Friday, September 23, 2011
Mount Kinabalu is a prominent moutain on the island of Boreneo, located in East Malaysia.
My quilt ~ Kinabalu is like the Malaysian mountain for which it's named, this quilt has an unmistakable richness of color and form.
I often refer to the similarities between quilting & weight-loss. Just like in weight-loss, us quilters have tools ~ a mat to lay our fabrics on, a ruler to measure our strips and a cutting tool to obtain the desired widths.
When I started this quilt pattern, I broke it down into smaller - more attainable steps. I cut the center squares and strips one and two, then stitched them together. Each day I would tackle a few more strips until I completed thirty-six Log Cabin blocks.
One of the magical touches of this quilt are the fussy cut triangles.
These triangles are cut from a 'signature border print' designed by Jinny Beyer. They really add an unexpected touch to that classic simple block.
Some days I was more anxious to see results and I pushed myself a bit more than the day before. This is so true, even with my healthy journey ~ the more effort I put forth, the better the results I obtain each week.
One morning, I started my day out on a positive note ~ I took the plunge and whacked four corners, attached my triangles and then stitched the center blocks together. It's like those light-bulb moments we have...when we realize with a bit of effort, we CAN accomplish and be surprised by the outcome.
While some days....it's hard to stay focused on the task at hand. I make some progress towards the desired results.
I remember reading on someone else's Spark page ~ there is no TRY in this journey, either to DO or you DONT. This really hit home with me and is helping me stay focused with both my healthy journey and in creating quilts.
Here's a preview of border #one....
As for the rest of the quilt....you will have to be patient, the best is yet to come.....
Monday, August 22, 2011
I'm having many food frustrations of late....
Since I'm high-risk for Osteoporosis - I get yearly exams for bone density. The nurses always emphasize that the foods that are good for bone health are dairy products and your dark leafy greens.
Dairy products have slowly gone by the wayside, as I have gotten older I've become intolerant to these products.
The Nutritionist has a huge list of foods to help me on this healthy journey, like: dark leafy greens (spinach, swiss chard, kale, collard greens, turnip greens, parsley, romaine lettuce), broccoli, cauliflower, green peas, carrots, etc.
Then we interject Lymphedema ~ an incurable disease. I have problems getting rid of the protein enriched fluid in my legs. It can be managed, but lately it's more "out of control" than it is managed. I belong to a Lymphedema Support group and posed the question about what is healthy for us "Lymphers". A low carb, high protein and low salt diet is best.
I was surprised to find out they thought Chicken was not the best choice and that tomatoes could cause inflammation. Of course, the Omega-3's topped the list with Salmon, mackeral and tuna. Once again it was suggested your dark leafy greens, broccoli, cauliflower, blueberries, blackberries, pineapple, cherries, brown rice, barley, bulgar, Brazil nuts and a few others that I can't remember. LOL
Then to really screw things up ~ because I've had past complications with blood clots, I will always be on Coumadin (an anti-coagulant medication). And the foods that you should avoid..........you guessed it, dark leafy greens, broccoli, cauliflower, avocado, kiwi, grapes, green peas, carrots, cranberries, etc. All those healthy foods that I have once again learned to love & appreciate.
I'm beginning to question everything that comes out of the mouths of the medical professionals. And after they remove all the foods that are high in Vitamin K...what's left over? Fish & rice??? Ohhhh.....yummy.........NOT!!
So, we Eat healthy, we exercise...And still none of us will make it out alive...........LOL
Monday, July 04, 2011
I AM AN EMOTIONAL OVER-EATER!!
Trust me, this is NOT just about the negativity in life. It's also about celebrating the good things that life throws your way.
Think about this....
How many 'work meetings' have you attended where they did NOT provide food or drink?
How often do you gather with friends or family and your time together is NOT centered around "what shall we eat"?
My negative emotional eating blocked my pain, sadness, abuse, discomfort, boredom, loneliness and insulting comments.
But I also dealt with positive emotions, like: celebrating a raise, getting a promotion, starting a new job, having another birthday, reaching a milestone, the sun shined, the wind blew, I received a compliment....
I think you get the point I'm trying to make ~ I ate and I didn't know how to stop!!
While home-bound this past winter, my best friend was bringing me groceries. He never questioned what was on my list, until that one day when he noticed the bag of cereal I had ordered from the previous week had been consumed.
He commented, "that bag had 15 servings and it's gone?"
I replied, "you've known me for over 30 years and you never knew that I was an emotional over-eater?"
OMG ~ what did I just declare? Not only had I acknowledged my problem, but I said it OUT LOUD???
It truly was a baby step forward onto my healthy journey. I recognized my fault, acknowledged it and then shouted it from the roof-top!!
Let the healing begin....
At that moment I realized I didn't have the temptations involved with grocery shopping ~ you know those little tidbits that always manage to jump into your cart, but are never on your shopping list.
I seized the opportunity and the next list did NOT contain: crackers, pizza, or sugar-coated cereal. Gradually the list grew to include: fresh fruit, fresh veggies, and healthy meat like chicken and fish.
On one delivery he even mentioned "how proud he was of me" and I didn't automatically shove food in my mouth. I just blushed and said, "Thank you!"
FEELING EMOTIONS ~ what a new concept!!!
I have no tricks up my sleeve or any magical tips in over-coming this emotional side of eating. There are many times that I reach for food ~ especially when I experience mindless eating.
A big part of my success ~ I don't set myself up for failure. I don't have the temptations that I know I cannot resist. If I'm going to shove food in, to comfort an emotion, my choices are apples, pears, nectarines, cantaloupe, carrots, green beans, pea pods, fish or chicken.
I still get bored, am lonely, am happy and will always be challenged with mobility issues. But I'm also seeking other ways of dealing with those emotions ~ like volunteering my time.
Genealogy and quilting are a BIG part of my life! Through quilting, I'm providing quilts for children with cancer and newborns in need.
With my genealogy, I've been volunteering my time with Familysearch.org in providing new resources ~ the current project: 1940 Federal Census - will be available in 2012.
I will often help others with their family trees ~ I just LOVE the hunt & search!!
Now I sometimes get so wrapped up in an activity that I forget to eat ~ too bad THAT scenario didn't happen more in my lifetime!! LOL
I'm not certain I will ever be cured from emotional eating.
But each time I can "fill the need" with another activity, the hurdle becomes less challenging and I look forward to the day when it is just a bump in the road...
Saturday, July 02, 2011
There is a secret buried deep within the crevices of my being. Many years ago, I built a sheltering wall around me. Food was my "tool of comfort" and any time I experienced negativity, frustration, rejection, abuse or sadness ~ I slipped deeper and further beneath another layer.
Years passed by and those "walls of protection" were also keeping me from the things I desired the most.
The year that my best girl-friend and grandmother died, was when I slipped into deep depression. I didn't really care if I lived or died...life moved on around me at lightening speed and I stood still and motionless.
My doctor enrolled me into group therapy and for 10 months I hid in the shadows, not really contributing to the group. Then one night, a young man shared how he had just lost his best friend. With tears streaming down my face, I stood up, crossed the room and put my arms around him ~ hugging him as he wept on my shoulder.
It was a turning point, I slowly began to break down that sturdy fort I had built around me. In talking about my past, I was slowly starting to find that woman buried deep within.
Thirty years have passed by and that woman hasn't fully emerged to the surface. But I'm gradually starting to see the light of day break through the crevices of my armor.
Many months have gone by since joining Spark People. But one of the biggest accomplishments I've made on this journey was admitting that I am an emotional over-eater!
It's another baby step forward, towards my healing process as I have started to FEEL my emotions, instead of eating through them.
While challenging myself to improve my life, I'm learning to appreciate, trust and use my intuition. I am heading down the path of my healthy journey ~ one hurdle at a time.
"And out of the gentle wrapping of that which lived within the cocoon, came the very magnificence of the butterfly. The transformation was slow, sometimes filled with painstaking moments. But the growth, the beauty and the glory of the shedding of that which bound her tight was worth the one moment...when she burst forth into the world." ~Cougar Wisdom
Thursday, May 12, 2011
Tuesday afternoon, when the anticipation of pre-surgery jitters hit....I called a couple friends. I actually FELT my emtions. This was a HUGE step for me....instead of comforthing myself with food, I reached out and talked about my feelings. I kept busy, trying to keep my day as normal as possible.
When I walked into the hospital Wednesday ~ I had a good nights rest and felt confident it would be a "good day". Another big first....my anxiety was at it's lowest.
From the time they rolled me into the operating room ~ till I was returned to my room, less than 30 minutes had passed. It was by far one of the easiest surgery I have ever experienced.
I was given a small dose of Valium to "take the edge" off, yet I was awake through the whole procedure. My doctor was by my side talking to me and telling me the whole procedure, as she was preforming it. Her voice was very soothing and quite comforting.
This morning, I headed into the doctor's office to have the pressures in my eyes checked. The technician also checked my vision. That old fuzzy 'big E' of yesterday, is now very sharp and clear. After only 20 hours of surgery, my vision is 20/25 and should continue to improve (as my eye is still dialated).
I always thought my left eye saw fairly well, until I woke this morning and was sitting at the kitchen table. I have bird feeders just outside my window, last week my birds were just flashes of brilliant colors and today I can describe them in detail.
I was anxious to talk to my doctor. I told her what an awsome job she has! Not only does she have the knowledge of being a doctor, she also possesses the ability as a surgeon to restore someone's eyesight. What a thrill that must be when you have results, as positive as my own!!
This was truly another positive step forward in life's journey.....
I can see clearly now, the rain is gone...
I can see all obstacles in my way.....
Gone are the dark clouds that had me blind...
It's gonna be a bright, bright sun shiney day!!!
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