Sunday, January 26, 2014
I was just checking my email and got a letter that I wrote to myself a year ago. It was interesting, but at the same time depressing. I'll copy/paste it here:
OK so I am taking part in a BLC challenge on Sparkpeople.com and the theme this week is Back to the Future. So I am working really hard on my weight (currently 335#). I really hope that when I get this letter in a year, I'm in a much better place! Right now I am puffing after just a few minutes of cardio. I did a little strength training and am so sore I can hardly walk. I'm really having a hard time staying in calorie range and drinking my water, but am getting better at it.
I also am about to start my second cycle of clomid in a couple weeks. I really hope that by the time this letter arrives, so will a baby! If not, I would like to be down 100, so around 235#. Am I moving around better? Better stamina when I exercise? Eating healthier? Is the pain in my left knee and both feet better?
Anyway, FutureMe, I hope I made some progress this year!"
SO.... yeah. I am currently 334#... down a whole whopping pound from this time last year. My feet and knee still bother me (although some times are better than others). Still having issues with staying in range and drinking my water. I still puff through workouts that shouldn't be that hard. And obviously, I still don't have a baby, and currently can't afford any more fertility treatments. So that is on hold... just praying for a miracle to happen in the meanwhile.
BUT.... do you know what??? I AM STILL HERE. I AM STILL TRYING. I AM NOT GIVING UP. Here's to making better progress this year!!