Sunday, March 27, 2011
Today I received a spark-mail from an old buddy, "I can't get over how much you have changed! How does it feel? Is it what you thought it would be?!?!? Tell me when you get a chance! I know you stay really busy! Love to you always! L"
Dear L, your zest for life uplifted me so many times!
Yes, and no. Since I was never thin growing up - I really didn't know what to expect. I can't remember how it felt to be obese - and I spent most of my 59 years being obese. I went to the store in shorts yesterday and for the first time it didn't concern me! My legs are very 'flabby' looking (no muscle-tone) but I know how lazy I am so I am not going to set myself up for failure with Strength Training that I know I will not continue.
I still walk every day the weather permits - my walking buddy has to walk or her pain gets totally out of hand.
I did reach 115 before winter set in - but today am 122.1 and adjusting to it nicely. I will have to re-lose 5+ lbs every year to account for what I will gain during the winter months, but I don't feel deprived. Depraved yes, deprived no.
I do stay busy with my dad on dialysis and my DH - dad is 88, DH is 89 - but I find "me time" on my computer playing pc games! SparkPeople still takes up a large chunk of my day and I try to be available for others still on their journeys. My journey will never end - if I allow it to end, I will be back where I started within a few years and I just cannot take that chance. I have seen my future and it is bleak if I allow myself to regain the 90+ pounds.
L, I will always be here for you - I am unable to reach out the way I used to because of time constraints - but I am always here to respond to any requests for encouragement and/or comfort.
We are all on this journey called life together - and I too trust heavily in The Lord for my salvation.
One day at a time can see you reach your goals.