Friday, December 06, 2013
It's been a rough week for me :( Honestly, the fact that it has been a rough week makes me really sad, too. When I came back from NJ on Sunday, though tired, I was feeling better mentally about things in my life. In fact, when I went to therapy on Monday morning, my therapist said it was the happiest and most relaxed he had seen me. We even agreed that instead of me going back in 2 weeks, we would try to do a step-down on my treatment so I wouldnt come back for another month. And then I feel like everything just went down hill on Tuesday night. :( I know my mom is going to have good and bad days, and I know that her good and bad days will cause me to have some bad days, too, because I care about her so I will of course worry about her. But I am really struggling because my father and brother are putting a lot of their stress on me, too. I mean, I appreciate them keeping me in the loop, but when they vent TO me, I feel like I have to take on their stress, too. And I want to be supportive for everyone, but then I feel like I have no strength left for myself. This was one of the reasons I started go to go therapy, except for work stuff. I was taking on my clients' stresses and didnt have anything left to help me. So I basically feel like I am back to where I started. And recently J has been completely unsupportive, and honestly I am so, so mad right now. I get that it's a busy time for him at work right now with finals and grading, but would it kill him to just give me a few hours one night when I am hysterically crying just so that I am not alone?!
I did steam clean my carpets on Wednesday after work - we got released early so it seemed like a productive use of my time. It wasnt that difficult, but I only did the living room (my only carpetted room downstairs). I still plan to do the entire upstairs and the stairs themselves at some point, but the living room was the most important. I am planning to put up my Christmas tree tonight, and maybe that will help improve my mood a bit.
It has been extremely cold here. It is -1F right now, but feels like -6F. My tire pressure light came on yesterday and this morning, but it is so cold the last thing I want to do is stand outside at the gas station putting air in my tires! Hopefully I dont get a flat anytime soon!! I am supposed to run the Ugly Christmas Sweater 5k tomorrow. It is going to be 11F at race time. But it will only feel like 2F. I dont know about all of you, but that does not sound fun at all. I am very much considering just going to the gym and running on the treadmill instead, where it is warm. I hate cold weather. I am not sure I want to turn into an icicle while running a race. The roads in my neighborhood continued to be covered in hard-packed snow/ice. Is the park even going to be shovelled for the race?! Blech.
We are going to a holiday party tomorrow night. The legal office at the base I worked for invited us to attend. I thought it was nice they included us, since I work in an office of 2 people and we were clearly not having a holiday party. So we'll stop by for a little while. And then on Sunday I am determined to try my first yoga class at the local yoga studio. I am also hoping to get my Christmas shopping done this weekend. I just want to be finished with it so I am not rushing around the next two weeks. It's mostly just gift cards anyway. My brother and I agreed to just give each other gift cards instead of trying to find really nice presents. I think thats a good idea, anyway.
I told myself I wouldnt start anymore quilt tops until I quilted the two I already had done, but last night I found myself cutting fabric for another quilt top. The fabric cutting is very relaxing for me. So I guess another quilt top is in the works. Hopefully I can get it all done before heading back to NJ on the 22nd.
My paralegal and I agreed to leave early today. It is Wingman Day for the base here, which means most offices are closed and everyone is doing "team building" exercises and the like. That seems like a valid reason to start the weekend early.
Wednesday, December 04, 2013
It's snowing. So here's a funny story. Last night I was falling asleep around 10:30pm, and I started getting text messages about my old base having delayed reporting this coming morning (I am still on the emergency text message alert list apparently), so I checked to see if my base would have delayed reporting in the morning, too. Indeed, my base would have delayed reporting as well, since we were expecting a big snow storm over night, with the possibility of accumulating 6 inches! So knowing that I wouldnt have to be at work until 9:30am, I turned my alarm off and tried to go to sleep. And when I woke up this morning there was no snow on the ground! Figures. When I finally left for work this morning, though, it had started snowing. I just looked outside and we probably have close to an inch now. Its sticking to the roads. I wonder if they will send us home early, too?!
I had a really good dance class last night, and I was in a pretty good mood when I got home. And then my mom wanted me to call her so I did and she was miserable :( Which really upset me. She was fine last week and now she's miserable again because she's bored since she cant go to work and she cant go out where there are large crowds because she cant risk getting sick with a weakened immune system from the chemo. I feel bad for her, I really do. But she was acting ridiculous - saying she was going to stop getting treatments because this is a waste of her time and she doesnt feel sick and its no big deal. And it was just so hurtful that she was acting that way because we all want her to get better so that she doesnt face this again in the future, and she just wants to quit because she is bored. Regardless, nothing I said to her was what she wanted to hear, and when I finally hung up, I was so frustrated and mad, I was shaking and couldnt fall asleep! J was already asleep and I left him like 5 text messages because I was so frustrated I just had to get it out of my system. :/ I hope she is in a better mood in the coming days. The silly part is that when I was visiting last week, I took her out shopping a few times, and she was so tired from the chemo that she couldnt stay out that long anyway! *sigh* Now I feel even more worried about her than I did before I went to visit!! So much for my stress seeming to diminish.
In other news, I think I have finally finished Christmas shopping for J. I bought him 4 different things, 3 small things and one somewhat expensive item. I might get him one more thing, but I think for the most part I am done and if I dont get anything else, I will still feel ok about it. Especially considering he hasnt given me any ideas on what to get him this year. I am hoping to get the rest of my Christmas shopping done soon. I am afraid to buy anything that I need/want until I know how much I will spend on Christmas presents, so easier to get it all done I suppose. Plus, I am really wanting to get my hair cut and highlighted soon, so that is incentive, right?
Yesterday I briefly mentioned this, but I bought a living social voucher for 10 classes at a local yoga studio. Yes, I am willing to give yoga another try. I figure the dvds I try are always so boring but I know so many people who love yoga, so maybe a studio with actual yoga classes will be better? I am hoping to try my first class this weekend. I am feeling pretty optimistic about it, and I am really hoping that I will enjoy it. They offer a variety of different classes at many different times of the day, and its a donation studio, so you pay with donations - there is no set price (though they say $7-$12 is the average donation they get per class) or you can do a monthly donation, too. It's not too far away either. Not as close as my dance studio, but not driving to the other side of the city either.
Oh, also, I bought the Erin Condren Life Planner yesterday! I am so, so excited! I learned about these over the summer and became kind of obsessed with them but was waiting until the end of the year to purchase one. I love paper planners and paper calendars. I occassionally use the calendar on my phone for doctors appointments because I frequently forget about them and it will alert me so I dont forget. But I use my paper calendar on my desk so much more, so I am excited to have a fantastic planner that will actually fit in my purse! It should come before Christmas and it really might be the most exciting thing I am looking forward to.
Other than that, just trying to stay warm. It's going to be -5 tonight! I hate cold weather :( I am scheduled to run a 5k on Saturday but its going to be less than 20 degrees so I cant guarantee that I will drag my butt outside for that. My body hates running in anything under 40 degrees. I did recently invest in some under armour cold gear with the fleece lining, so we'll see. And then next week starts half marathon training! Hooray! My mom and I purchased our flights to Disney for the Princess Half Marathon while I was visiting last week. I still need to work on hotel reservations - I need to go to the Tickets & Travel place on base so I can get my military discounted room rates. We want to stay in one of the Deluxe Resorts this year, so I am hoping the discounted rates will be good!
Tuesday, December 03, 2013
Yay! December! I am so excited that this month is FINALLY here! I love, love, love Christmas time. Decorations, music. Happiness. I love looking at Christmas lights when I am driving. I feel like people are so much nicer around this time of year. Mine and J's 2 year dating anniversary is this month. Seriously, can you guys believe it's been 2 years? Don't you all remember me talking about my "work crush" before we started dating?! haha
I am excited and determined to make this a really good month. But first, I have to recap my November goals, and I dont think it will be pretty!
Walk / Run 50 miles
Ok, 50 was really ambitious. *sigh* But I did complete 26.5, and you know what? I am proud of that. I didnt run at all for 1.5 months, so to get in 26.5 miles last month, was a vast improvement :)
800 fitness minutes
But I came really close, finishing up the month at 707 minutes!
Blog over at sassycraftyfit.com every single day
I was getting it done EVERY DAY for National Blog Posting Month, until I went to NJ to visit my family, and unintentionally disconnected myself for an entire week from the internet. Honestly, I will probably not try that challenge again. I dont write like I do over here, so I really couldnt always find something worth writing about.
Complete 2 quilt tops.
They were A LOT of work, and I havent quilted them yet, but they are done. One for my mom and one for my grandma. I think I might give up on doing 2 more. The quilting is going to take a long time, too!
Dairy and Gluten Free for the majority of the month
I did well on this one because I dont have much of a choice. I had a few issues with some hidden gluten, but I am learning more and more, and my body feels better when I stick to the plan.
Overall, I am not too disappointed in myself, really. I worked hard. Had I not taken a week off from everything I might have reached more goals, but that week off was honestly just as important for me, so no big deal :)
Time to set myself up for success this month!!
30 miles of running for the month.
I start HM training next week! And I have a 5k this weekend. Both great ways to stay motivated! Challenge: it's going to start snowing regularly, so I need to deal with it. Also, I'll be in NJ for another week this month, and I need to just force myself to get it done. I am looking into getting a one week pass to a local gym while I am in town this time.
800 fitness minutes for the month.
I am determined to hit that, exceed last month. It shouldnt be too difficult as long as I get in all of my workouts!
Stay in my calorie ranges for 20/31 days this month. I cant really "splurge" too much with my food restrictions, but I do like to indulge when I can, especially on dark chocolate. But this should be a manageable goal!
Read 10 books this month.
This might be the most ambitious goal! My goal for the year was 40 books. I read 5 books while away last week, bringing me up to 30 books! I am so close. I actually finished another book last night, so I only need 9 more, and since I'll be in NJ for a week, this might actually be achieved!!!
Add in yoga classes 1x per week.
I bought a living social voucher today for 10 yoga classes. I find yoga boring, but I always do it on a dvd. I am hoping it will be better if I just take an actual class. So I bought the living social voucher for $35, which I thought was a good deal. I am planning to try my first class this coming Sunday!
How are you planning to finish out the year??
Monday, December 02, 2013
Well, you may have noticed that I took a spark hiatus the past week! I flew to NJ last Monday and spent the week visiting my family for the holiday, and in the process remained disconnected from the internet. Not really in purpose, I was just so busy enjoying family time, and relaxing, that I never once took my laptop out of my backpack! That is definitely not like me, but my focus was completely on my family, and it was much-needed.
On Monday it snowed here in Colorado. My flight was at 4:05, so I planned to leave my 1:00 to get to the off-airport parking, go through security, etc., especially because I was bringing Buffy with me. But because it was snowing. I ended up leaving around 12:15 instead because I didnt know how bad the roads would be or what the traffic would be like, and since we were flying out of Denver, we had quite a drive to get there! The roads ended up not being too bad or crowded, but it was a yucky misty snow/sleet thing going on which just made driving really annoying. There wasnt really a line for baggage drop so that was good, and Denver now has TSA pre-check so I was able to zip through security very quickly! And then my flight was delayed by an hour and a half. It figures! I hadnt really eaten anything and I was kind of freaking out because the longer my flight was delayed, the longer I would have to go without food, and I wasnt going to land until close to midnight with the delays. So I found a mexican place that made burrito bowls, so I ended up doing that. I was worried it would upset my stomach since I didnt really know what ingredients they used, but I ended up being fine so that was good. The flight was uneventful. I had downloaded some episodes of the tv show Haven on my ipad so I watched those on the plane and it made the flight go by quickly. Buffy behaved very well, too. My dad picked us up at the airport and I was so glad to get to my parents' house. I was also exhausted and couldnt wait to go to sleep!
Tuesday morning I had to do ap hone conference for work, but it only took 15 minutes so that wasnt so bad. Then my mom and I went to the local grocery store to try and find some food that was gluten and dairy-free for me. Sadly, the grocery store didnt have very much, and I ended up going back out later to another grocery store that had a very nice gluten-free selection and I was able to get everything I was looking for. I cooked dinner for my family that night and they enjoyed it. After, my brother and I decided we wanted to play scrabble, but we couldnt find the game in the house, so he and I went to Walmart, and picked up Scrabble, Scattergories, Aples to Apples, Skip-Bo, and a deck of cards. We then proceeded to play scrabble for like 2 hours that night. It was really fun.
On Wednesday I dont remember too much about what I did. I took my mom out shopping becuase she was tired of being cooped up in the house all of the time. We went to a craft store, petsmart, and then to the mall. I was able to pick up a few small xmas presents for J while at the mall. Otherwise, the trip was rather uneventful. Afterwards, I spent the afternoon baking for Thanksgiving. I made a dozen chocolate cupcakes and a dozen vanilla cupcakes, along with my dairy-free "buttercream" frosting. I used the betty crocker gluten-free cake mixes, and subbed vegan butter for regular butter. They tasted fantastic! I also subbed vegan butter for regular butter, and coconut milk for regular milk in my frosting, and I thought it tasted better. I also made paleo pumpkin chocolate bread and it was delicious!
Thursday was Thanksgiving. My brother cooked all of the food, and since I had finished the baking the night before, I pretty much just relaxed all day. My grandma, aunt, uncle, and two cousins came over for dinner and we had a very nice evening together. My brother even accommodated my gluten and dairy-free issues - he even made me mashed potatoes with coconut milk! They tasted good. :) After everyone left my brother and I played some more scrabble.
On Friday. my brother and I decided to venture out for some Black Friday shopping at the local outlet shopping center. We didnt head out until 10:30am. I usually do Black Friday shopping with my mom and we go super early in the morning, but since my mom shouldnt be around lots of people so she doesnt get sick, she couldnt go out. My brother really wanted to go to the outlets to get jeans so I agreed to go with him. I ended up getting two xmas gifts for my mom, as well as a page-a-day calendar for myself, a nike hoodie and socks from the nike outlet, and a red dress from The Loft that I plan to wear to J's holiday party next week. It was a good shopping trip. I was pretty exhausted afterwards, so I just relaxed the rest of the night.
On Saturday I took my mom to a local quilting shop I found by searching online because I wanted her to see an actual quilt store as opposed to a large fabric store like Joann's. Then we went to Michaels so she could pick up a few things but there were so many people coughing and sneezing that we needed to get out of there quickly! The rest of the day we just lounged, watched a lot of HGTV and then some Harry Potter.
I should also mention that I read 5 books while I was visiting. Like I said, very relaxing.
I will also say that I did not workout the entire time I was there. I didnt even run the 5k Turkey Trot I had planned to run on Saturday. And I dont regret it. It was really important to spend so much time with my family. :) And I think I needed the break, too.
My flight back was yesterday. It also got delayed - I have no luck with flights lately. I decided to leave Buffy at my parents' house since I am going back to visit them again for Christmas in three weeks. It's less flying for the dog, which I think is good. Plus, she gets plenty of attention there. I do miss her so much already though. It's lonely in my house without her! My flight finally landed around 6:30pm, we got stuck on the plane taxiing for another 30 minutes. I was starving by the time I got off the plane, and I think either the Luna bar or the salad I ate before boarding upset my stomach because I was not feeling so well. There were hardly any options in the airport, and I caved and got tacos from taco bell, figuring they are corn shells so they wouldnt have gluten. I later learned that was incorrect. Also the meat has gluten in it. It didnt make me any sicker than I was already feeling. At this point, I might have just eaten anything though - I was feeling pretty desperate. By the time I got my suitcase, took the shuttle back to my car, and then made the drive home, I got to my house at 9:45pm. Exhausted. And pretty much went straight to sleep.
Now I am back at work. I feel very behind, and have a busy day today, so I guess I wont be catching up until tomorrow. I have an appointment with my therapist in about a half hour, and then I have a meeting this afternoon that will likely take the entire rest of the day. I did pack my gym bag, and I am hoping to get in a short workout after work before heading to the grocery store. I have pretty much no food at home, so I need to figure food out today, too.
I also realize it is now December, so I will be back later today with some December goals!
Friday, November 22, 2013
It's Friday! So let me tell you a funny (embarrassing) story!
I was on Facebook earlier today and I went to send someone a message, and noticed that on my Messages page, there is a secondary folder labeled "other" that I never knew existed (probably because I rarely read my facebook messages). Well, I clicked on it to see what was in there - mostly spam. Except there was one email from J's youngest sister from May 2012. Umm... that was like a year and a half ago. Asking me for advice on a birthday present for J. Can you just imagine for a second the absolute mortification I am feeling as I see this message and realize that a year and a half has gone by and I NEVER responded!!!
The thing about being in the military and not living near family, is that I've never met J's family, except his mom because she's visited twice this year. J's met my family because he came home with me twice, but I've never gone with him to visit his family. So I've never met his sisters. And to realize that she reached out to me a year and a half ago and I never responded! OMYGOSH! She must think I'm so completely rude!!! I immediately responded and apologized, and she replied with an lol and we laughed it off, but yeah. That doesnt take away the complete embarrassment I am continuing to feel over this! Jeesh! Stupid Facebook!!
So yeah. Went to my jazz dance class last night. Half the class didnt show up, so it was a very small class and we concentrated on more leaps again. We were doing this one leap, and I knew a different variation to it that no one else in the class had done, so I had to demonstrate the leap multiple times. I think my shin pain is coming from using muscles I havent used in so long dancing! It's definitely not the same pain you feel from shin splints. I was sweating a lot during and after this class, so it must have been a good class. Our teacher said that after Thanksgiving we will start doing more combinations instead of only focusing on technique, so I am looking forward to that!
I am also looking forward to the weekend! It is snowing again today - I was once again hoping for work being closed, but that didnt happen so here I am. I actually have to go up to the Air Force Academy this afternoon to meet with a client, and I am really dreading having to make that drive in the snow. But once the meeting is over I am done for the day, and officially on vacation until December 2nd! I am not leaving for NJ until Monday afternoon, but I am excited to not work for a whole week!!
Weekend plans include sewing, running 5 miles on Saturday - looks like it will be a treadmill run because it's going to be in the teens and I am so not ready for cold weather running yet - cleaning the house, doing laundry and dishes, and packing. So, it should be a busy weekend, and hopefully I will stay cozy during this cold weather!
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