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Why am I on this journey to losing weight?

Monday, January 23, 2012

I have spent my entire life being a people pleaser. I did everything I could to make sure everyone around me is happy...everyone except myself. As I felt that I didn't do enough to make others happy, or it wasn't appreciated, I would get depressed, and would eat. I just didn't care about myself. I didn't like the person who I was, and therefore it reflected off of me. I don't feel beautiful, and I want to make sure that I SEE MYSELF as beautiful. I understand that beauty isn't just about being thin, but I want to see myself as healthy. I don't think beautiful is sitting on the couch, stuffing chips ahoy in your mouth crying over how you are single when you don't put yourself out there as a confident person. I've noticed just in the past few weeks that I've felt more confident in myself, and am working on ME, that I'm getting a positive response just in how people talk to me. I'm such a social person, so I need to put that confidence in my social interactions. I'm not asking to be a size 0, I know with my bone structure, that that is probably not a possibility, but I don't want to be. I just want to get down to a size where I am not restricted to shopping at Lane Bryant or Torrid because I simply can't find stylish clothes in my size. I'm 26, I want to be down to a reasonable weight by the time I turn 30. I know that if I keep my mind to it, I can definitely lose it before then, I just have to stay focused. And I have to also learn how to tell others NO. Its not all about them, this life is about me too.

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MRSLYRIK 1/25/2012 9:07PM

    Sounds like you have the right attitude. It's going to take some time to put it into motion as with the weight loss you have these feelings that have occured over a long period of time.....they aren't going to go away overnight....but you are doing things to make yourself see yourself in a different light and with that so will other people.....your shine will shine on others and they will get it. The more you require more of other people, the more they will do the same.

Keep your head up chica!

I also commented on your post in the Cuties support post.

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INKYCAT 1/23/2012 2:52PM

    I see a lot of confidence in your smile and your style. Go You! Keep it up!

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CHOOSE2BELIEVE 1/23/2012 1:10PM

    AWESOME! Your right this is about YOU! No matter what you are BEAUTIFUL! I wouldn't say I'm a people pleaser I could care less MOST of the time what others think...but I do find myself trying to make others happy...make sense?
I know your gonna do this! Your mind is set! Keep up the great attitude and hard work!!

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Motivation to start out the New Year RIGHT!!

Sunday, January 01, 2012

I am almost embarrassed to show this picture, but at the same time, I guess this is what everyone is looking at all the time. I was looking through my pictures from last night's New Years Eve party and I came across this photo that someone took of me. I would be lying if I said that I didn't cry when I saw this picture. I have just been too out of control and my body shows it here. I will push through and lose this weight! I WILL! I will NOT have any pictures like this ANYMORE! My legs look absolutely disgusting and just makes me want to cry. But sitting here cryin about it is not going to get the weight off my legs.

Time to make a healthier life for myself in 2012. STARTING NOW!

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RACHELPITCHU 1/2/2012 8:23PM

    Thanks, I do love that dress, unfortunately I forgot about the camera until halfway thru the night! So a lot of them are either shoulder up shots or sitting down :-( As much as I love that dress, I'm hoping not to fit into soon!! haha

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    I have no doubt that you can do this, and for the record while you are right not a super flatering angle, that is a DARN cute dress and I bet if you there was another picture of you, say standing up, you would be rocking it! Happy New Year!

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A New Year, A New Me!

Tuesday, December 27, 2011

As I look through my blogs, I keep seeing 'I'm back on track, I'm back on track.' But clearly I was not focused. I've had a lot of ups and downs the last few months. I started my doctoral program in August and excelled. I received a 4.0 GPA for the semester, but I also lacked on my weight loss progress. When I started September I had lost over 35 lbs. I have now gained 10 lbs back and am looking to get rid of that PLUS more. I lost the ability to work out for awhile because I decided to take a fitness bootcamp class and got hurt the first day. Jammed my vertebrae and was instructed by my physical therapist NOT to work out. I did what I could by walking, but the stress of being hurt and sick drove me to start snacking on all my favorite foods again. But 2012, I wanna see a difference in myself, and I wanna get rid of this extra weight!!! And I want to finish a Biggest Loser Challenge, so I am going to! I am going to follow this season's biggest loser as well as doing my challenge on my 300+ team, and hope to see results!! And I'm hoping to maybe find someone who wants to do this journey along with me via text or email, i'm ready to commit to 2012!!!

Happy New Year All!! emoticon emoticon

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BOBCATGIRL76 12/27/2011 11:26PM

    I'm in a Master's Program and hoping to be able to recommit this year as well! Good luck! I added you as a friend. Good luck!

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A return

Wednesday, November 02, 2011

I am back. After weighing myself on the scale and seeing that I gained 10 lbs, and am back over 300 lbs, I decided NO MORE. I let school and emotional issues get in the way of my ultimate goal. I need to find time for ME. And that is what I am doing. My friend and I signed up for a 1 month bootcamp class to get us motivated and back in the game, and we start today! I am super pumped! My partner is taking me to Vegas in March and want to look damn good! So here's to me losing this weight!! emoticon

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RICHILA 11/18/2011 9:17AM

    emoticon Spark On! We Got This!

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AIMEESINGS 11/3/2011 6:11AM

    YOU CAN DO I!!!! welcome back !

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LILMANN 11/2/2011 5:39PM

    It's as if I wrote this myself. I let my stress and emotions get the better of me and took a few steps back with my lifestyle change. I realized when I saw that 3-- again, I had to refocus.

Best of luck with the new commitment and excitement! And remember - what happens in Vegas stays in Vegas ;)

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GREGSLUVBUNNY13 11/2/2011 4:42PM

    That's right! Find your ME time!!

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Couch to 5k -- Day 1

Monday, August 08, 2011

I've been trying to find a way to move myself into running/jogging. I've never been able to do it for more than 15 seconds before I stop and start panting. I found from another Sparkie that there was a Couch to 5k program on the iPhone. I decided to try it out. So today was Day 1. I started off on the wrong foot by NOT stretching before I left for my warmup. I was afraid I might tire very fast because of it. Well, the warmup came and went and I was ready to start. The first 3 rounds of jogging for a minute went very smoothly. Then the rest of them I had to just keep telling myself that I could do it and that I am so proud of myself for trying and so many people are rooting for me to succeed. I got to a point where I was like, "I don't know if I have another 1 minute jog left in me.' And then the voice on the program said 'start the cooldown.' OMG, I was sooo excited! I did it! I had made it through without giving up!! I was sooo happy! Walked that route BACK to my apt, so I got double the workout lol. I did come home and do LOTS of stretching lol. I am so ready to do this again on Wednesday!

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PURPLESPARK89 10/25/2011 12:37AM

    Congrats! what a great story! This is reassuring to hear, I have the app on my ipod but have yet to try it yet... fear?.. fear of pain? Haha, not sure! Keep up the great work I love your positive attitude :)

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    I did the first day of the C25K also but it was like a month ago. I remember that the first few runs were great then the last couple were awful feeling but I made it through also. I'm going to get back on the program though! :)

Keep up the great work and don't give up!

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FAITH__IN__ME 10/24/2011 8:34PM

    Thats fantastic. I started out the same way. I can now run 10 minutes straight. You'll get there, do not give up. :)

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    Good for you! Breaking into the world of running is difficult but once you're there it can be quite fabulous too:)

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FAITH__IN__ME 8/8/2011 3:56PM

    That is so fantastic. My friend does this program and my mom does too. She did her first 5k and was so accomplished. I am doing something like that here on SP. They have a virtual 5k and a 5 week training program.

This is fantastic, dont give up!!!!! :)

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SKYRUNHER 8/8/2011 3:19PM


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MARISSA741 8/8/2011 2:55PM

  Good for you! I could barely run for a few minutes this June, and now I can run for 2 miles before I have to stop. So this kind of program does work.

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