Tuesday, February 15, 2011
So I had been having a few rotten days food-wise. But I'm back on track today. Been exercising like I should, even on the rotten food days, but I just wasn't feeling great because of the junk I ate.
Anyhow, I'm back to reality and working on tracking everything since that is really the only way I can stay honest.
And let me just say, Jillian makes my legs hurt!! My calves have been killing me since the video I did yesterday morning. I did yoga this morning in hopes of stretching them out, but no such luck. Still super sore. Hopefully tomorrow won't make it worse!
Monday, February 14, 2011
So I went out Saturday night with Tray for V-Day. Chilis, no regrets, eat what I want. But now I seem to be stuck on overdrive for food I shouldn't eat. Maybe that one night out was a bad idea....
Anyhow, I had ice cream tonight after dinner. Yeah I'm only 200 calories over, but I am still over. Which is still a bad thing. I did get up and work out this morning. So that's a bonus point. Didn't go to work today - had a big project for school and felt like I needed to stay here and clean the house. It's been making me crazy. So a day off work felt really good. Took a nice long nap this morning and then was productive the rest of the day.
Back to reality tomorrow though. Can't call in sick 2 days in a row. Such is life.
Guess I should get busy and finish up the last of my assignment so I can go to bed on time. Maybe I'll sleep tonight. I didn't sleep much last night, which was part of the reason I called in this morning. I'm so tired of not sleeping.
Saturday, February 12, 2011
Ok so maybe a lot frustrated. I worked out harder than ever, and lost half a pound. That's it. I won't meet my goal at that rate. But I know part of it is my fault. I've been low on calories, and I burned more than I was supposed to, so probably my body is fighting back. I have to find the balance, but I'm just not sure how to do that. I'm afraid to eat more... I don't want to lose the progress I've made, and I'm afraid if I increase what I'm eating, I will gain the weight back. I know I've been low on calories - typically right at the bottom end of my calorie goal, or just under it. Never severely under it (i.e. never more than 100 calories short), but maybe that is still an issue.
And I was supposed to burn 1080 calories this week, but I burned 1600+. It's not like it's double or anything, so would my body really be in mutiny over one week of change like that? In fact, I thought that shaking things up typically resulted in avoiding a plateau. Just don't know. :(
I'm debating what we're going to do for V-Day. I'd like to go out to eat, but I know I'd go WAY over calories if we did that. None of the places we go have food that fits in my diet. What I really want right now is the Santa Fe Chicken wrap (w/o the chicken or avacado) from Chiles. And the fries that go with it. Talk about going crazy with calories. The wrap alone is like 700 calories, then add the fries in and I've had like 2 days worth of calories in one meal. So I haven't agreed to go out yet. Maybe we'll just stay home and have soup?? *sigh*
Friday, February 11, 2011
So I realized today that I miss feeling full. Not just "not hungry", but full. Is that weird? Like I finish a meal and I just don't feel the satisfaction of feeling full. I don't know how else to describe it. I'm not famished or anything, but I'm a little disappointed after meals these days.
I'm not sure how to remedy that.
I keep thinking that my body will get used to eating less and my stomach will "shrink" to "normal". But what is a normal sized stomach? How much volume can it hold? What makes you "feel" full anyway?
I make sure to add fiber and protein to my diet since those are supposed to help with the "full" feeling, but so far no luck.
It kind of makes me nervous - like I worry that I might just crash and burn and stuff my face to get that "full" feeling back one of these days. I've not normally been one to eat until I can't eat anymore (ok, I admit I do that at Thanksgiving, and Christmas breakfast too), but I normally felt comfortably full after meals. I also was 10 pounds heavier and I like the feeling that my body is giving me now. Right now that feeling is enough to keep me going. But I worry that it won't last.
I kind of feel like this is rambling, but it's in my head so I figured I'd just get it out.
The thing is, I haven't been craving things. I have barely even been eating the minimum for my calorie requirements. It's like I'm sort of afraid to eat more than the minimum. And that's probably not healthy either...
Friday, February 11, 2011
So apparently adding these Jillian Michaels videos to my workout significantly boosted my calorie burn for the week, and SP put this big RED message at the bottom of my fitness tracker about how I should have told them what calories I intended to burn since that would change my calorie intake goals, blah blah blah.
Well I didn't originally plan on the Jillian Michaels stuff. I just decided to try it this week, and didn't actually realize how much it was supposed to burn. Anyway, beyond that I've had at least 2 days this week where I came in under my 1275 calorie minimum. I guess I'm not planning well enough. I plan breakfast and lunch really well, maybe too well... and then dinner we typically eat whatever sounds good when we get off work. Sometimes it's leftovers that we cook over the weekends, sometimes just a PB&J Sandwich, etc. It's always at least 600 calories for dinner, which seems like a lot to me, but it's not been enough when my breakfast and lunch are both under 300 each. So I think I need to maybe fit more calories into my day. I just have to figure out how to do that in a healthy manner. I mean, yeah I could go to the snack machine and squeeze in another 300 calories that way, but I don't want to go about it like that. I think I need a bigger lunch - or a heartier lunch. This week's was a lot lower than usual. So that might be part of the problem. We made wheat pasta w/ veggies and light alfredo sauce, and it is pretty low on the calorie scale, so I think next week that is where I will focus. I'm also bringing yogurt to work for a snack, but don't always remember to eat it.
Anyhow, I'm hoping I haven't sabotaged myself too badly. Weigh-in is tomorrow, so I'm hoping for at least a 1-2 pound loss. We'll see.
Off to get ready for work. Fun. At least it's Friday.
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