Friday, November 16, 2012
Sometimes i'm convinced things happen at exactally the right time. As vague as that sentence is, i'm going to try and elaborate. i've been feeling like i'm doing "okay" when it comes to my workouts/eating/healthy balance lifestyle. i've been putting my time in at the gym, trying to beef up on the healthy foods, find a peaceful place to go to...but kind of feel like "what's the point?" i know living a healthy lifestyle is best for every aspect of my future, but i guess i was looking for more reward(s). well, today i got what is one of the biggest gifts i could receive: a compliment from a trainer at my gym. i'm not one to be social at the gym, i show up, warm up, then get straight into my cardio or weight lifting routine. because i'm so socially akward (which is a little shyness mixed with introvert mixed with incredibly self conscious) i rarely talk to anyone or even make eye contact. yesterday i was doing lower and today upper. this trainer guy came up to me today and got my attention by asking if i was using a certain weight (that needed to be put back), i said "no" and was about to proceed thru my routine when he said "that thing you did yesterday on the bosu was awesome, where did you learn that?" i was shocked! first, because i don't ever think people are watching me and second because i more than sometimes think "is this even doing anything?" what he was referring to was i did squats with 10lb dumbells held on my shoulders, pulsed for 3 small squats, then did a deep squat and came up all the way extending my arms straight up while standing on an upside down bosu ball. i learned to do as many lifts that challenge your balance when i had a trainer as it's awesome for your core. i don't know why, but receiving a compliment from a trainer is such a self esteem builder! just reassures me i'm on the right track and just need to keep on challenging myself.
Friday, October 19, 2012
had my 1 day off from work and did that ever feel good, now on for 4 more. people that don't work in healthcare can't understand how an 8 hour work day is incredibly taxing and usually more than 3 in a row really gets you down. for 8.5 hours straight (because we all know no GOOD nurse gets a 30 min break), you have to be emotionally, spiritually and physically on your game to give the best care to your patients and their family members. i absolutely love what i do and couldn't imagine doing anything else, but am so happy i have fitness to help me process what i've seen/experienced (new cancer diagnosis, vulnerable adult abuse, gaping wounds, people not following any health reccomendations and then wondering why they're so sick...). i won't be able to get to the gym after work tonight as my husband offered me to watch our neice and nephew, the sweet guy. i guess i'll practice some meditation after all the kids are in bed as it's balance i need most in life and often put the relaxation piece on the backburner.
Wednesday, October 17, 2012
i switched my work schedule around last week and ended up working 8 days in a row. usually i can handle working 8 hours without any problems. no matter how drained i feel at home, once i get those nurse clothes and shoes on, i can take on whatever comes! not the case yesteraday, which made me scared. i woke up, got the kids off to daycare and school (as i worked at 3pm) and just wanted to lay down. i haven't felt this tired since having newborns, it was such a strange feeling! i did lay down and when i checked the time, it had been more than 1 hour! i then got up and ran outside as it was BEAUTIFUL but i was really dragging! i then worked at 3 and was supposed to be done at 1130 but was pulled to a different unit at 9pm and was way behind so i didn't get out until 1230, boy was that tiring! i hope i find my energy soon, i don't like being lethargic mary. i'd usually take some caffeine for a boost, but have been feeling especially anxious lately and don't want to aggrevate that.
Monday, October 08, 2012
woke up this morning feeling good, didn't have to work and the whole family was going to be around (no school day and husband has off). i got my but to the gym by 730, ran for 35 minutes and elliptical for 20. i felt so awesome after as i didn't have to think about getting myself there for the rest of the day. i've realized that i absolutely love being fit, i love the benefits after of feeling amazing and looking decent, but i still need to push myself to go most days. if i let myself, i'd make excuses not to go every single day. i have to be aware of this because i know how much of a trap it can be to get out of the loop of exercising. since i've joined our gym in april of 2010, i haven't been away for more than one week except for the few times i've struggled with a nasty respiratory infection or after minor surgery. i just have to remember to keep listening to the voice in my head telling me this is so important for right now, and for the rest of my (hopefully) long life. i have to yell at the voices that give me the excuses. you never know what tomorrow will bring, so live for today.
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