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Planning and Vacations

Friday, August 03, 2012

Going on vacation starting Saturday (on my birthday emoticon LOL), so I may not be able to log in, etc., every day I'm away (no internet in the timeshare room... have to trudge down to the lobby to connect, and for a few days or more I may stay at my uncle's and he has absolutely no internet). There goes my streaks! :-( Maybe I'll be lucky and find a way to connect for at least a few minutes every day. I hope I can!

I'm going to try to remember to take my scale and my measuring tape with me so I don't miss the 2 Mondays I'll be away. Would especially hate to miss the first measuring of the month! Also want to bring my hand blender and the makings for my shakes so most mornings I can have a shake. May either bring, or purchase in PA, bananas for the shakes and apples for snacks. I can still eat dinner out, and as long as I don't go too crazy, my eating should be okay.

Hopefully the weather will be nice emoticon and I can do a bunch of walking. And the timeshare (where I'll be from this Sat afternoon/evening through next Sat morning) does have an exercise room, so I really should try that out - especially if it's rainy. emoticon If I remember, I will see if my DVDs work in this computer (they should) - which means that I could take one or two exercise DVDs as a back up. I hope I don't get lazy and just not do anything. I will be walking a bunch on the 11th (unless it rains a lot that day) because my cousin ordered a ticket for me to join her family and some friends at the PA Renaissance Faire, and will do some walking if I see some parks and waterfalls with my husband during the week, but I would like to be much more active than I have been lately on vacations.

I am doing so well, and really don't want to blow it. I figure that if I plan as much as possible beforehand, I will have a better chance of success!

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KNEWMETODAY 10/29/2012 7:45AM

    I hope your vacation went well...and hope you're doing well. Are you achieving your goals? Believing in yourself? Taking advantage of the support and encouragement available on the site?

Kathy

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SPIRIT42013 8/3/2012 5:27PM

    Wow! President Obama needs someone like you! (just saying...) Great planning! Less margin for error. You really have motivation! Have a really great time!!
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NUTRON3 8/3/2012 9:06AM

    Have fun!

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Not the end of the world

Monday, July 23, 2012

Two days of being mostly out of the house and eating out. Didn't know I would be eating out, so I was not able to plan ahead. Last night we ate at my favorite place, too (LOVE their biscuits and their seafood). Each night I did remember to track what I'd eaten. I was really surprised - I actually was within my allowed limits - and even had to add some food at night yesterday! One thing I think that has contributed to this is that I now don't think "Well, tomorrow is another day." I say to myself, "Today is the beginning of tomorrow." And I remind myself of my mantra ("Don't trade what you want most, for what you want at the moment") which seems to help. Of course, at home I try to limit the temptation and not keep large quantities of things that tend to tempt me, and even try not to bring certain things into the house. But when I'm out of the house it is often harder to do. Most of the time I have been careful.

This weekend I wasn't quite as careful as I have been. BUT I did do some things like having about half the amount of biscuits I would normally have had. Didn't put any butter on them. I barely used any of the butter and sour cream provided for the baked potato. I only had half of the potato and half of the salad (with very, very little dressing). I took about half of the main course home, along with the half of potato, too. No dessert, either. Even the day before I chose a fish course - I'd been tempted by the Swedish Meatballs with Lingonberry sauce and mashed potatoes special that they had - and even pushed most of the crumb topping off of the fish. So I have to applaud myself for even the small things I did right!

I think I may have finally learned what's important. Forgiving oneself for any deviations and looking at eating as part of being human. Making small changes and improvements can add up. We can't be perfect all the time, but we can strive to do the best we can! Deviations don't have to mean it's the end of the world!

Oh - and I lost a pound and a half this week!

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MELODYDUSK 9/21/2012 2:13PM

    i found your personal history fascinating. you certainly seem to have an attitude of success.

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KNEWMETODAY 8/1/2012 8:05AM

    It's amazing to watch our thinking change across time. For me the big thing was to stop classifying food as "good" and "bad". Food is food--I make wise choices most of the time, but food is just food!!

Kathy

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2MUCHRUTHIE 7/24/2012 10:01PM

    I agree! emoticon

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SETAGOAL1 7/23/2012 8:32PM

    You have not given up on yourself. You now know you are the only one that can make it happen for you.

You have the power to succeed or fail.

You have chosen to succeed.

Few baby steps complete a long journey

Writing is progress!!!

Janet- emoticon

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CJJANISS 7/23/2012 2:14PM

    emoticon My favorite mantra is "Nothing tastes as good as being thin feels." Good luck...sounds like you're doing great! :)

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BLUE42DOWN 7/23/2012 2:03PM

    emoticon and emoticon

This is definitely how life goes. I had a similar thought to yours this weekend with my eating out (though I did go over, unlike you) - that in the past it would have been so much worse. Instead of reasonable portions and fully enjoying both the meal and the company, I'd have eaten as much as fast as I could because it was "special".

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THRIVE2DAY 7/23/2012 1:33PM

    emoticon. I needed to read this.

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I Will NOT Quit! - Sign & pass on this pledge, please!

Tuesday, July 03, 2012

Found this on another Spark Blog and it definitely is worth passing on!
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I Will NOT Quit!

Share and spread the Spark!


Today, I promise I will not quit.

I pledge that no matter, how many ups and downs I pass through, I will continue on my journey.

I pledge to make a NEW START today, and forgive myself for my past, and to stop being so critical of myself.

I pledge to take control of myself, to stop making excuses, and stop blaming other people or situations.

I pledge to treat myself as I would my best friend, because that is who I am.

I pledge to stay in the race and to be a WINNER!


Signed Ilene Rachel (RaDazzle) - I WILL NOT GIVE UP - especially on remembering that I am worth it! - Tuesday, July 3, 2012 (LI, New York)

signed MELROSE13 - Wednesday July 4, 2012 (Australia)

signed cyndi nana56 july 3 tues i will not quit

signed: Leisa (Sunflowergal40)
04/26/12

Signed: Chris (chriskenandkids)
04/26/12

Signed: Linda (scoutmom715)
04/27/12

Signed: Nancy (tedybear2838)

(from Linda S. Jayne (Geminisue)

Signed: Vicki aka VICKI-B--56


Signed; Pixie (Pixie-Licious)

Signed: Gloria (GloriaB73)

signed Fran

Signed Sarah (Millie 5522)

Signed Shelby (theshelbster)

Signed Beckie (BIRKIE528)

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Signed by Wallahalla on Friday, June 29, 2012

Signed by Karen (MAMAWALMART) on June 29,2012

Signed by Sibille (musolf6) Friday June 29,2012

Signed Shirley (Lookingup2012) Friday, June 29, 2012 who needs to do this because she quit SP three times in 3 years.

Signed Susan (catladyx8) Friday June 29, 2012

Signed John (Johntj1) Saturday June 30, 2012

Signed Deb (jewelle217) Saturday, June 30, 2012

Signed Kathy (Kalantha) Saturday, June 30, 2012

Signed Lynn (BearGoddess) Saturday, June 30, 2012

signed: Steven (SBARNEY5) Saturday, June 30, 2012 I will not let my health keep me from walking at least 20 -30 minutes a day (.5 -.75 miles)

Signed Cheryl (cjack66) Saturday, June 30, 2012

Signed Lori (sassyljb) Sunday, July 1, 2012 I am worth IT!

Signed Kate (kate3039) Wednesday , July 4, 2012

Signed by Melody (Melrose13) Wednesday July 4th

Will you blog and post the Never Quit Pledge, today/soon?
Let's spread it through Sparks, so all can have the choice to commit!

  


Hungers

Monday, May 28, 2012

In addition to reading and working on "The Spark," I've also started Renee Stephens' "Full-Filled." I haven't read much, but it has already started me thinking. Especially the following (truncated, and any all caps mine) from the Introduction:

"Despite having lost more than 30 lbs through OA, I'd continued to be a freak around food because I'd never dealt with MY REAL HUNTER -- WHICH WAS TO BE ACCEPTED AND LOVED FOR WHO I WAS.... I'd used food to stuff down feelings of inadequacy....afraid that...I'd be seen for who I really was -- a woman not thin enough, fit enough, smart enough, pretty enough. A woman not worthy of being loved!"

This passage really resonates with me. It seems I'm always battling my hunger, always getting extremely upset when someone -- especially someone who supposedly "should" love and accept me -- does or says something that I interpret as the person not accepting who I am. I think the majority of problems I've had in my marriage and family have to do with this -- my feeling unaccepted or that the person doesn't really know "me." I think I've been honest and open about who I am and what I expect or am capable of doing, and suddenly -- wham -- my loved one does something that "proves" to me that s/he doesn't accept or understand me at all. Those are definitely times when I turn to food to lessen my emotional pain.

Isn't it strange how, even when my outer reaction to a person's behavior is to express my anger, including at times by yelling at the person, I wind up punishing MYSELF by overeating! It's really more like I am angry at MYSELF for either not living up to the other person's idea of who I am or who I should be, or angry that I'VE failed to get through to the person to show who I am. Everything is MY fault because I'm inately "inadequate." But, in truth, no one is born inadequate (even the mentally and physically challenged are not inadequate - they just have limitations put upon them... not their fault). So why do I expect more of myself than of others? Why do I blame myself for what they perceive (or worse, think they think)? I need to work on accepting my humanness. My imperfections, whether inborn or learned (for I'm sure some of this attitude is picked up from how I was treated when younger), do NOT make me bad or incapable of succeeding. The biggest limitations are in my head! It's MY ATTITUDE and my resulting actions that determine the course of my life!!!

There is a video circulating on the internet of a man who was in an accident (or hurt in the war - I can't remember) and was told that he would never walk unassisted again. It shows a time progression of his attempts to prove them wrong. In the end it shows him doing martial arts! Now THAT'S the RIGHT attitude!!!

  
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SPIRIT42013 6/16/2012 12:47AM

    Amen, sister!

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RADAZZLE 5/28/2012 11:54PM

    @ BLUE42DOWN - It seems that I often find things that are said elsewhere, but each time it's approached either differently or just in someone else's terms. Most motivational things are found in many different motivational works, just phrased differently. It's how it strikes us at the moment that makes a real difference. Whether the thought was clearer or it just suddenly broke through a mind barrier, it can make a difference in a person's life!

Geneen Roth has at least one book that addresses similar ideas ("Breaking Free From Emotional Eating") I'm sure. Even "The Spark" kind of touches on the idea. I'm sure it will be found again and again. It's a "small world" of ideas! emoticon

Comment edited on: 5/28/2012 11:58:37 PM

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CORTNEY-LEE 5/28/2012 11:29PM

    thank you very much for sharing with us.

I know that I have struggled with many of these same issues.



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KMIRANDA2000 5/28/2012 8:43AM

    Thank you for your very honest viewpoint. I suffer from not feeling accepted and continue to try to find something to help the way I feel about myself..a woman not thin enough, fit enough, smart enough, pretty enough. A woman not worthy of being loved.

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BLUE42DOWN 5/28/2012 2:57AM

    Very interesting. One of the free books I picked up on my Kindle Fire by a former binger had a very similar theme - that the hunger is not really for the food, that the needs are for other things that aren't being provide or attained.

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I Am's and I Can's - 1

Monday, May 21, 2012

- I am friendly
- I am capable
- I am hopeful
- I am helpful
- I am loving
- I am thoughtful
- I am sensitive
- I am someone who tries to do the right thing
- I am losing weight
- I am exercising more
- I am becoming more and more optimistic
- I am becoming more sociable
- I am drinking more water
- I am consistently reading motivational things
- I am able to do things I never thought I could do

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- I can succeed
- I can be happy
- I can lose the weight I need to lose
- I can be mentally and physically healthy
- I can make new friends
- I can enjoy exercising regularly
- I can be confident
- I can keep my motivation up
- I can survive and overcome problems
- I can consistently take medications and supplements I need
- I can create beautiful beaded jewelry
- I can overcome my phone-call-making phobia
- I can find new things to do to make my life more interesting
- I can cook more often (healthy meals)
- I can plan what I will cook and eat

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Now... to turn the Can's into I Am's!

  
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BLUE42DOWN 5/22/2012 5:18PM

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You ARE and you WILL!

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BARBARASDIET 5/21/2012 3:55PM

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