Tuesday, November 25, 2014
Day 2 of my break and I didn't wake up until 7.45 this morning! I then had TWO cups of coffee, read a book and gazed out over the bay having a very lazy start to the day! I did then get a lovely yoga session done. I pottered down to town and closed a bank account I've not used for 6 years - got 8p! Then had a craving for a kind of 'hot dog' experience! I achieved this by purchasing a single baguette-style roll (100g) and some smoked tofu. But then, .................. I went and ate a piece of cherry shortbread from the baker's 'sale' tray (yesterday's fare)! I fried some slices of onion and a few slices of tofu in rapeseed oil, filled the roll with mustard and arugula, then piled the onions and tofu on top. It was pretty good I have to say. Then a big mug of strong tea, and ALL of the shortbread (100g). I did take the time to put it into the food tracker and it came out at 1084 cals ('nuf said, right?!)
Then I curled up on the sofa with a book I'm reading - read for a bit - then fell into that sort of stupor of a snooze that comes on after eating too much. Gosh - I've not done that for ages!
Today I also decided to sort out my end-of-month finances, as I have a journey to make on Friday which involved trains and lifts, an overnight stay, then a train ride back again. So I got on-line to check out times and tickets etc. Then realised I didn't have enough money, so I had to go to my new 'savings' account, and transfer the money I'd proudly set aside at the beginning of the month back into my current account. So this month, I've saved NOTHING at all!
Even though I've had a promotion at work, and have been paid more - I still got through it all.
My friend brought me a box of Christmas Fudge yesterday - I had a few pieces yesterday, and,guess what? I've finished it off today. I just cannot cope with having the stuff in the house.
See - this is what I'm working on! If I have candy, chips, chocolate or cookies - I eat them: If I have money - I spend it!
Which is why I'm here on Spark People - and why I'm with the 100 Days of Weight Loss with Linda Spangle team.
I'm making great progress overall - but I'm probably never going to be totally over it; this is a life-long way of managing these 'addictions'
For someone who can easily handle money - it's easy! and hard to understand why someone like me can't just set money aside, stick to the budget, manage the money easily. For someone who can easily handle sugar, salt, fat combos - it's hard to understand why I can't just add up the calories, grams or points, allow myself 'small treats' or 'sins' and stay on the diet.
In addition, I'm 59 yrs 11 months, 3 weeks and 4 days old.........................
and approaching 60 is taking some adjusting too as well.
So - I can see why I'm wobbling a bit.
But it's temporary - it's a phase - and I'm travelling along a great path towards health and happiness thanks to Spark People and all my Spark Friends.
Sunday, November 23, 2014
It's only 9pm and I'm ready for bed - yawning and frankly bored with myself! I feel a bit 'aimless' with the 10 days break from work ahead of me - and 'afraid' of wasting it! I also feel a bit lost without the pressure of work. I've been on a steep learning-curve this last 6 weeks or so with my new role at work as an assistant manager - and I am very tired. I felt like I needed some help with this, so I googled it (!) - and found a useful article on wiki-how
1) leave work at work
2) unwind properly - watch tv, finish a craft project, walk in local neighbourhood, read a book
3) turn off the phone, limit computer time, don't look at work e-mails
4) get away - even if it's just a walk in the woods
5) keep mind occupied with puzzles, games, Sudoku, crosswords etc
6) pamper yourself, sleep
7) calm your worries: declutter, sort stuff out, get in touch with friends
8) realise the benefits; enjoy the freedom to sit, stand, lie down, move without constraint
That sounds like a plan - I'm going to go off to bed now, and not set my alarm clock!
Sunday, November 23, 2014
Today I walked away from work for a 10-day break................. and decided to 'celebrate' by going into Costa (instead of walking past as I do every day!) and got myself a Gingerbread and Cream Latte (the smallest one available). I realise I have been seduced by their beautiful billboard that I pass every day - but it was definitely a CHOICE to go in and indulge. It was beautiful - and made me smile and smile!
I won't do it every day - and I think it was a 'special occasion' (but not 100% certain about that - I might be fooling myself!)
I came home and googled it for the calories - and couldn't find a definitive answer - but I think it's between 450 and 700 calories. So - well - dessert in a cup?
Am sipping tea now and planning a healthy meal later.
Let the holiday begin!
Saturday, November 22, 2014
Chapter 30 is about Hunger Levels, and about getting to know our own signals that let us know what level we're at. Linda Spangle offers a scale that has four levels:
0 = neutral, not hungry, not full
-1 = a little bit hungry
-2 = very hungry
-3 = starving hungry
Her point is that we need to be able to recognise when we are at -1, so that we can plan to eat soon: If we wait until we get to -2 or -3 we are likely to eat in an out-of-control way.
This picture is about the economics of hunger (from The Economist) and illustrates how in the developed world, as soon as we experience hunger, we can go out and satisfy it. (Look how fat we get!)
For money/spending it can be applied in several ways, but for the purposes of overcoming my emotional behaviour around money (as around food) I think it's about being aware of the level of 'want' in considering spending money, but also about planning so that I don't feel so deprived that I then break out and spend a load of money I can't afford to spend.
'.... you can't always drop everything and run for food at the first hunger pang. But don't ignore your hunger signals. If necessary, plan ahead so that when your body speaks and tells you it's time to eat, you've got food readily available.' 100 Days of Weight Loss, Linda Spangle pg 69.
Same with money - I need to have a planned amount of spending money available to satisfy that hunger without getting to a point where I'm absolutely ravenous!
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