Friday, February 06, 2009
Today I was asked by a couple of Wal-mart ladies how I lost weight. This is beginning to happen a lot, everywhere I go. I now print SP business cards to hand out. Some lose interest when I tell them it took 10.5 months to lose 75 lbs but a few ask for the card with the information.
For new members, here is my story yet again:
I quit dieting when I turned 39 and my mother was 78. All the dieting between us hadn't changed the most basic fact - we were both fat. Still fat, always fat. I was not going to spend the rest of my life agonizing over something I could not have; I was never going to diet again and I instead learned how to accept myself and improved my self-esteem. I was worthy of love regardless of my weight and/or size.
So what happened and why have I been dieting for the past 10.5 months? I didn't exactly switch overnight. I was 39 when I quit dieting and 56 when I came back to SparkPeople and started doing the program.
I tried every trick I could think of - only eat out of a soup bowl included, believe it or not a soup bowl is 2 cups and if you make your meals no more than what fits in a soup bowl you can generally lose weight.
Well, nothing worked, not even the soup bowl so this time when I came back to SP I intended to be counting calories. But I was going to maintain control and I was going to eat between 1000-1200 calories to do it. Well, that didn't work according to plan and I would have days of binging 2300-2500+ calories for several days whenever I got below 1000 calories.
3 months later I decided to try using the Nutrition Tracker and discovered that for188 lbs (I did manage to lose 22 lbs) I was supposed to be eating 1200-1550 calories to lose the weight in one year. I started eating more and also losing more. I averaged about 1300-1400 most days and without hunger.
Then I found WATP videos and started burning more calories and SP upped me to 1600 day and I just couldn't handle that so I changed my goal from one year to 2 lbs per week, that put me back to the calories I was already comfortable with. I can live on 1500 for the rest of my life if I had to. And the weight started coming off 2 lbs per week pretty steadily.
I do not follow any special diet plan. I eat whatever fits into my daily calories. If I pig out on ice cream it means it will cost me later in the day to stay within my calorie range. I simply refuse to admit that food has a hold over me, I can be very stubborn. I simply refuse to go outside of my allotted range! I would eat celery soup if push ever came to shove just to eat but not go over on my calories! Thankfully it never came to that, lol.
Over the course of 10.5 months I have slowly starting eating smarter while still maintaining my 2 lbs per week losses. During the summer I was walking 150 minutes daily and eating at the top of my range. Now I am lucky to get 30 minutes daily so I am doing the WATP and eating in the middle of my range and am satisfied with 1 lb per week.
Why have I shown this degree of determination? I have absolutely no idea! But my dad learned this week that he will have to go on dialysis and I find it interesting that his diet is quite similar to the food plan I am now on. His portions are now going to be the same portions that I have had to learn this past year! And now I tell him that if I can do it, so can he.
Anyway, that is my story. That is how I went from no diet to my present food plan.
I just realized I never answered the question, "So what happened and why have I been dieting for the past 10.5 months?" I don't really know. DH asks me a lot and I never have an answer. I just woke up Mar 27, 2008 and said to him, "I've had enough. No more. I am going to take off this extra weight." I told him the only goal I had was it had to be a weight I could maintain - no yo-yo dieting. I am getting too old for yo-yo dieting. I didn't care if it was 180, 165 or whatever, but wherever I stopped and could maintain would be it.
SP was just so easy for me and I never got hungry. The weight just kept coming off and I kept walking more and more. So I just kept lowering my goal. There are days that I still cannot fully realize just what I have done! I am lighter than I can even remember from ever!
But I can tell you, this is doable with SP and the wonderful members of all these awesome teams! But it has to be a lifestyle change. I can never go back to the old way of eating but really I don't want to. I love trying on clothes now, just for myself and DH, but it is so much more fun when clothes get big than when they get too small!