RAYLINSTEPHENS   182,138
SparkPoints
100,000 or more SparkPoints
 
 
RAYLINSTEPHENS's Recent Blog Entries

*sheesh*

Friday, September 11, 2009

Today's blog is very difficult for me. I was turned away at the Blood Bank because my weight is too low for my platelet count; and my platelet count was much lower than ever before. A decent enough level, but not for my weight and not for my history. The pheresis machine would not allow me to be hooked up.

I had tried (successfully) to lower the amount of cholesterol consumed - there was no change whatsoever on my cholesterol count - and all it accomplished was to lower my platelet count because of eating less meat products. The protein and fiber in black-eye peas is extraordinary but I guess it will not make platelets. Some of us really do need to eat meat products.

I do not have a cholesterol problem and never have. My walking is a natural way to lower my cholesterol. My platelet donation is a natural form of blood thinner.

I was advised to gain back 5 lbs.

After much soul-searching while driving home I told Ray of my thoughts. He loves the new me. Before he could say anything I acknowledged that it was a cop-out on my part because he loved the old me too, even at 210 lbs. He said he loves me at any weight and thinks 125 would be terrific.

I told him I really like wearing size 4 jeans. But I admitted that is only vanity. I want to be healthy and I had decided that if I was ever turned away from the Blood Bank it would mean my weight was too low for my body. Today that happened.

I made a Pro-Con list in my head and all the reasons to stay where I am have nothing to do with health. Yes I do feel great but I worry about occasional dizziness too. I have plenty of energy but I feel a sugar drain sometimes and need a mint. I am a borderline case of blood sugar; I can go either way, high or low. This is because my father has a low blood sugar and my mother had high blood sugar. The doctor said this combination often shows up in the offspring as borderline.

It was not an easy decision, but it was an educated decision to add a couple of pounds to my weight and see where I am in 2 lbs and hopefully in 2 weeks.

This gives new meaning to One day at a time, One pound at a time.

**edit 9/12- I have decided to go for the entire 5 lbs as recommended!
123 is a beautiful number! I have changed my weight ticker to reflect 123 but no, I didn't gain 5 lbs overnight. Today I am 119.1 again. Tomorrow? We shall see! But this way I am now eating to maintain 123 lbs and my Nutrition Tracker is reflecting this as I gain.

My goal is to have a Zero Deficit or even a Negative Deficit for a slow gain back up to 123!



  
  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

JENNTINYSAM 9/13/2009 10:07AM

  WOW I cant believe that you can lose too much weight. Oh wait never mind. You can be anorexic. At least the doctors were honest with you.

This was one reason I set my goal at 125 to begin with. If I feel that I need to lose more after that I will change my ticker then but only after I get there.

WTG on figuring out what you are going to do.

Report Inappropriate Comment
_VALEO_ 9/12/2009 4:40AM

    I now understand better your yesterday's feed. I'm glad you consulted your doctor on that matter, what is important is to stay healthy, even if it means 5 lbs more.
Do you know that having a few extra pounds is better for our health? (and I'm not talking about being overweight here, but being in the middle of normal BMI.)

Report Inappropriate Comment
GINILEE4 9/11/2009 7:55PM

    Linda. I can only think that it does not make sense to create one unhealthy life to make another healthier. Know what I mean?

You have worked very hard to get where you are but a number is not what matterrs here. What matters are at least 2 lives.
Think carefully before choosing a number about being your healthiest.

Love ya,

LOTS

Gini

Report Inappropriate Comment
TN_HAMMOCK 9/11/2009 1:22PM

    This one really hit home for me.

My oldest son is a cancer survivor. He was diagnosed with he was 2 yrs old. His type of cancer meant that he often could not produce mature platelets. Because this kept his blood from clotting correctly, he was in constant danger of bleeding to death....even from a simple bruise.

People like you who donate platelets saved his life.....many many many times. There were several times when donations were down and sometimes it was a scramble to find someone who was compatible AND willing to give.

I was always grateful for those who donated....I never thought of the challenges the donating people might also be facing!

I thank you from the bottom of my heart for wanting to help others. I wish you all the best. Do what you need to do to keep yourself strong and healthy! After all you have accomplished, I am certain you will clear this hurdle too!

Report Inappropriate Comment
LIVNFITNHAPPY 9/11/2009 11:47AM

    Linda,

You are so generous to share the details of your journey with us. Thank you for that!

BALANCE (physical, mental, emotional, & spiritual) is the quest for us all and HEALTH is the true goal! Determining what those are for each of us is the challenge. Our lives and bodies, while similar, are each unique.

I admire your process of determining what is most appropriate for you. I love your pro and con list! You really had decided to stop at 120 and then got excited about going a little lower. Now you have been given another signal that your first goal was more appropriate. You already know that the number on the scale does not define you. You are an amazing human being and I am proud to call you my friend!

I am looking forward to the next installment of your journey. I know that you
will be successfully back at the blood bank soon!


emoticon emoticon emoticonJanet

Report Inappropriate Comment
ONMYWAYTOGOAL 9/11/2009 9:58AM

    Linda you are so determined. I bet the blood bank's decision was just reaffirming what you probably already knew. Based on the borderline sugar etc. It's probably best that you gain a pound or two. I know it's disheartening, but staying healthy is sooooooo important.

Way to make the hard decision!!!
Hugs,
Laurie

Report Inappropriate Comment
GONE2BEACH101 9/11/2009 9:52AM

    I agree!! Your health is of A#1 importance!! I don't think that you'd alter your looks that much at all...and you'll still fit in your 4's. The dizziness concerns me, too. That could cause you or someone else an injury...Sure not something you need to deal with!! I know already what you'd advise one of us to do...It will be OK!! I promise!! emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
DEBIPOGUE 9/11/2009 9:44AM

    Linda you are successful no matter what the # on the scale says. You did it!!! Being healthy is really where you need to be. I think your 2 pound then see plan is a good one. Keep that dizziness in check though no matter what. Size 4, 2 pounds, 5 pounds......you'll ALWAYS be a 10 to me!!!
Blessings and Wisdom in your decision making,
Debi emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
BOOKWORM100 9/11/2009 8:59AM

    I think you're making a good decision. You've worked so hard to become healthy, you want to be sure to maintain that healthiness. Otherwise, what have you really accomplished? You just swapped one unhealthy extreme for another. To say that you listened to your body to find the right weight for you (even if that means gaining 2-5 lbs) and to maintain THAT weight is the best accomplishment anyone can have!

Report Inappropriate Comment
ONEREALLYBIGDOG 9/11/2009 8:48AM

    Linda,
I'd seen your status yesterday on my iPhone and I wasn't worried about your weight, I was worried about your health. I didn't know and still don't know what the side effects of having a low platelet count is, but I tried to send you positive thoughts and prayers, for your understanding of dealing with your own issues. I 'm glad that you've decided to raise the bar so to speak. I was thinking the worst, if your platelet count was too low, what other effect could it have on your body or your life. Good luck with getting it back in control. I know you will be able to be a donor again soon.

Hang in there,
Tony

Report Inappropriate Comment
SARALYN09 9/11/2009 7:46AM

    I agree with everyone! The "fight" wasn't just about losing a certain number of pounds, it was also about gaining control! And THAT, my friend, you have done, and will continue to do, at whatever weight YOU choose to maintain!! emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
MSLZZY 9/11/2009 7:40AM

    I love my size 4's too but if my doctor told me to gain 5 pounds, I guess I'd heed that advice
and just be glad he didn't say 25! The 5 pounds might not correct the problem but the dizziness is scary. See what happens. No matter what-you are still a winner! emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
MARTY19 9/11/2009 7:05AM

    I guess it is not the size of your jeans - it is the health of your body. If giving platelets is something that is important to you, than another few pounds added on might be the ticket. I do worry about your dizziness.

Hugs,
Marty

Report Inappropriate Comment
CALLISTOPHELIE 9/11/2009 6:25AM

    I was turned away once, I think it was just before TOM.
I would say, make sure you feel 100% your best, and eat something before you go to the blood bank. Going on an empty stomach is a bad idea.
Even if you decide to gain a few pounds back, it will not affect your size immediately. I always hear that 3 kilos is one size (6.6 lbs). So if you gain 2 or 3 pounds, you should still be able to fit into a size 4.



Btw, now in Japan, I can't even give blood anymore, because I'm European and I might have mad cow's disease!!!!!!!!!! even hubby who has spent 4 days in England with me gets turned down. Silly country!

Report Inappropriate Comment
PALESEPT 9/11/2009 6:06AM

    Something to think about, definitely. Sorry you were turned away from the blood bank though. I would also love you, no matter what! You are a great woman!

Pale

Report Inappropriate Comment


Healthy Reflections: What kind of emotional atmosphere are you creating?

Wednesday, September 09, 2009

What kind of emotional atmosphere are you creating?

Positive people are almost always natural leaders and motivators. People gravitate towards them, just as they avoid individuals who continually mope or complain. Take a look at your own attitude. Is it one that others would want to emulate in their own lives? Instead of jumping to throw in a negative comment, try to think of something good to say instead. By no means hold in your feelings, but remember that no one likes to be surrounded by constant pessimism. Attitudes are contagious so fill your environment with happiness, enthusiasm, and optimism!

~******~****~~~~~~~~**~~

This is the same premise as smile and the world smiles with you, cry and you cry alone. But sadly that isn't the whole truth. A bad attitude is contagious. A person having a lousy day can turn around totally happy people just with negativity. I try to remember to smile.

I think it was in Reader's Digest, "if you can't say something nice, say nothing at all." Another good one to live by. Sometimes I have to look really deep but generally something positive can be found to comment on in most situations. If not, offer to cry with the other person rather than chance making things worse. Not always doable, but well worth the trying.

I do try to create a happy atmosphere.

"Attitudes are contagious. Is yours worth catching?" - Anonymous quote from Healthy Reflections.

  
  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

LIVNFITNHAPPY 9/11/2009 12:05PM

    I have been wanting to add my "two cents" to this blog for a couple of days.

I wholeheartedly agree with you about the contagion of attitude. My extra take on what everyone else has said is that you can catch your own attitude. Let's say that you wake up on a particular day and just feel glum! You can start out pretending to be happy and suddenly you actually are! You start to focus on all the "reasons" to be happy and you start to experience them again in the now. And Voila', you ARE happy!

emoticon

P.S. - Counting my blessings also works quite well for me.

Report Inappropriate Comment
_VALEO_ 9/10/2009 2:29AM

    I like this quote "Smile, it enhances your face value."
It's true that bad attitude or good attitude is contagious -I'm thinking of companies where I worked, sometimes one person could ruin the general attitude of the whole workplace.

Report Inappropriate Comment
ONEREALLYBIGDOG 9/9/2009 8:05PM

    : )

Smilin' just for YOU

but then again, I'm always smilin', it also makes people wonder what I'm up to, LOL

HAGD

Report Inappropriate Comment
MRS.DOYLE 9/9/2009 4:36PM

    How right. I have to deal with quite a few complaints at work and usually manage to do it calmly and positively. I've seen people stop in mid complaint and look really surprised. It's great when they go away happy and even thank me....rare but it does happen sometimes!!

Report Inappropriate Comment
SIMPLELIFE4REAL 9/9/2009 1:46PM

    When I was a little girl, my mom taught me that saying. She told me it was Thumper's mom in Bambi that said "If you can't say anything nice, don't say anything at all." I don't know if that's true.

Report Inappropriate Comment
MARTY19 9/9/2009 11:52AM

    You are the most positive upbeat person I know. You demonstrate that no matter how difficult the road may be, you can succeed just believing in yourself.

Marty

Report Inappropriate Comment


Actually no, I haven't just cut my hair.

Monday, September 07, 2009

In the last 2 weeks, 3 people have stopped me and asked me if I have cut my hair and then telling me they like it. I said, "thank you."

But no, I have had short hair for about 30 years now, lol, although I did start coloring it again.

I just thought it funny that people know something is different about me but can't quite put their finger on it. emoticon emoticon

Hugs,
Linda emoticon

**edit: it is kind of funny though. I wonder if people ever figure it out later on?

  
  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

GINILEE4 9/8/2009 2:55PM

    Yeah, That is right. I know when I've just come from the salon, my DH will say did you put on makeup? . How can you not see it's my hair that's different. LOL

I;m glad you coloured your hair. Whenever I get really down, I head for the salon and let my stylist go to town.

Gini

Report Inappropriate Comment
IVMAR1 9/8/2009 2:53PM

    Be thankful that at least they noticed "something" different. LOL

Congratulations!!
>Ivmaris

Report Inappropriate Comment
ONMYWAYTOGOAL 9/8/2009 8:34AM

    That kind of thing happens to me alot. I could get new glasses and people ask me if I got my hair cut. I think they notice that something is different, but they aren't sure what. I'm a detail person. I notice those things. It's just who I am and I think people appreciate when you notice what's changed and compliment them on it. I'm sure with coloring your hair you look younger, especially since loosing all the weight too. People are just too funny, aren't they?!

Report Inappropriate Comment
MARTY19 9/8/2009 6:50AM

    I can so relate to your statement. I have had the same hair color for a year and people still comment on how they like it and is it new. It always gives me a chuckle.

Marty

Report Inappropriate Comment
MSLZZY 9/8/2009 6:36AM

    Maybe the color threw them off! At least they noticed you even if it wasn't for the right reason! You look awesome! You are such an inspiration!

Report Inappropriate Comment
_VALEO_ 9/8/2009 3:44AM

    I like ONEREALLYBIGDOG's reply! emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
JERSEYGIRL24 9/7/2009 11:07PM

    That is funny, but I would think that based on how much weight you have lost, it shouldn't be hard to notice!

Report Inappropriate Comment
ONEREALLYBIGDOG 9/7/2009 11:07PM

    LOL,
You could tell them that you lost 92 pounds of hair, LOL

Quite observant NOT

Have a great day!

Report Inappropriate Comment
STARTSPARKING 9/7/2009 9:29PM

    People aren't very observant, are they? Sometimes we notice something is different but can't pinpoint it. When that happens to me, it drives me nuts. Ever recalling just a few lines of song lyrics? emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
BHTX1962 9/7/2009 7:19PM

    How cool is that! The next time they ask about your hair say something about the healthier eating habits that have improved the condition of your hair :-))

Report Inappropriate Comment


I compete against me, myself and I.

Friday, September 04, 2009

From today's Healthy Reflections:
Winning victory against yourself

No one likes to lose. The thrill of victory after competition is hard to match. But the wins that leave the most significant, long-term impressions are the ones where you win against yourself. Beating a friend in a game of hoops is much less meaningful than setting a personal best time while running. We live in a highly competitive world, and everything around us screams that we've got to be number one in order to feel successful. Truly though, the best measuring sticks are your past and your potential--not against someone else's standards. Raise the bar for yourself!

"The best inspiration is not to outdo others, but to outdo ourselves.- Anonymous"

~~~~~~~~~***********

Every time my walking partner and I go a bit further we both feel exhilarated. It still amazes me that we can do a 9 mile walk at 3mph.
Cathy 'found' a pedometer in a purse my sister was getting rid of and since then she is really racking up the steps. It felt great the first time I could "WooHoo" her for having more steps than me. (My sister swears she looked through all the purses but never found her pedometer - she told Cathy to keep it and we bought a new one for Nancy.)
It just isn't competition to either of us, it is more like cooperation - trying to help each other to reach new achievements.
SparkPeople is like this; SP wants us to be the best that we can be.

Hugs y'all,
Linda emoticon

  
  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

MEADSBAY 9/5/2009 4:34PM

    Me. too! Me, too!
I don't have one competitive bone in my body,
never have.
I do love to walk with a friend but I like my own company just as much.
I take along 2 of my best friends-
my pedometer and my ipod. emoticon
emoticon
elizabeth
emoticon

Comment edited on: 9/5/2009 4:35:22 PM

Report Inappropriate Comment
BLUESKY104 9/4/2009 12:07PM

    You said it Linda -- what greater satisfaction than to be able to best yourself rather than someone else and to encourage those around you to best themselves-- and by competeing with yourself you are a super inspiration to those around you!!

Keep getting in those miles for you as you inspire those around you to get miles in for themselves emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
Cathy

Report Inappropriate Comment
MSCANDICE25 9/4/2009 10:42AM

    yep thats right when I give myself that push I feel great and then It makes me want to try even more!! i dont have a buddy really but this month Im challengeing my crazy kids dad to a challenge of who can lose more and yes since he's a man he will probly win the challenge of losing 4 lbs and keep it off until the 30th of this month but Im liking it beacuse im pushing myself more to walk longer and work out longer and when im done I feel good so thats a plus!! have a great weekend

Report Inappropriate Comment
ONEREALLYBIGDOG 9/4/2009 10:28AM

    I agree too!

I like competing with me, myself and I, often times though, I come in last place. When Me or Myself beat me they really rub salt into my wounds, LOL.

Great story, glad it works out for each of you.
Wish I could join in, maybe I could be like that Quaker Oat cereal commercial when the kids go back to school and the Shredded Wheat people is on their shoulder, yea, maybe I could do that with you, LOL

Have a great day and have a safe and happy holiday weekend too.
T

Report Inappropriate Comment
ONMYWAYTOGOAL 9/4/2009 8:19AM

    I agree. I get the most satisfaction when I push myself a little bit farther than I thought I could go. I love to get my miles in in the am before I get ready for work, but the walking I do during my lunch seems to fly because my buddy and I visit the whole time. Yesterday we were almost late getting back into work because we'd lost track of time. Believe me, walking around and around the parking lot is no fun walking alone!!!

I have a pedometer too and love it. It's great for challenging yourself and keeping track of what you're actually accomplishing.

Have a GREAT day!
Hugs,
Laurie

Report Inappropriate Comment
MSLZZY 9/4/2009 7:23AM

    I am my best and worst competitor. I find I can push myself to the limit, just to prove I can do
anything I set my mind to. But that can backfire as well.
Walking with a buddy is so much more fun. It makes the exercise more fun and the time passes so quickly. Have fun with the pedometer. I am taking mine to the State Fair, just to see how much I do walk there. I think I will be surprised!

Report Inappropriate Comment


I am amazed at all of my Spark Friends!

Thursday, September 03, 2009

I am still making new Spark Friends and I am just so thankful for every one of you!

I am really enjoying seeing my Friend Feed on almost every page - it is like small windows into the lives of my buddies.

SparkPeople never ceases to amaze me.

Love y'all,
Linda
we are family! emoticon
emoticon

  
  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

JERSEYGIRL24 9/6/2009 7:58PM

    emoticon for being there for all of us as well!!!

Report Inappropriate Comment
PALESEPT 9/4/2009 7:42AM

    You amaze me too! Thank you so much for all of your kind and funny comments and help!:)

Pale

Report Inappropriate Comment
LIVNFITNHAPPY 9/4/2009 2:06AM

    I agree with MIKIIO, I love seeing your comments on my feed. It always makes for a special moment in my day and feels like a gentle pat on the back!
Thank you!

Report Inappropriate Comment
_VALEO_ 9/4/2009 1:16AM

    I so love reading your comments on my feed, you always have a word to support me or to make me laugh.
Love to see your high achievements too!

Comment edited on: 9/4/2009 3:18:29 AM

Report Inappropriate Comment
JAZZYJUDE 9/4/2009 12:35AM

    Ahh Sweetheart...SparkPeople swells my heart too and it's INCREDIBLE of how many people on this site help each other to be on the same kind of adventure...to live a healthier lifestyle and enjoying life as it was intended to be.

I love the feeds too and like you said, it's like knowing a little extra personal info of your friend's life.

I am glad you are a part of my life's memories and so very PROUD of your success thus far! YOU GO GIRL!!
emoticon emoticon Jazzy!!

Report Inappropriate Comment
MSLZZY 9/4/2009 12:09AM

    You are here to cheer us on so we are just returning the favor! You are such an inspiration and I thank you for all the encouragement and support! emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
ONEREALLYBIGDOG 9/3/2009 11:55PM

    Your blog Linda is quite fitting, and


yet we (all your SP friends) are amazed by YOU!

Keep up all your wonderful efforts.
And a special Thank You for inspiring me to the levels that you have. The current me is due to a great part of YOUR molding me during your tutelage Thanks again for your vote of support!

Tony emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
SIMPLELIFE4REAL 9/3/2009 10:44PM

    Spark People is great! I'm amazed by it too. I'm glad our paths have crossed in cyberspace. You have definitely gotten me to walk more.

Report Inappropriate Comment
SPARROW147 9/3/2009 8:46PM

    We are grateful for you!

Report Inappropriate Comment
MARTY19 9/3/2009 8:40PM

    You have touched so many lives on SP. I for one am so grateful.

Hugs,
Marty

Report Inappropriate Comment
BETHMOMOF2 9/3/2009 8:27PM

    You are so wonderful!

I know what you mean. I love SP. It has been such a blessing to me. I am looking forward to getting more Spark Friends but sure enjoy the ones I have now. (Like you!)

Report Inappropriate Comment
WATERMELLEN 9/3/2009 7:58PM

    This IS a fabulous site -- and you've made a lot of friends because you are such an encouragement and support to so many people!

Report Inappropriate Comment
FINDINGREALME 9/3/2009 7:37PM

    LOL I had never thought of the Friend Feed like that before. Hmmm...but I have to agree with the other poster...be careful what you see in my window at 5 am...there's a reason I exercise by myself in the basement at that hour...hee hee

Report Inappropriate Comment
EMMABE1 9/3/2009 7:18PM

    A positive attitude, and a will to help are things people admire.
You need to be careful what you might see through your window into your buddies lives LOL!! - I hate to think what you see in mine especially at 5.00am!!
Ann emoticon

Comment edited on: 9/3/2009 7:19:57 PM

Report Inappropriate Comment
CRUISEBOUND2014 9/3/2009 7:08PM

    You are an awesome Spark friend! Thank you for all of your positiveness and encouragement emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment


First Page  1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26 27 28 29 30 31 32 33 34 35 36 37 38 39 40 41 42 43 44 45 46 47 48 49 50 51 52 53 54 55 56 57 58 59 60 61 62 63 64 65 66 67 68 69 70 71 72 73 74 75 76 77 78 79 80 81 82 83 84 85 86 87 88 89 90 91 92 93 94 95 96 97 98 99 100 101 102 103 104 105 106 107 108 109 110 111 Last Page