Tuesday, April 12, 2011
You have to believe.
YOU HAVE TO....
Spent much of my life seeing the glass half empty instead of half full. I think that maybe, just maybe, I can make it to the other side. We all know that it is a much better place to be. It does mean accepting that not all things will be perfect, but good can be mighty fine. It also does not mean being in denial. You must be able to still see the flaws, to compensate for them..... But why focus and obsess on the negatives, when there are so many positives to see and recharge your batteries from.... (Can one be self sparking?)
If I believe I can, is that enough?
Seems like so many of us look to others to know what to believe and what is right. I want that warm and toasty feeling deep down that comes from the conviction (or is that faith) that things are right as they should be.
Can I find the heart, the soul and the commitment to get there?
I believe I can, even if no one else is there watching or telling me what to do.
"Real integrity is doing the right thing, knowing that nobody's going to know whether you did it or not." ~ Oprah Winfrey
Sunday, March 27, 2011
I have been an infrequent visitor to SparkPeople these last several weeks.
OH how I have missed you all!!!!!
Not having easy Internet access and major Family priorities means that I have not been able to keep up so well with my Food & Exercise Trackers. Ooh - don't know about you but that keeps me honest (and gives me the chance to be successful in many ways on a day to day basis even as other things around me implode).
Thank you my Spark friends for your support, your positives and listening to me vent. I had made some comments, messages, and even a couple of Blogs about some of my family issues of late. The stress and injustice of things really has affected me - it came out in my communications. Sorry to those of you that I dumped on. I went back and deleted the blogs/comments/messages I could find because after some reflection, this did not really seem like the right place to dump all that nuclear waste built up from my family problems. Not really sure where to turn but I am now really trying to bike out my issues. It is helping.
There will be always be those in the world that take care of themselves at the expense and harm of others. They lie/manipulate/take from others to get what they think they need. Soulless, without a conscious, they use and feed off the rest of us. I believe in the animal kingdom they are called parasites.
It is hard not to lower yourself into the gutter to respond at their level. Doing the right thing, being honest and not giving up make me the better person. This is what I will continue to strive for. Also knowing that being nice/civil is a choice, but it does not make me weak. I CAN and Will continue to stand up for those that I love.
So onto the positives.... please join me!
Take the small victories (eating right, exercising regularly) along with life's joys - a beautiful day, a fun game of dominos with those that you feel safe with, laughter,
a newly decluttered room (gives you that wonderful Zen feeling) and the knowing that there is good still out there (even though it make seem out of reach at the moment.)
The light of the truth and goodness will shine eventually into all the dark corners.
Deep down I know that the truth will set us free!
Monday, February 28, 2011
Go ahead..... put the hating on me....I can take it.
Okay, maybe not!
I do, however, promise to not hate you because you are or want to be a runner.
I support your wish/desire/obsession to pound the pavement. It burns tons of calories, you have lots of races to enter/milestones to hit (1K to 5K to miles and miles and then the Ironman????), it keeps you healthy and most important of all, it makes you feel GOOD! That last little bit I wish for you all!
I have been reading lots of Spark Pages and blogs. Trying to get motivated, inspired and learn from all your successes (and stumbles). So many people here run. However, I will never be one of you...... a Runner.
I love to walk. I love to hike. Strolling, sauntering, meandering, hell, even a skip or two are all good. But please don't make me run. My knees go ways that the great creator never really planned on and it hurts. No pain, no gain, you say? Ah....no thanks.... I plan on being able to walk until the end....sorry!
Thus, I am resigned to the fact that I will forever be looking in from the outside of your club. Looking in with some longing, maybe somewhat green tinged with envy because I don't like being on the outside. So I must find the club/the people/the passion to get my results another way. An alternative to the main stream.
What do you think?
Let the non runners of the world unite!
Saturday, February 26, 2011
All my life I can remember thinking about what yummy thing I was going to eat next. Seems like one of the best ways to reward myself was with food. I think about food alot. (ALOT!) It also seems like most of my family gatherings in the past and now focus on going out to eat or fun gatherings with all your favorites within reach (calling to you even....LOL).
I wonder how that habit got set? Even as a kid.... I remember thinking:
1) What was the treat that was going to be in the lunch box? There was always going to be a frozen sandwich thawing...ick, a piece of fruit - good, and a treat (potato chips, fritos, etc - the highlight of lunch).
2) What could I have as a snack when I got home?.
3) My girl friends and I pooling our funds for treats. It was worth the walk/bike to the store and blowing your allowance/baby sitting money. You know that it was ALWAYS for junk food and/or candy.
How do you retrain yourself to NOT think in terms of food rewards?
One of the primary reasons I exercise is so that I can eat more (or have something that I really want but would totally sabotage my daily calorie allowance). The really sad thing is that it does seem to work for me. Don't have any idea if that is good or bad.
Even now as I am typing this...in the back of my mind thoughts are racing around....something like...
It's 1:30ish now....that gives me about 5 hours to fit in a walk/bike/trip to the gym so that I can have that extra serving of delish pasta I made last night for dinner.......
So it goes....
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