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Thursday, April 19, 2012

Well, things are going fair in regards to hubby and his diabetes. He isn't making all the best choices, and there is not much more I can to. We did buy a new cookbook and we have made a couple meals out of it. I will attempt more this weekend when I have more time. Our dinners have been decent this week it is just his lunches that he hasn't always made the best choices with. He finally got his meter so hopefully this will get him better on track with his choices.

My back was doing much better and then this week I have it has flared back up to an unbearable level of pain again. I do see the pain doctor tomorrow so he will probably give me another shot of cortisone. Not a pleasant feeling, but it will give me relief for a while at least.

Work is very hectic - I am thankful to have a job.

I have been having the most bizarre dreams about my family. Every night the dream is about a different group of family. One night it was of my brother and his family who lives in the country Mexico. I haven't seen them in a very long time and I miss them greatly. The message I think that is similar with all the dreams is that I'm sad and miss them. I think it is an underlining sign of not really having someone who I talk to about my issues. My closest friends are talkers not listeners.

This is a picture of a bleeding heart that I had to dig up last year because we put a porch in over where it use to be. It was late in the year so it is still in a planter. With my back issues I may not get it transplanted this year, but I'm not overly concerned since my bleeding hearts grow like wild flowers. I love them so much too!

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MSLZZY 4/21/2012 8:47AM

    Given time, DH will adjust but it is up to him to make
the changes he needs. I would love to have a bleeding
heart but they winterkill here so if I plant one, I have
it one year. Must be doing something wrong.
Take care of your back and have a better day!

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SAL2525 4/20/2012 2:18PM

    Hi Val Just catching up on things. Glad you got a cookbook. I got the diabetes cookbook ad AGAIN. Gee I wonder if the universe is trying tell ME to WAKE UP! Glad your husband is doing a little better and has the meter. Dreams are so very interesting aren't they! I had a strange dream about my sister and her extended family coming to visit only I had water beetles every where! It was a weird dream. I cleaned house today (including the cellar) but not a one in sight! )At least they were not cockroaches I have a real PHOBIA about them! Do you happen to get the AARP magazine? There was an interesting article this month on pain. Glad your back is a little better. BTW beautiful flowers! (((HUGS)))) Sal

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GRAPEVINE60 4/20/2012 11:27AM

    Hope your back feels better soon. I like the picture of the bleeding heart also. I have a dyanthis (sp?) that was doing really well. Then we had a thunderstorm with hail, and it is practically beat to death. I'm hoping it will come back.

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KLWALDON 4/20/2012 11:04AM

    Hope you find some relief for your back. I hate to hear of the pain. That is no fun at all, I am sure. Hang in there!! Thinking of you!!

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JOANNS4 4/20/2012 9:05AM

    A beautiful picture of the bleeding heart. I hope your back get's better and it sounds like your dh will do o.k. When things change I will have strange dreams, too. Even if the change is good. Take care.

Jo Ann

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LIBBYFITZ 4/20/2012 6:27AM

    emoticon hope things improve with hubby making better choices.

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DEE107 4/20/2012 12:26AM

    hope you feel better and hubby witll get use to it it takes time

Love Bleeding heart my are up too thanks for sharing this

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MAKINANIMPACT 4/19/2012 10:37PM

    Wishing you the best! I'm sorry you are in so much pain and hope that it will subside! The hubby thing, your doing your best, what's that saying again you can only lead the horse to water....

I will keep you in my thoughts and wish you a speedy recovery and I do hope that your hubby is able to do better with his testing supplies!

Take care and hope for good news..


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    I'm so sorry to hear your back has flared up on you; I pray you get relief quickly. Hopefully your hubby realizes that his food/choice changes are for the rest of his life and not just a short term nuisance. Sounds like you need to make plans to see your brother! Meet him half way or take a tour of Mexico.

I can empathize with feeling like you have no one to talk to about 'things'. I work with men all day, have no neighbors to talk to but do get together with a friend or two on occasion. My job has been nuts lately, too, and I am thankful for it but would be very happy winning the lottery, too emoticon

You and your husband are in my thoughts and prayers. Pat

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MILLISMA 4/19/2012 7:51PM

    Give him time and maybe he will do better. At least two out of three meals are okay. Sorry your back is still an issue. I love bleeding hearts and I think you're right that they just multiply like rabbits!

Thinking of you and keeping you and hubby in my prayers.

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The Wake Up Call

Sunday, April 15, 2012

This has been quite the year so far and this last week another blow was received. My husband had some blood work done and the news came back that he has diabetes. That was the first blow, but what the doctor said was that the diabetes wonít kill him his heart will. It seems that all of his blood levels are dangerously high.

Ironically, Iím much worse off in the weight area then he is, but as you know diabetes will require us to change our way of eating. They will be setting him up for classes on how to manage it and since we both do the cooking the doctor suggested I also go to the classes. Yesterday I bought a new cookbook specifically for diabetes so that we could have some new recipes to get started with.

His biggest hurdle will be his lunches since many days he is on the road. Letís hope he makes good choices.

Mu husband isnít the best communicator so I have to bite my tongue so as not to annoy him about the whole issue. I was doing pretty well until I came home the other night from work and couldnít figure out what to make for dinner so I just sat down and cried. I really needed to release my fears and they came out in tears.

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ALASKASKY 4/19/2012 9:44AM

    I'm so sorry you're going through this. It's hard to change other peoples eating habits, no matter how much we love them and no matter how much they know they are in danger. Pray and put it in God's hands.

Don't give up and know that we are here to listen any time you need to get it out. Hopefully the classes will help.


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BD3269PM 4/19/2012 6:54AM

    I understand. My husband has many reasons why he should be watching the foods that he eats but doesnt really do it. I try to cook better for him but I am not with him all day. We can only do so much but even that helps. Keep on sparking emoticon

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DDOORN 4/19/2012 6:48AM

    What a HUGE wake up call indeed!

But you know, diabetic friendly food choices are terrific for building a healthy lifestyle. It may seem overwhelming now, but step by step and I'm sure you BOTH will feel SO much better as you turn the corner on this.

I just know that you both can DO IT!!


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    How are you and your DH doing? Have the two days since this post helped to ease your worry at all? I hope so. emoticon Pat

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KANSASROSE67 4/16/2012 5:04PM

    Hoping this can be a blessing in disguise for both of you as you take steps to eat in a way that will improve your health.

Thoughts and prayers with you both.


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    I'm so sorry to hear you're going through all this. I'm 52, my husband is 57 and I sit back and watch how/what he eats and just feel helpless at times. I've talked to him about his choices but he doesn't want to hear it. It can be very frustrating, I know.

I know it's easy to say but you can only help him so much and he has to take control of his health. In the meanwhile, try not to worry yourself sick about it. There are a number of Vegan recipes out there that are very good, as well. Maybe he can help find some recipes that sound good to him (any/all recipes, not just Vegan) and that will make him more involved in the process??

We ALL need a good cry every-now-and-then. I think it rinses out our emotions and clears our vision/s. Hugs, Pat

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MILLISMA 4/15/2012 10:56PM

    Val, so sorry to hear that you're having such a tough time. My husband was the same way. He had sleep apnea but wouldn't go for the testing and just stopped breathing one night. You just couldn't talk to him about it.

Thinking of you and sending extra hugs. Wish I could give you one in person.

emoticonMary Anne

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OKBACK2ME 4/15/2012 9:32PM

    emoticon Yes, it will change your lifestyle. You are already on the way with this web site. Weight does not always have anything to do with getting diabetes. My son was diagnosed at 16 with Type 1, I had an Aunt that had been diagnosed around the same age. It may be the catalyst to a healthier lifestyle for both of you.

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DEE107 4/15/2012 9:12PM

    hugs my friend and praying for you and your hubby

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WARMSPRINGDAY 4/15/2012 3:02PM

    emoticon to you. You've been hit with some difficult times. Just take one step at a time and you will pull through. I understand the tears. More emoticon

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GRAMPAM 4/15/2012 12:04PM

    My DH has diabetes, also. He takes insulin and refuses to watch his diet. It has helped me, though. I don't know what his wake up call wil be.
Best wishes and prayers.

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JOANNS4 4/15/2012 10:00AM

    I know how you feel. My dh takes medication for what the doctor called pre diabetes
and he has heart disease. I do the best I can to provide the right foods for him and meals. He has come up with some good recipes on his own and I applauded that. But, it is a constant battle. Hugs!

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SAL2525 4/15/2012 9:12AM

    OH HUSBANDS !! I love mine to bits and pieces but WOW when he is done talking about something HE IS DONE!! To make things more interesting I process out loud and he is the exact opposite! That is probably why I love this site so. I can ruminate all I want! emoticon! Looks like big changes a foot for you! Well, you are in GOOD company and you have so MANY resources at your finger tips here at SparkPeople! Hang in there! There is going to be a lot of us cheering you on! ((((HUGS)))) Sal

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1CRAZYDOG 4/15/2012 9:00AM

    I am sorry to hear about your DH's diagnosis. BUT you know, HE has to want to take care of himself.

I myself was diagnosed in Jan. 2010. that was MY wake up call. I took it seriously.

You're unfortunately right that nagging seems to lead to defensive walls being put up and that's exactly what you DON'T want. Definitely go with him to the diabetic class. If this doesn't include a diabetic educator, I'd ask for that too so HE hears from someone else exactly what the consequences of not taking care of the diabetes are. Hearing it from an outsider generally has more impact.

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MISSM66 4/15/2012 8:52AM

    I am sorry to learn of your hubby diabetes, but he can beat it,if you and him just stick to eating veggies,Salad, Fruits, and lot's of fiber, Protein which is very good, and get as much exercise as possible, it will help, I just get the same news about two months about my Brother and I tell him the same thing I am telling you, and he is doing much much better, I will keep you both in my Prayers,have a bless day. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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MSLZZY 4/15/2012 7:56AM

    As difficult as this may seem now, it may be a blessing in
disguise. The changes you make for him will help
you as well. Just do the best you can! HUGS!

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RIDLEYRIDER 4/15/2012 7:54AM

  It is always difficult to hear a diagnosis like that, but don't despair. It is manageable (my husband has it; I don't) and with education and information, it will come naturally, in time. Small steps....that is the key.

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TRYINGTOLOSE64 4/15/2012 7:41AM

    Well hopefully with the change you can help to prevent yourself from becoming diabetic.

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Hoping for relief

Sunday, April 01, 2012

Well as some of you know I started the year with foot surgery in hopes that I would be ready to tackle spring with a new bounce in my step. The foot surgery went well, but by the time I got the A-OK to start walking my back flared up. It ends up I have a herniated disc and I have been seeing a Chiropractor for 5 weeks now. He changed my treatment from the regular back manipulation to decompression. I have not seen much of an improvement but it can take 12 - 20 visits for the full treatment. On Friday I also went to a pain management doctor and he gave me a shot of cortisone in the back into the nerve that is causing most of my pain. I could feel the medicine travel right down my leg. It was a little bit painful, but overall I came out with a little relief. Yesterday I was able for function a lot better than I have in the last five weeks, but today I woke with pain and am more uncomfortable again.

Unfortunately, when I started treatment for the back I was told not to do any exercise because it was counterproductive. Thankfully last week he gave me some exercises to do so Iím hopefully on the road to recovery. I am trying to be patient, but it has been awful to have this amount of pain and be so limited in what I can do. On the other hand I have read some members blogs that have issues much worse than I and made progress. I always know it could be worse.

Today is Palm Sunday and even though the date is not correct my Dad died in a car accident on Palm Sunday when he was only 36 years old. I was only six. I think of him today with love and a little bit of sadness.

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NANASAMM 4/15/2012 12:57PM

    So sorry about your Dad, and at the tender age of six...geesh! That's hard. Glad you got "some" relief regarding your pain and that it continues to get better.

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EARTH-ANGEL 4/9/2012 10:13AM

    I am also sorry to hear about your dad! I Hope your day went well enough emoticon

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SAL2525 4/6/2012 8:31PM

    I missed your blog due to computer issues. I hope your feeling a little better. Not exercising is so challenging and then when you can it is so easy to overdo it!

It is a challenging time to have lost a parent especially at the tender age of 6! I hope you have some good memories of him.

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SILVERANGEL6 4/3/2012 2:14AM

    Keep meditating, keep visualising yourself pain free and walking for exercise again..make this your focus, your intent....you know we create our reality, so start creating yours now....look to the other side of that Rainbow, walk through each different colour, with the intent of finding the pain free you on the other side...you know, ENERGY FLOWS WHERE ATTENTION GOES....
Meditate as often as you can, just find the most comfortable position for you, in a darkened room, no interruptions for a least 30 minutes....

Sorry about your Dad, why don't you ask him to help heal you?

Here's a link to a lady you should read about.....


Listen to this first, then this is her site :-


If this doesn't inspire you, then I don't know what will, dearest.....

I can't sleep in my bed, I sleep in my arnchair, I have arthritis in my hips, within 15 minutes of lying down, I'm in agony...So I have to get up again, so now I don't even try, I'm more comfy in the chair, anyway....and no snoring!! lol..

Sending you absent healing, dearest girl...in a lovely pink bubble....all Aqua colours, green & blue.. there it goes, all the way to you..


Sylvia xxxx

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DEE107 4/1/2012 9:32PM

    hugs my friend and I feel for you and hope you are feeling better soon and so sorry about your Dad too I know what you mean about when it happen and the memory too

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ROCKINMOM776 4/1/2012 7:32PM

    I stumbled on your page completely by accident (or by design?)... I also suffer from problems with my feet and several ruptured discs so I completely understand your pain. I'm so sorry your physical pain is coupled with the emotional pain from the loss of your dad (I lost my mom several years ago, and it still hurts). I pray the Lord give you strength and ease your pain. Keep your focus on what is higher than ourselves!

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    Thinking of you as you remember your Dad and his passing.

Hoping that you will soon find relief from the pain. I've been in similar situations with my sciatic nerve and I understand how far it pulls you down.

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LKWQUILTER 4/1/2012 2:49PM

    Praying that you get to feeling better soon. Even though your loss was a long time ago, praying for a good day today. ((HUGS))

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GRAMMACATHY 4/1/2012 1:13PM

    Thinking of you and your loved ones this Palm Sunday. May the injuries heal quickly and may your heart be filled with warm memories of your lost loved ones.

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JOANNS4 4/1/2012 12:51PM

    I'm sorry to hear of your back pain after your foot surgery. My dd has back problems also and I know how painful it can be. Hopefully the treatments will help. Physical therapy can be a great help. It's hard to lose a dad so young. I know you have special memories today. emoticonI emoticon

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WILLOW49 4/1/2012 12:40PM

    You've certainly had a time of it this year. Glad you are able to do some exercise now. Hopefully you'll be back on course before too long.

My fond memories of your dad help ease your pain today.

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DDOORN 4/1/2012 12:14PM

    Thx goodness for some exercises...I find it tough to believe that there weren't SOME movements which might have been helpful earlier on as well. I'm a big believer in physical therapy.

Certainly a sad day for you, however I'm hoping you can make it a little bittersweet by taking time to celebrate your memories of your father.

Take gentle care of yourself Val!


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    I'm sorry you're having emotional and physical pain - you're in my thoughts and prayers *hugs* Pat

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KLWALDON 4/1/2012 9:09AM

    I hate to hear of your pain. I am sure that is frustrating. Hang in there an as you said it could always be worse. You seem to have a good attitude. That will help a lot, I am sure! Just do whatever the dr says is ok. Hope you have fond memories of your dad on this day. God bless.

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Friday Words of Wisdom

Friday, March 16, 2012

I saw this and thought it was too cute not to share!

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GRAMMACATHY 3/17/2012 12:02PM

    Adorable. Thanks for sharing.

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DEE107 3/16/2012 11:49PM

    very cute

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WILLOW49 3/16/2012 12:56PM

    That's too cute!

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HIKETOHEIGHTS 3/16/2012 12:00PM

    Boy I could not have said that better! With the weather we are having our weekends are up in the air!

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MSLZZY 3/16/2012 11:58AM

    Cute! Thanks for sharing! HUGS!

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About to Give up?

Wednesday, March 07, 2012

I started the year with foot surgery in hopes that I could get back to the simple task of walking. I love to walk. I was just getting to the point where the doctor said I could start walking again and my sciatica started hurting again. It has been over three weeks of continuous pain. I have seen a chiropractor and after two visits he sent me for an MRI. I was in so much pain I had my family doctor look at the results and he called me in a prescription for pain and sent everything over to a Neurosurgeon. I have an appointment with them next week. Today I will return to the Chiropractor and see what he suggests. I hate the thought of physical therapy. I went for 5 straight months last year for the foot. I just want to get back to a point where I can move. I've gained all of the 50 pounds back that I lost my first year with SparkPeople.

Do I feel like giving up? Somedays I do...

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SASSYGIRL0801 3/12/2012 9:25PM

  Stay strong! You can do this! Don't give up and keep going, have you thought about swimming? it may be easier on your body then doing the more physical training and exercise out there! Good luck and keep positive!

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LADYPJAY 3/12/2012 7:32PM

    I am going to keep you and your healing in my prayers, if that is okay. emoticon

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    Oh, I so understand! I had ankle surgery TWICE and each time had to use a scooter for months! But please, please do not give up! You WILL get healthy! Right now, you just need help getting there. Keep the faith, my friend, and know that you are never alone! emoticon

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DEE107 3/7/2012 5:39PM

    Yes I know what you mean been there and done that and now back to where to start all over again hug

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BROADBRUSH 3/7/2012 3:30PM

    you are a trooper - all of this serious stuff - let's face it - getting older is not the greatest but what can we do about it.
i have had rheumatoid arthritis since a teenager- and that constant pain you mention is certainly familiar to me.
i have two canes - sometimes i need both, some days only one- and others - mostly in the summer months - i can get by without either.
take care of yourself, and take baby steps - hugs BB emoticon

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KLWALDON 3/7/2012 3:17PM

    I suppose that we all have those kinds of days where we feel like giving up. They are tough, huh? That has got to be difficult and frustrating having those setbacks. Do the best that you can and that is all you can expect. When the going gets tough, the tough get going! You can do it! Stay as positivie as possible!! I know sometimes that is hard :)

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BUFFYSMOM2 3/7/2012 2:20PM

    Hang in there, sparkfriend. This was sooo beautiful. You're truly on the right track. You'll get those pounds back off in time. First, you gotta get that health back on track (foot/track...get it? emoticon)
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GRAPEVINE60 3/7/2012 1:09PM

    I'm sorry you are going through a rough spot right now.......I hope things gets better soon, and that you are able to find some answers.

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DDOORN 3/7/2012 11:24AM

    Oh hey, the SPARK is always there for you! If nothing else, when your body keeps throwing all these monkey wrenches your way over which you have no control you STILL have control over your food choices!

Perhaps re-focusing on this might be the place to invest your energies now? I think our food choices have WAY more impact on our pounds than any physical activity we might pursue.

Keep working with your health care professionals, they WILL get to the bottom of this with your help!


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WILLOW49 3/7/2012 11:08AM

    I understand all too well how you feel. Some days I ask myself if it's all worth it. One thing I do know is that even though I may feel like it at times, I will NEVER, EVER, EVER give up!

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NYKIMMIE 3/7/2012 10:24AM

    I understand,trust me emoticon it has to get better

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