Saturday, January 25, 2014
It has been a long journey to getting "back in the groove," but I am starting to feel it again. Oh happy day!!
"Forgiving myself" for allowing myself to backslide doesn't work for me. I needed a swift kick in the pants and a stern talking to (from myself, lol). Since hurting my shoulder last spring I regained 18 pounds!! Clothes didn't fit any more and I just felt gross. I was binge eating and chain smoking.
Slowly things are getting under control. I am back to where I am positively anxiety-riddled if I don't get a workout in. That's a very good sign. The eating still needs work, but I am at least tracking it. Some nights I feel like Pac-Man, gobbling up everything I come across.
I need to enjoy the journey and that feeling is coming back too. I am grateful also to have a couple of very supportive people in my life. My daughter, bless her heart, puts up with the lack of "goodies" on hand (if they are there, I will eat them -- does anyone have a cure for this?) and my significant other doesn't criticize when I get off track but offers incentives and great praise when I meet my goals.