Thursday, November 18, 2010
First and Foremost I am proud of where I am today. I have made less progress than I had hoped to 9 months ago, but I have a much better overall outlook today about that progress. I am a determined person so when I set a goal I want to make sure that I make that goal. That determination may get the weight off, but it will not keep it off.
When I first started this journey I was at the end of a year where I had suffered from bronchitis 5 times. I was getting very scared that there was something severely wrong with my lungs. I couldn't take a walk without coughing up a lung. Today I was walking with my co-workers and I felt like I was walking too fast for them. I thought back to those days of barely being able to keep up with them, coughing as I went. It feels Fantastic to be in better health!
I have learned that I don't need to hurry up and lose weight. We all want that, but we need to get our minds around the fact that this is for Life, not just until you reach that goal weight. You will be so much better off if you make smaller changes that you can live with, not drastic ones that you won't stick with. Also, be patient with yourself. None of us are perfect and we need to forgive ourselves when we don't do everything perfect. I am learning to live the life I like and want while I make healthier choices doing it. This is what has slowed down my weight loss, but this is also what will help me keep off what I've lost.
The best thing I've learned in the last 9 months is that this is about making overall changes for my life, not about losing some weight. As I make these healthy changes I will lose weight and I will gain strength, I will get better results to blood tests and blood pressure measures. I will be sick less often and have more energy. I will be happier and healthier in body and more importantly in mind.
I was told by a co-worker today that I look so much healthier than when they first met me. To think I've aged a few years since then too.
Now I just need to work on my feelings about that Spark Wheel and why I feel bad when I get low numbers!