Friday, April 24, 2009
I have been thinking of writing this Blog for weeks - I don't know why I haven't until now.
I smoked for 11 years from age 17 - 28 and would get up to 3 packs a day before I would wean myself back to 1 pack and then slowly crawl back up to 3.
No, I didn't smoke to keep from eating. I could eat before, during and after a cigarette. I made up my mind to quit and then started tapering off. I would quit the cigarette on the way to the car. The cigarette from the car to *anyplace*. The after dinner cigarette. One at a time I quit them all. The hardest to quit was when the telephone rang. I felt like Pavlov's dog! But quit them I did. Then a few years later I happened upon 2 packs hidden in my suitcase - and out of curiosity I smoked one. Then another - and I slapped myself and put it out! I quit for good then and threw away the packs. I think I actually took them apart and used the tobacco in the garden.
Fast forward to 2008. I came back to SparkPeople. I started counting calories. I could eat anything I could track. Little by little I started making smarter choices. I learned what foods had fewer calories so I could eat more and not be hungry. I switched from my beloved over-sized Baked Chicken Leg Quarters with Skin to white meat chicken with no skin because I can eat twice the white-meat chicken for less calories.
I hung up my red shorts and they got me through the Holiday Season with ease! Everytime I looked at cakes or cookies I thought of those red shorts, size 6, and resisted temptation.
Forward again to 2009 - I no longer desire cakes, cookies, chocolates - yes, I do still eat ice cream but carefully measured and tracked. I realized that in the past year I have broken the hold on me that these sugary treats once held! Just like the cigarettes!!
And, I can now taste one bite and move on!! This is reserved for special occasions when my dad begs me to try some of his cake. I carefully break off a piece and place it into my mouth and analyze it! I chew more and get the subtle flavors out so I can give my opinion - and then I walk away from the plate!!!!
We are talking a major SP AHA moment here!!
I blog this so others can benefit since I know I am just terribly average - you can do this too! If you stay away from the *goodies* long enough to break the habit, you too can be set free from your demons!!
I still will not eat a cookie! Not so much as a nibble! But I am no longer afraid of them, I am choosing not to touch them. I am choosing not to touch chocolates.
Maintenance, here I come!
**edit: I do not think Carol_'s question petty at all! And I answered her on her sparkpage.
I use a standard set of measuring cups and smoosh the ice cream down to fill it in!
But I have also discovered pre-packaged portions and use them as well. Not the 1/2 cup ice cream cups but Ice Cream Sandwiches and Ice Cream Bars on occasion. I became quite fond of Blue Bell Cookies 'n Cream Bars for 210 calories!