So today we had this big meeting with our whole department and we had a mexican lunch. I was really good with my portions! I had one tortilla with reasonable amounts of everything. I was so proud of myself! I really wanted to eat more, especially when people were going to go eat seconds, but I refrained. Yay me!
I am a member of the 1 Day Challenge group. Each day there is a challenge and it's great! Tomorrow's challenge is to write in my blog, so I'll do it a little early :) Well this is now week 2 of trying to follow my eating schedule and I haven't been doing very well lately! I got caught up in the birthday celebration thing and various people from work wanting to take me to lunch. I try super hard to find things not fried and that may be good for me but the calories are what are killing me. I continue to work out - I've gotten this under my good habit belt, and do it 5-6 times a week for about 30 minutes or more after work. So I know that if I keep at the food thing, I can get it - sooner or later!
I think, right now, the most important thing for me, is to remind myself that I can't be perfect. That if I slip, I can pick myself up and try again. I get so frustrated with myself real easily and I've been rather down because I haven't really lost anything- well what i lost has been gained again. I really need to stay focused and reward myself for going the distance. I think what is really going to matter this time is that my husband is being supportive. He's understanding that I need to eat different foods and joins in at dinner. I'm actually enjoying making great food with fruits and veggies to compliment.
So I noticed that even though I've been a little emotional and moody this TOM, I really don't feel bloated and nasty like I normally do. I did take myself off of the Nuvaring, which my cardiologist said was good - he doesn't want me on any hormones at all. They can raise your blood pressure and perhaps it was doing that. I haven't had as many headaches as I did when I was on it. No cramping or anything- exercise can work wonders! And eating right too. I'm on week 2 of eating better. Still trying to get in the habit of choosing the right foods and portions, so have to follow the eating plan because I think I'll slip if I don't. My problem is making the right choices when I go out to eat. Seems like so many restaurants don't have healthy foods to choose. Even salads can have so much loaded on them. And now that I'm noticing the amounts of food which are good, it almost makes me sick to see the amounts that restaurants serve. I look like I'm eating like a bird, but I'm eating what we should be. I think I started eating so much more because my husband does, but he's capable of doing that! But still afraid when I weigh myself on Tuesday that I won't have lost anything. Still on this plateau and don't know what to do. We'll see what happens!
of my 20's. I can't believe it. So it's not that it's really depressing. I realize I'm entering a new phase of life. It's just that I think about what have I really accomplished? I'm trying to sustain my marriage, and I love four furbabies that I keep healthy and happy. I've traveled to various places that I never thought I'd visit- Hawaii, Jamaica, Costa Rica. I've met new friends and lost others. I've learned life lessons through various individuals and circumstances. I've climbed a few rungs of the corporate ladder, although I sometimes feel like it takes so long to get where you really want to be. But I'm proud of what I've learned and how I've taught myself things I never thought I would. Sometimes I get down on myself because I never did anything with my college degree and I wonder what should I be doing in this life to make me truly happy. Is this the next step of my journey? To figure that out and make it happen? I hope that I can continue to learn and make something of myself. That I can continue to dream and hope and accomplish what I want to do in life!