT'S A LONG TIME!!!! This discussion helped me realize, I don't remember what it's like to be thinner -- in a visualize the next steps thinner sort of way. (Hmm. Maybe that's part of why the weight has stayed on -- it's what I know.) Sure, I have pictures of me thinner, much thinner, but those are from over 20 years ago. I don't have pics that can help me visualize what I'd look like with 10 pounds lost; 20 pounds lost; 30 pounds lost; 40 pounds lost. That's a problem. In the meantime, I'm still going to try to do better today. Want to get that good streak going strong!!
Time to go add some steps on this stepometer.
Sunday, March 24, 2013
I was sooooo happy when I could accurately update my status and proudly change my icon to the Lost 40 Pounds icon. Right about now, that seems like a long time ago. I've gained 20 of those pounds back - most within a 5 month period. It seemed gradual -- yet constant or habitual.
I recognized the error of some of my ways: increased stress, less activity/exercise, taking in more calories, increased food portions, poorer food choices and did I mention the increased stress? On top of the increased stress, I had weight gain, which really does not help with one's self-esteem, no matter how one tries to spin it. I didn't want to exercise. I ate, didn't want to exercise after eating and was often mentally exhausted from the work day, plus full from having eaten. I didn't ALWAYS overeat, but I'd frequently go to bed on a full stomach (not like Thanksgiving full) and didn't always make the best food choices and definitely could have done better with my portion sizes.
I was in a funk. I recognize this. I recognized this at the time, but could/did not stop myself from decline. The whole time I continued to gain weight, I did not change from the Lost 40 Pounds icon. It gave the appearance to others that all was well. It looked good to have others be able to see this. I was great when it was true. But for someone who had some kind of motion from week to week on my sliding scale of progress to no motion for quarters at a time, it stopped feeling as good to have this false advertising promoting me.
Needless to say, it's been changed to reflect my current loss range. Back to 20 pounds lost. I'm still not highly motivated to lose weight again, yet. But I think I'm getting closer to not gaining anymore right now. Whew! If I'm not gonna lose, stop gaining. Ya know??
It's easy for me to be long-winded, but I'll sum part of this up to say there have been some changes that have happened in my life, both personal and professional of late. More professional. The thing is, the bottom line lies with me. Change will always be a part of my life. I need to get that work/life balance figured out no matter what it throws my way.
I'm not quite back at, "Let's go get'em!" mindset, but I wouldn't consider me in a funk anymore. I'm planning for success again -- now if I could get me to implement. . . Lol!! I'm a work in progress and I will get there, just not overnight.
Sunday, June 17, 2012
I found out one of my cousin's passed away yesterday. Separate from the sadness of this for me (I am very glad for my cousin who is no longer suffering from illness...) it just brings to mind how human we all are. Our bodies are vessels and how often do I treat mine the way it should be treated? Not nearly as often as I should! There are a number of thoughts that flood the mind with that general concept.
I read somewhere of someone trying to have seven nights of doing right. I make excuses for not doing right 4 hours straight - and there are people, like my cousin, who won't have another opportunity to try to get another minute of right.
Reality is biting me right now.
Saturday, June 02, 2012
Today I treated myself to a massage. I hadn't had one in YEARS!! So long overdue. Very relaxing. I've already scheduled my next one...and am looking forward to it!!
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