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The difference in me...

Saturday, December 20, 2008

I'm fat and have been fat since I was about 8-10 years of age. Ok, so I am not so fat anymore, but I am still fat. I have a mirror and I am not afraid to use it.

Mentally I accepted myself almost 20 years ago. I learned through OA that I am ok. My shell is XL but I am ok and worthy of being loved. I had a glorious 20 years of eating whatever I wanted and feeling free! I quit worrying about the scale and I can tell you the joys and pitfalls of overindulging in just about any food you can think of. Cans of chocolate covered nuts? I can tell you about it. I can even discriminate the different brands of chocolate! Would I give that up if I had the chance to do it all again? Heavens, I think not!

I am 57, was 56 when I came back to SP ready for a change. Why? Did I no longer accept myself? Again, heavens no! There was and is nothing wrong with me; there is just more of me. So why this sudden urge to drop this extra baggage? Drugs. Medicines. Prescriptions.

I am the youngest in my family (ok, brother is but he's a boy). Everyone else in the family is on some form of medication - most are on more than one prescription. I am on nothing! Nada! Zilch!! And I desire to keep it this way.

I woke up March 27, 2008 at my all-time high weight of 210. I tried the tricks I know to use to get below 200 again and nothing worked this time! Time to count calories. I remembered joining SP 2 years back and found I never quit - I just left. So this time I got with the program. It took time just learning how to change the weight from 205 to the 210 I now was, but learn I have. It still took me 2 months before I switched from my own log to the Nutrition Tracker and "let go and let SP" be in charge of me. The rest is history.

*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* this is what got me into The Spark - page 39 - they liked my "let go and let SP" be in charge! *~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*

If I can do it, anyone can do it. If there is one thing I have learned in my life it is that I am "terribly average" when it comes to things like this. The only difference I can see is the level of commitment. Some folks just haven't reached this level yet but when they do, they will get with their programs too.

  
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JENIFIREHARP 12/21/2008 8:56PM

    LOL Average is not a word would ever use to describe you Linda, not in a million years! You are very very extraordinary, amazing, and special, and definitely a spark success! I enjoy your blogs and your posts. I enjoy your friendship. I am amazed at how helpful you are... should I go on? Yeah, I am quite proud of you!

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BONMACK 12/20/2008 11:25PM

    I always smile when I see your profile pic! I think it's pretty awesome,really! YOU GO GIRL! You're just a real motivation to ALL of us! emoticon

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PEACHYLADY 12/20/2008 6:59PM

    You look great in that picture! WTG!

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TABBYKAT75 12/20/2008 6:45PM

    You are such an inspiration !

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SUPREME5 12/20/2008 1:21PM

    YOU DO INSPIRE THE PEOPLE WHO THINKS( I SAY THINKS )THEY MAY (MAYAGAIN) WANT TO LOES EWIEGHT. AND YOU ARE BANG ON . IF WE HAVE GOTTEN TO THE BOTTOM LINE AND PUT OUR MIND AND SOUL INTO LOOSING WE CAN. THANK YOU .
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DINA:-) 12/20/2008 11:41AM

    well, isn't everyone "average"? besides being average you are a huge inspiration to so many of us- and that makes it all the better- because we are all average, just like you :) so if you can do it so can i!

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MARTY19 12/20/2008 9:58AM

    Linda you are by no means "average" Your level of committment is higher than most. Your positive outlook and ability to change what needs to be changed motivates and encourages all of us fortunate to know and be around you.
For some people, making excuses is a way of life. SP teaches us to accept responsibility for what we do and to change it. You did that and you are a MAJOR success.
I'm thrilled you came into my life.

Marty

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CRTSANG 12/20/2008 9:01AM

    You may be "terribly average" in a lot of things, but your attitude is extraordinary. So is the way you help so many of us to stay focused and positive. Love those red shorts and I look forward to seeing the goal you!

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MOB8/2009 12/20/2008 7:37AM

    What a journey you have been on and what an inspiration you are! I love that phrase "terribly average", but I don't see you as AVERAGE at all! You are above average in committment, you are in the excellent range on friendships and support, and you are off the scale in how you look in those red shorts!!!! **gasp* Do I see a waist there? An hour glass figure? Yes, indeed!!!! WAY TO GO, GIRLFRIEND!



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Ain't Nothing Gross about 144!

Wednesday, December 17, 2008

As I weighed this morning I saw 144.4 on my scale.

It was another epiphany! There really isn't anything gross about 144! It is the most awesome number I have seen in over 40 years!

(It's a numbers thing, 144 = one gross when counting, lol.)

Happy Days Are Here Again!

  
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TAHOEMAMALOI 12/31/2008 6:03AM

    145 lbs is my goal weight, and I'm at 245 lbs today.
Since most of us do not have aspirations to be supermodels, but rather to feel good and be healthy, I think 144 lbs is FANTABULOUSLY wonderful!
I enjoy reading your blogs and posts and you are quite an inspiration. emoticon

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KAREN42BOYS 12/18/2008 1:28PM

    144 sounds pretty sweet to me!

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HUGGERS1 12/18/2008 1:16PM

    LOL, I got the gross thing :)

hugs
Amber

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SKISINCO 12/18/2008 9:52AM

    Woohoo, wtg Linda!

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SARACSJ 12/18/2008 12:28AM

    LOL A gross. Now THAT'S funny.

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MARTY19 12/17/2008 4:18PM

    emoticon That is outstanding.

Marty

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TABBYKAT75 12/17/2008 1:49PM

    Congrats You are doing awesome !

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CRTSANG 12/17/2008 1:40PM

    That's fantastic! emoticon 144.4--how great is that! You're wonderful and I, too, hope I have what it takes to stick it out the way you have.

Love the moose/reindeer/whatever animal it is. It's a great illustration. Thanks for sharing it.



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SUPREME5 12/17/2008 11:35AM

    diud you steal santas raindeer. on the 144.4
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YOOHOORENEE 12/17/2008 11:17AM

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I love your raindeer! Merry Christmas!



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JENIFIREHARP 12/17/2008 10:06AM

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LBSTRINGER 12/17/2008 9:04AM

  You never cease to amaze me. I only hope I can stick this out the way you have. Love yah!
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MOB8/2009 12/17/2008 8:11AM

    emoticonLOVE THE MOOSE!!! But that number 144.4 looks even better! Way to go, girlfriend!

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Never lose sight of your goal!

Friday, December 12, 2008

Never lose sight of your goal. When temptations come, and they will, try to remember how nice it feels to get into a smaller size. So far that has kept me on track.

I hated having my picture taken - so much so that I would be the picture taker instead.

It took all my willpower to make the first picture at 178, shirt tucked in, and that was after losing 30 lbs. I felt so thin! Now I look at the picture and cringe. But we cannot hide from our past; we must learn from it.

You too will reach your magic weight and stop hating the camera. Now it is my DH asking, "do we take another picture today?"

You can do this! I am here for you! This is an older picture but I like the superwoman stance, lol. I look more like "keeping my eyes on the prize".

Hugs,
Linda

  
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MEGSAMAMA 12/13/2008 4:09PM

    You are so right! Thank you for posting this!

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TABBYKAT75 12/13/2008 12:14PM

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LIVELIFELONGER 12/13/2008 11:48AM

    I truly can relate. I hate having my pic taken and sad thing is I don't have any professional family photos because of it and I did allow to have a picture with my DD's first birthday and DH just because I thought she needed to see us together but I hate to know she is going to look at that in her later part of life and go oh gosh you were fat! That part bothers me. But my keyword is were. Thanks for your post and you are inspiring and beautiful!

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MARTY19 12/12/2008 6:13PM

    You not only have your eye on the prize, you are grabbing it with both hands.
Way to Go!!

Marty

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SUGARINTHESUN 12/12/2008 4:49PM

    Way to go "Superwoman"!!

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BONMACK 12/12/2008 1:53PM

    Well, YOU GO WONDER WOMAN! HAHAHAHA! All you need is the shiny hubcaps to wear up top and you got it down pat! emoticon emoticon Also proud of ya......look how far you've come!! RAYLIN ROCKS, for sure! I've always been the same way......I have NO pics of me at my heaviest. I finally, after all this time, posted a pic of my current self on my page, and for the first time in years, actually didn't mind looking at it.......will wonders never cease. Gotta love sparks!!!! You're a true inspiration, Raylin, keep on truckin'! emoticon

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BOOKLOVER5034 12/12/2008 12:22PM

    ugh....i hate my picture taken...i was so embarrassed when i would take pictures because you could see my two chins! i would pull my head up as much as it would go to make my chin look leaner...never worked. that's my favorite part about me now...no two chins!! yay! now i can take a face pic ok....it's the rest of the body i'm having to deal with.

keep up the great work!!

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MARTY19 12/12/2008 11:55AM

    I always hated having my picture taken until I realized there were big gaps in the family history when it seemed I was MIA. I didn't want my daughter or sisters to wonder. So for better or worse I always had at least one picture per gathering. Now I love having my picture taken.

Marty

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SUPREME5 12/12/2008 11:37AM

    I RELATE ALSO TO THE BIGGER IS NOT BETTER CLUB
YOU DO HELP KEEP OUR GOALS IN FOCUSE. YOUR DOING GREAT
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CRTSANG 12/12/2008 10:31AM

    That is a great picture--so full of confidence. You are looking terrific. I always hated to have my picture taken, even when I was thin. All I could ever see was my flaws. Now, of course, I'm glad to have the pictures people actually took anyway. Even looking at my fat pictures makes me feel good about how far I've come. So don't cringe! Have pride!
You are always so inspiring.


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SKISINCO 12/12/2008 9:37AM

    Linda,
I can relate to this post too, I hate having my picture taken. I love your superwoman stance too, you are so right about keeping an eye on the prize. Have a nice weekend.
Tanya

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MOB8/2009 12/12/2008 8:27AM

    And I LOVE your pictures! You look so very healthy, and so very happy. I'm proud of you, girlfriend.

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JENIFIREHARP 12/12/2008 8:20AM

    You are doing fabulously Linda, and you look terrific!

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JENIFIREHARP 12/12/2008 8:20AM

    You are doing fabulously Linda, and you look terrific!

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~(*-*)~ 12/12/2008 7:32AM

    everything you said is
exactly the way i feel...
always the "picture taker"
I love how you are keeping
a photo record of your
fabulous weight loss !!!
you inspire me...
thank you kindly :*)
janet

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OMG! I broke 146 today, I am 145.9!!

Monday, December 08, 2008

Picture to follow when it gets warmer outside! Can you say, "Red Shorts?"

Today I have had another first - I can feel the bones just below the waistline! And my hipbones! I don't know what they are called but to me they are heavenly! This means I am rapidly approaching my body's goal weight!!

And I think I now know why I was never able to maintain my weight 23 years ago when I last got down to 148! I was going to "Roll Away Inches" while dieting for a year and it really did roll-away those inches. No flabby body parts even after losing 40 lbs!

But that is also probably why I couldn't maintain the weight. Like a body-wrap, it was mainly removing water I now think, so of course it would have to return. It simulated exercise but back then I didn't know how important it is to do exercise.

Just one more little proof that this is going to be a permanent change in me and my body.
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FL_SUNSHINE 12/11/2008 11:59PM

    Yay!!!

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XUXA05 12/10/2008 3:23PM

    I am sooo happy for you!! :) You are so close to your goal!! Great job!!!! :) emoticon emoticon emoticon

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~ELLE~ 12/9/2008 7:30PM

    emoticon You look great!

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YOOHOORENEE 12/9/2008 5:45PM

    Girl you look awesome! emoticon

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~(*-*)~ 12/9/2008 5:27AM

    WOW !!!! YOU LOOK FABULOUS !!!
You are such an inspiration :)
sincerely, Janet

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SUGARINTHESUN 12/8/2008 8:00PM

    emoticon Way to go!!! Yahooooooooooo! Congratulations!!!!

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MARTY19 12/8/2008 5:43PM

    YOU LOOK FABULOUS my Friend. I am so pround of what you have achieved.

Marty

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NEBWRITER 12/8/2008 2:25PM

    You're doing great. Not many people can say that they're in better shape now than they were 20+ years ago. I enjoy reading your blogs.

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CRTSANG 12/8/2008 12:21PM

    Can't wait to see you in your red shorts!

emoticon on those bones, too. You are doing so well, I know you will be able to keep the weight off.

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Change is good!

Saturday, December 06, 2008

I adjusted my Cardio this week, down to about 60 minutes, and my weight is moving again! I must have been under-eating for my over-achieving cardio!

I have lost 64 lbs! I am not going to find them ever again - they can just stay lost!

My advice today would be, "Surround yourself with people who have found the path to healthier bodies and go forward and do likewise."

Today I am 146.7! On to 145 and beyond! I am only 11 lbs away from my goal!
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Life is sweet!

P.S. I like having my picture taken now! And DH loves taking it!

  
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NEBWRITER 12/8/2008 3:07AM

    Congrats on the incredibe work. I see that you have put a great deal of work into your lifestyle change (I don't like the term diet since it sounds so temporary). Good work and keep it up.

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The goal is within reach.

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JENIFIREHARP 12/6/2008 8:22PM

    Good advice Linda! Good advice!

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MOB8/2009 12/6/2008 4:48PM

    You are really ROCKING, woman!! You LOOK fabulous, you SOUND healthy and happy, and you ARE an inspiration. emoticon

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CRTSANG 12/6/2008 3:04PM

    emoticon That's great! I'm in awe--but I'm always in awe of you.



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QUILTINGB52 12/6/2008 2:01PM

    On one of my "blogging adventure" days I ran across a guy that is not LOOSING pounds, cuz his reasoning was if you "lost" something you will eventually find it again.

He is "re-assigning" his pounds gone.......

It's all in our perception ~ whatever works for you, stick with it! You obviously have figured out what works for you!!

Congrats!

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QUILTINGB52 12/6/2008 1:57PM

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Keep up the GREAT work ~ skinny!!! Your biggest hurdle will be to kick our butts to follow your lead!!!!!!!

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DINA:-) 12/6/2008 12:26PM

    emoticon way to go! you are doing great! keep up all the hard work- it sure is paying off!

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HUGGERS1 12/6/2008 11:48AM

    Congratulations, I am so proud of you :) 64 pounds gone for good and I know that by the end of December you will have kissed 145 good bye ;)

hugs
AMber

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MARTY19 12/6/2008 11:25AM

    emoticon You are getting close to me and might reach goal first. I'm rooting for you. Let's nail that last 11 pounds together. Kick my butt if you think I am slacking off. LOL

Marty

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SUGARINTHESUN 12/6/2008 9:37AM

    Congratulations on your weight loss...Yahoooooooooooooooo!!!
Sp
ark On!

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