Saturday, June 30, 2007
Haven't written in awhile but it's been a really rough week at work. Been feeling rather depressed. I just feel like I'm so trapped where I work. I did have a conversation with my boss on Thursday and told him that I want to go back to the job I was doing before this. Talked to some people from my old department, but it's really no guarantee that I can go back. I'm afraid they won't want me to since I left them in March. I'm looking outside the company I work for, but there is really nothing of interest right now. Not wanting to go backwards, but sometimes I'm just so tempted to leave this company and go work for like Gap or something, you know? I just don't think a job should make you feel like jumping off a roof! So even though I felt better about telling them, now it's like they are expecting me to leave? And what happens if I can't get my "old" job back? I have no idea. It's stressing me out right now. I have to have a job because we need the money and we are in the midst of paying debt off. Can't afford things on my husband's salary. Wish he wouldn't be so lazy too- why can't he try to get something that pays more? They always pay men more than women and I just feel like I'm always trying to get more and a better job and he just continues on his lazy way at the same job for 8 or 9 years. Do you know he hasn't had a raise in almost 4 years? How ridiculous is that?? And it's taken me 4 years to get to where I am in pay and I still haven't reached his level. So I'm just venting because I feel so frustrated! I've been somewhat depressed about this and haven't even been reaching my calorie levels. I guess it's better than over eating, but still not healthy.