Wednesday, March 05, 2014
I've been obese or morbidly obese for about 15 years. Obviously I knew I needed to lose weight for health reasons. But I hadn't received any obesity-related diagnoses yet so I was living in denial and relegating weight loss to "someday". I wanted to look better and feel better but honestly it seemed overwhelming to change my habits. I was sedentary and ate pizza, burgers and fries, and I had dessert every single day. In December 2012, I was diagnosed with sleep apnea and told that losing weight would likely reverse it (specifically, the doctor said I needed to lose about 40 pounds). That was the wake up call I needed. It also helped that my neurologist told me that daily walking would help me cope with my migraines and might reduce the frequency/severity.
December 2013, I hit my weight goal - 80 pounds gone. As I've attempted to increase to maintenance calories, I've lost another 11 pounds and I'm fine with that. My weight has held steady for two weeks now.
I saw my doctor recently and she advised me not to lose any more weight. Wow! A far cry from the old days. So "lose 90 pounds" isn't on my mental To Do List any longer! Now what? What's next?
I have to find new motivation to keep pushing myself outside of my comfort zone. I suspect if "don't gain weight" was enough motivation, I'd never have gained 90 pounds in the beginning! I remember reading that our minds don't work in the negative. For example, if I tell myself "don't eat that pizza", all my brain hears is "PIZZA". So I need to flip this to the positive.
I'm pushing to be stronger, faster, happier, healthier, and better in 2014 than I was in 2013. Hopefully that will also result in my skinny jeans still fitting in December!