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I'm back!!!!!

Tuesday, January 18, 2011

Ok now, You have all seen that Happy Lisa pic with the muscles and all that weight lost. Well, it's ALL BACK ladies and gentlemen. In fact. I was in the 160's in that pic. I got down to 146 lbs and looked even better than that pic. I was a size 8 and it felt soooooo good! But I slid WAY WAY back and didn't just gain it back slowly. I binged and gained almost 30 lbs in 6-8 weeks. So needless to say I need to be back here. I feel I failed myself. I am very disappointed but I am never going to give up!

  
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SPIRALSOFGRACE 1/18/2011 2:01PM

    I also want to get off the weight loss / gain rollercoaster. Dont let the feelings of guilt get to you too much - we can't change the past - but we can change the present and the future, right?

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ANGELJESS 1/18/2011 10:40AM

    Let's help each other hon! I am now at the heaviest weight I have EVER been...ugh!

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DOLPHINFAN1334 1/18/2011 10:38AM

    SO GLAD THAT YOU ARE BACK!! YOU CAN DO IT AGAIN AND KEEP IT OFF THIS TIME!! HAVE A WONDERFUL DAY!! emoticon

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My Vision Board

Thursday, February 18, 2010

I know that this is a work in progress, but I recently posted my goals in my pictures section and I have been wanting to make a vision collage based on my goals. An e-mail from a new SP friend, KNICKITY3 , encouraged me to be able to do this. She and I were partners in helping one another create our vision collages. Thank you KNICKITY3 !!! I could not have done this without you!!! Remember it IS a work in progress.

  
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PYRATECHIC 2/19/2010 10:40AM

    I know, Nikki is totally fantastic. See Jess you moving to CO is even getting me a new friend :-)

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KNICKITY3 2/18/2010 7:46PM

    AWE THANKS GUYS!!! This made me so happy! And it looks awesome!

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ANGELJESS 2/18/2010 6:03PM

    That is awesome honey!!! I also think it's so funny that you and Nikki are helping each other and she is one of my new CO friends!! So awesome!!

Love you!!

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Fighting the Current

Monday, February 08, 2010

I have two major character flaws: 1) Perfectionism and 2) not asking for help. One feeds into the other and they reinforce each other, creating a wall of critical thoughts and negative behaviors. Through therapy I am learning to deal with both of these things. However, as soon as I have a handle on one, the other, or both, people or situations in my life seem to reinforce my negative thoughts. So I feel like I am swimming against the current, fighting my way free of myself.

For instance, I have been having a really hard time writing my PhD dissertation. Because I am afraid it won't be good enough. But I finally got the push I needed and was writing like crazy. I was feeling really accomplished and proud of myself. Until I sent it to my boss. She read it and corrected some of it. And instead of talking to me privately and helping me in a constructive fashion, she berated me in front of my labmates in a very curt and angry fashion. I have no written a word since. SO I thought to myself. See I wasn't good enough.

So I decided to tacke #2 to ask for help. I contacted a service that helps you edit you thesis and keep you on track and that took A LOT of guts for me to admit I needed help and could not do this on my own. So I called up the service and they were rude to me and told me that I have too specialized of a topic, that no one really asks for help in my area, and that not only could she NOT help me, but she doubted I would find a service who could help me.

Strike two. So I took this as I am not good enough and no one wants to help me. OUCH. I am trying to stay motivated and positive, but these circumstances are just beating me to a pulp mentally.

Positive thought of the day: I am still breathing!!! I won't ever give up!!

  
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ANGELJESS 2/8/2010 3:08PM

    Crap, well that sure didn't work out. But I am SOOOOO proud of you for trying #1 and #2. For #1, she is so unprofessional and rude. Is it possible to ask for help from any intelligent colleagues or people who have written a previous thesis in your field?

Don't give up asking for help, it doesn't make you "less of a person". I actually think highly of people who want to learn and ask for help. I view them as stronger people.

I love you!

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SHRIMPCHIC 2/8/2010 11:46AM

    Who cares what these people say! No one has the right to say if someone's not good enough. If you get knocked down in life...get right back up,dust yourself off and go again....Good luck on knowing not to give up....Have a Great day :o)

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Pre-school here we come

Sunday, January 31, 2010

Today we went to look at a pre-k program for Daniel in the fall. It was my old K-8 school. What an ego boost to go there. EVERYONE remembered me and I had a blast. It really was what I needed. My dad said it was nice for me to get out of my bubble of home, work , school.....repeat. I agree. I can't wait to incorporate more life in my life :-)

Positive thought for the day: People from the past remember me fondly b/c there is something/things about me worth remembering fondly!!!!

  
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ANGELJESS 1/31/2010 8:49PM

    Wow, that is fantastic! What an amazing feeling to know that you were so special that people remembered you from then!

Was Danny excited?

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WANNABHAPPY2 1/31/2010 7:35PM

    Great thought! Just keep that in mind when (if) you get hard on yourself!

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Just my positive thought of the day

Saturday, January 30, 2010

There is alot of love in my life. My boys: Mike, Daniel, Andre, Bobby, and my dad. And love means Life is good!

  
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PRAIRIECROCUS 1/31/2010 2:06PM

    Right on!
All the best!

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SUGARPUNK52 1/31/2010 3:09AM

  WHOO-HOO for you! I agree.GOD bless.

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ANGELJESS 1/30/2010 9:37PM

    That's right honey!! Even more than those!!

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CRUNCHY_MAMA 1/30/2010 8:08PM

    Stay positive!

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