Friday, February 11, 2011
So I realized today that I miss feeling full. Not just "not hungry", but full. Is that weird? Like I finish a meal and I just don't feel the satisfaction of feeling full. I don't know how else to describe it. I'm not famished or anything, but I'm a little disappointed after meals these days.
I'm not sure how to remedy that.
I keep thinking that my body will get used to eating less and my stomach will "shrink" to "normal". But what is a normal sized stomach? How much volume can it hold? What makes you "feel" full anyway?
I make sure to add fiber and protein to my diet since those are supposed to help with the "full" feeling, but so far no luck.
It kind of makes me nervous - like I worry that I might just crash and burn and stuff my face to get that "full" feeling back one of these days. I've not normally been one to eat until I can't eat anymore (ok, I admit I do that at Thanksgiving, and Christmas breakfast too), but I normally felt comfortably full after meals. I also was 10 pounds heavier and I like the feeling that my body is giving me now. Right now that feeling is enough to keep me going. But I worry that it won't last.
I kind of feel like this is rambling, but it's in my head so I figured I'd just get it out.
The thing is, I haven't been craving things. I have barely even been eating the minimum for my calorie requirements. It's like I'm sort of afraid to eat more than the minimum. And that's probably not healthy either...
Friday, February 11, 2011
So apparently adding these Jillian Michaels videos to my workout significantly boosted my calorie burn for the week, and SP put this big RED message at the bottom of my fitness tracker about how I should have told them what calories I intended to burn since that would change my calorie intake goals, blah blah blah.
Well I didn't originally plan on the Jillian Michaels stuff. I just decided to try it this week, and didn't actually realize how much it was supposed to burn. Anyway, beyond that I've had at least 2 days this week where I came in under my 1275 calorie minimum. I guess I'm not planning well enough. I plan breakfast and lunch really well, maybe too well... and then dinner we typically eat whatever sounds good when we get off work. Sometimes it's leftovers that we cook over the weekends, sometimes just a PB&J Sandwich, etc. It's always at least 600 calories for dinner, which seems like a lot to me, but it's not been enough when my breakfast and lunch are both under 300 each. So I think I need to maybe fit more calories into my day. I just have to figure out how to do that in a healthy manner. I mean, yeah I could go to the snack machine and squeeze in another 300 calories that way, but I don't want to go about it like that. I think I need a bigger lunch - or a heartier lunch. This week's was a lot lower than usual. So that might be part of the problem. We made wheat pasta w/ veggies and light alfredo sauce, and it is pretty low on the calorie scale, so I think next week that is where I will focus. I'm also bringing yogurt to work for a snack, but don't always remember to eat it.
Anyhow, I'm hoping I haven't sabotaged myself too badly. Weigh-in is tomorrow, so I'm hoping for at least a 1-2 pound loss. We'll see.
Off to get ready for work. Fun. At least it's Friday.
Thursday, February 10, 2011
So I was up a lot last night again. 3am or so was my body's "wake-up" call, and I tossed/turned for 2 hours til my alarm went off. Got up and had a rocking stomach ache. :( Not sure what the cause might be, but I worked out anyhow. Might have been the wrong thing to do because now it's REALLY unhappy with me. So I'm going to shower and then see how I feel. Still planning to go to work. So hopefully it settles down.
Good news is I burned a ton of calories this morning - did Jillian's "cardio kickboxing" video (ass-kicker), and then walked the dogs. So if nothing else, I'm proud of myself for getting up and working out even if I wasn't feeling great.
Wednesday, February 09, 2011
So we got the first disc of the most recently released Glee season. Yay! Watching the first episode now. :)
And if I get it done fast enough, maybe another episode of Glee. Haha
Wednesday, February 09, 2011
So somehow I managed to stay asleep pretty much all night last night. I think I woke up once but not even enough to glance at the clock or do anything more than roll over and fall back asleep. I feel MUCH better today because of it.
Anyhow, this morning instead of yoga, I did one of the Jillian Michaels DVDs that I have - Shape Up Backside (from a set of 5 videos). Much harder than yoga, but I was in the mood for something a little bit more difficult. I just feel like I need a jumpstart so I don't plateau.
So after that workout, I took the dogs walking - took a new route today, which was a nice change too.
Not much else to report. Have my calories planned for breakfast/lunch. Not sure about dinner yet - depends on how late I have to work tonight. Yesterday I was under calories a little bit, but nothing too severe, so hopefully it won't hurt things too much.
Now to get ready for work and face another day. At least I didn't have the urge this morning to just call in sick. I definitely had that urge yesterday, and looking back maybe I should have just followed it. Oh well. Too late now.
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