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MS Ride 2009

Thursday, October 01, 2009

This past weekend I participated in the MS 2 Day Ride. This was my 1st time doing anything like this and I signed up to do 100 miles (well 50 a day for 2 days). I love to ride & love a challenge. This summers weather has NOT been getting in the long rides that I enjoy very often.

The Rides start and finish were at Hammonasset Beach...so beautiful



It was way too cold to swim, but I would have loved to jump in the water and go...just listening to the waves always makes me smile :-)

Day 1 started @ 10am...the map said we would be doing 52 miles and I was up for it. There were 3 rest stops on the route. To be honest I was thinking I was just going to ride by them, but I stopped at them all, I was so hungry...I ate, stretched and off I went again. I was so hungry which isnt like me, usually I ride and ride and dont eat until I am done, but if I am hungry I eat. Day 1 had LOTS and LOTS of hills. A few of them were brutal, but I love a good hill to remind that I have what it takes to keep going, I love to push myself, makes the accomplishment mean so much more.

I had 2 things with me that help me push when I am tired...my bike necklace on (love ya VJ, so you rode with me too), you can see it on my pictures shining around my neck :-)



The other thing I always have a picture in my sports bra...this is the one I had with for the ride (well obviously a smaller one, and I would have posted it but it was not in the best shape after riding so long..ha ha)



That is my Lexie & My Bestest (my best friend), these 2 people remind me everyday how far I have come. They let me be ME, they allow me to not only reach for the stars but to grab them. I thank God everyday for all that I have...life is sweet!



So after 4 hours and 40 mins of riding, and 54.5 miles later I finished my ride for Day 1. I was starving, really dont know why I was eating constantly and had 2 bagels for breakfast too, I couldn't wait to get to the food, 2 hot dogs, a hamburger, potato salad and I still could have ate more, but dinner was coming in 2 hours so I hit the beer tent...lol...nothing like a nice cold beer after riding all day...YUM!

I rode this ride for 3 reasons.....

1 A dear friend of mine, Kim has MS and I love her dearly and want to help whatever way I can

2 The owner of the gym I go to has MS

3 Another goal to conquer

Along with me riding, my Lexie and her friend Erika volunteered with my dear friend Kim. They were right there waiting for me at the finish, that was so nice and made my day to see their smiles.

As I mentioned the owner of the gym I go to, Cardio Express, has MS. His name is Peter Rusconi. Well this man is just one on the kindest people I know. Saturday was the 1st day I had met Peter but he had already touched my life and my heart. Back in April I shared my story with him of the journey I had been on. This sweet man, not even knowing me began calling me and sharing tips for my Tri and encouraging me every step of the way to keep on reaching for that next goal. He bought me the road bike that I used for my Triathlon and this ride, without having ever met me. I cant say enough about Peter. He is a role model to me, he fights his own battle with MS, but you would never know it. He is out riding all the time, competing in Tris & other races as often as he can. I admire him and all that he is, all that he does, and through all of his own struggles he finds the time to give back to everyone that he can.



That is Peter, along with his girlfriend Kiara. I really don't have words to describe these two, ok maybe I do...they are like 2 angels from Heaven that landed on my shoulder and inspire me to be the best that I can be.

After dinner and some bingo that night I tried to sleep, but that didnt happen too well. The rain started about 2am and the worry set in, I had never rode in the rain, I didn't have any rain gear......ut oh how am I going to do this?

I was very nervous & the self doubt was kicking in a bit, I ate a big breakfast and was very quiet. Anyone that knows me would know that is NOT a good sign, I never stop talking so if I am quiet I am not happy. The rain was coming down and hard. Most of the people that has signed up for the 2 day ride had left, they were not riding because of the rain. As much as I was a bit intimidated by the weather there is one thing I am not....I AM NOT A QUITTER....one of my favorite quotes is....

Quitters NEVER Win and Winners NEVER Quit

I live by that everyday. So there was an alternate route because of the bad weather, it was not the full 50. Everyone I was riding with was taking the alternate route. The last thing I wanted to do was ride by myself in the pouring rain so off we went.....



I was soaked before I even started pedaling but I didnt care, I was determined to get to that finish line. The ride was only about 90 mins and when we got to the beach I had not completed 100 miles in 2 days. I was happy to have finished but a part of me was disappointed. I had set out to ride 100 miles for MS and I hadn't done that.

They had a wonderful clambake for everyone and massages, now that was the BEST! Good food and a massage, nothing better!

I had a great time, met some wonderful people, & rode for a cause that I support....BUT I wasn't done. I went home that day and relaxed, but something was bothering me alot. I felt like I had let myself down for not riding the full 100.

So, Monday after work I jumped on my bike and got it done. I pedaled away, even got stuck in the dark (and I hate to ride in he dark) but I was NOT coming home until my 100 miles were finished.



I finished, now I could breathe....I don't like to let myself down, it is hard to look in the mirror at someone you aren't happy with. Now I like that girl again...she finished what she started, way to go Heather!

I set the bar high in everything I do, life is too short not to challenge myself EVERYDAY.
Now I can wear my medal proudly....



So....now I have a new goal, one that I will conquer next Sunday....going to ride 100 in 1 day. I can do it and I will.

You can only go as far as you push....and I will NEVER stop pushing

Thanks for reading

  
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MARINEMAMA 8/21/2011 7:00AM

    Fantastic!! YOU are AMAZING!!

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BEACHGIRL76 12/18/2010 9:21AM

    Wow that is awesome! Congrats:)

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ANGLEDGE 4/30/2010 11:26AM

    Your posts are awesome - come back & post some more!

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EXFITNESSGURU 3/14/2010 12:17PM

    This is awesome... It is possible... If you can do it, it makes me believe I can too... Thanks for adding to the motivation!!!

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NEED2DROP50 12/20/2009 10:28PM

    My baby sister has MS. I should be doing this next year.

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ME4CAM 10/21/2009 10:29PM

  Heather... You are amazing !! And a huge inspiration to me. Everytime I want to quit, I think of you !!! Thank you for that !!

Lots of love,
Dawn

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JUDE-E911 10/19/2009 5:47AM

    Whenever I am feeling a little lost I always seem to come find your page. Just want to let you know you still amaze, I am so proud of you, and you inspire so many people you dont even know about!! I am happy you have found your way!! You Still Rock Girl!! Hope you and Lexie are doing great!! You sure look like it!! *hugs**

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WOLFKITTY 10/13/2009 6:16PM

    Good for you, honey!!! You look great, by the way.
HUGS!
Jocelyn

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MELTINGMIMI 10/11/2009 7:41AM

    U r an amazing woman & an inspiration!!
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JBMT08 10/9/2009 8:47AM

    Heather, you are AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!! i just wrote your quote, and placed it on the back of my cell phone...Quitters NEVER Win; Winners NEVER Quit, so I will see it everyday. I have been plateauing for a while, and I started doing some weights last night while watching Snapped and during 3 commercial breaks during "Housewives". You have me thinking about going to the gym/working out tomorrow morning before apple picking, and possibly spin on sunday. THANK YOU for sharing your thoughts!
Joni

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HEATHHILL 10/5/2009 8:46AM

    What a great story. My husband did a ride to raise money for a food bank, and he wasn't able to complete the 50 miles that day b/c of an injury. He was so bummed, so later that week he completed his ride too. Congrats to you for setting a goal and reaching it!

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MOM2.2BOYS 10/2/2009 4:04PM

    As always, you are an inspiration! Awesome!

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SPARKLINGVIOLET 10/2/2009 2:25AM

    So inspirational! Love that you didn't let a little rain "rain on your parade" !!!

Violet

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COLEMANSR 10/1/2009 5:23PM

    emoticon emoticonAwesome.

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ZIRCADIA 10/1/2009 4:22PM

    aWESOME. That Peter guy sounds completely amazing. Great job!

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WILDCARD1 10/1/2009 3:10PM

    WTG Heather! I am so proud of you! You are doing such a great job, keep up the good work, and good luck with your next goal!

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RLOUPE1 10/1/2009 3:09PM

    Great job Heather! You are so motivated and goal oriented! You motivate me... Can't wait for our ride next weekend! Enjoy your ride this Sunday. Hopefully the weather will be better than it was for the MS100

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RLOUPE1 10/1/2009 3:08PM

    Double post.....Learning this Sparkpeople thing...

Comment edited on: 10/1/2009 3:09:56 PM

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BOTZZZ 10/1/2009 2:11PM

    Awesome Job Hedder! though I already told you that ;) You are going to own that 100 in a day ride that you are planning but good luck anyways!

PS: stop eating the peeps! lol

As Ever
Me

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TX.PATRICIA 10/1/2009 1:12PM

   
AWESOME!!!!

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FIT-LIFE 10/1/2009 12:30PM

    You can wear your medal proudly just for your spirit of determination, even if you didn't get your 100 miles in. I don't think I know anyone else who is as driven as you are, just one more thing to be proud of. Be sure to let us know how this next 100 went.

Hugs, Sheryl

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AGGIEGIRL95 10/1/2009 12:06PM

    Love you, love your blog and your determination!!! You are amazing and I admire you so much! I'll be praying for you this weekend!! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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SWEETZMIX 10/1/2009 11:56AM

    Very inspiring story! You are just all types of awesomeness!

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BUGGERLUGS47 10/1/2009 11:38AM

    Now this is an inspirational story for anyone that stops by to read it! Heather, you are awesome, you spoke of the 2 angels on your shoulder...well you have come to be an angel on mine and shelleys! Keep it up, you are an awesome person as well! It is a joy to know you and to read your blogs...they encourage, inspire and comfort! God Bless. emoticon

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My First Triathlon

Sunday, August 09, 2009

Today was the day...MyFirst Triathlon :=)

I had the best night last night and both excited & nervous for the big day, so sleep was limited to about 3 hours, I packed up my things, checked my list about 30 times and we hit the road about 5:30am.



I was all smiles and ready to go, the ride was nice, my daughter and 2 of her friends were with me so I had plenty of company for the 45 min ride to the beach.

When we got there I got all my stuff set up in the transition area...

Then the burial...I got this great idea from my friend Sheila, she made a comment to me about leaving the fluffy girl at the start line and go...hmmmmm...so I took a picture with me of the "fluffy" me, the girl I used to be, the girl that still sometimes fights the new me and I buried her at the beach where the race begins and ends...











Bye Bye "Fluffy" me...this was such a sentimental moment for me, to leave that girl behind...to never look back...I did get a bit emotional, it a good way...I am NOT that girl anymore, I havent been her for a LONG time...



Me and my Lexie, my girl is my Hero and my Biggest Fan!

Now it is time to get my wetsuit on, that is sooo much fun and trying to put in on in that tiny transition area was definately comical to say the least, almost fell over a couple of times...lol...I had a picture of my Lexie, my Bestest and Kimmie in my suit, I neve run a race without them...I also had few inspiring quotes from my dear friend Carol to keep me going...I had to walk over the the neighboring beach for the start, the swim was a 1/2 mile and was a U-shaped course.

I went in to get warmed up, check for jellyfish (none in sight :)...water was the perfect temp, lots of seaweed itwas like swimming in spagetti, on the way out of warming up I cut open both of my big toes on rocks :-(....really didnt hurt that bad but they were bleeding everywhere..no time to think about it, time to get my swim on...



The start....Hole in the Wall Beach



The mad dash to the water...see the gut in the red shirt in front, to the left on the one behind him is me!



Running to my bike after the swim

The tansition time for me from swimming to biking was a bit long, I really wanted to make sure my cut toes were as clean I could get them before getting my bike shoes on and taking off..I know for next time to pack some ban-aids in my bag



Off I go, up that first hill and already starting to pass people...love my new wheels!!



On my way back to transition to get my sneakers on and get running

This switch was easy, was really having to pee but I didnt want to stop, I just wanted to get my run on and go



The run was so nice, I smell of the ocean air was calming and the people were so nice, everyone was cheering and I just kept going, never stopped....had to pee, bleeding toes and just never even thought about stopping...as much as I thought I was going to miss having my Ipod, I didn't...this was my race...my new start...the day I let go of the "fluffy" me...the day I had planned for over a year was here...The race ends with a beach finish, this was breathtaking...running along the beach., seeing my daughter and friends waiting for me, and ending my race where I buried that "fluffy" girl...I don't even have words for how I felt.



Me at the finish.



My cheerleaders...they were so great, wating for me at every stop, pom poms waving cheering and telling for me every minute...a cherished day in my life, a priceless memory

I wasnt sure what my time was, and to be honest I didn't care too much..I knew I did the best that I could but most of all I had the best time (busted toes and all).

Times were posted this afternoon....my final time for the 1/2 mile swim, 12 mile bike and 3.5 mile run was...................1:45.35

Here is the breakdown

1/2 mile swim 17.57 (a personal best for me in open water)
1st transition 4.32
12 mile bike 47.46
2nd transition 1.56
3.5 mile run 33.25 (another personal best for me...I have never ran under a 10 min mile)

So I did it, I set a goal for myself that I would have never dreamed I could achieve, I worked hard and I reached it...looking forward and never back...so whats next???

I have decided to so another Tri on September 13th & I am participating in the MS ride September 26-27...is a 50 mile a day ride for 2 days (100 mile total)...always another goal, another challenge...

I am also considering giving adventure racing a try, I have a friend that loves it and I might have to give it a whirl...anyone ever participate in adventure racing?

Who knows what tomorrow will bring, but this girl is excited to find out...still reaching for those stars and I will continue to everyday...life is too short not to..

xoxo







  
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RAJANIEMI 6/29/2011 11:56AM

    Heather,
I cried when you got to the end with your medal...I am so ready to plan to do this with you next year...
Thanks for the inspiration. emoticon

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TENISWHIZ 7/27/2010 4:18PM

    Hey Heather...Just reading this now! Look at where you are one year later! emoticon
Who knew!
I like the "bury the former me" picture idea!
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Your first triathlon times are great! This is my 3rd year in triathlon and two weeks ago was my first real "open water swim" one. The others were in a converted stone quarry to giant pond/beach type "pool". Unusual. The open water swim is quite a challenge in comparison. Sighting....seaweed, water snakes (some athletes I know saw one), etc. !!

Anyway....congrats on this big achievement and best wishes in your new adventure as a mom!

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TRICHICPAM 3/16/2010 6:29PM

    I am in the process of reading the Spark book and noticed that you had a triathlon goal so I went in search of your blog. Glad I did; that was an awesome race report. Congrats! Keep of the great work. I like the burrying yourself idea... I might have to do that when I go back to Ironman WI. You are certainly an inspiration.

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FROGGRL28 2/18/2010 4:38PM

  Amazing!! One of my ultimate goals is a triathlon, seeing people that have completed them and love is such great motivation. Thank you for sharing! emoticon

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AMBULATOR 2/7/2010 11:42PM

    Awesome entry. I told my wife today that I want to do a sprint triathlon in 6 months. This entry inspired me. Thanks.

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AMYJEANHEALTHY 1/4/2010 8:50AM

    I love your tri report. I did my first one on Sept. 13. I wonder if it was the same one? Title 9 in MA. :) you are inspirational. I'm down 50 with another 30 to go. Thanks for sharing. I just found your page so I'm a little behind tee hee

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AROCHFORD 11/6/2009 6:57AM

    That is wonderful. Way to go on your triathlon!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Keep SParking!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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BUTTERFLYFAERIE 10/5/2009 3:47PM

    Omg Heather that is so awesome! WTG!

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LORT-C 9/9/2009 3:58PM

    You inspire all of us to be the best we can be!!!!!!!!!!

Thank you.

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WOLFKITTY 8/19/2009 4:05PM

    WOW, Heather!! That is **SO COOL**! I'm glad you had such a great time! Speaking of, your race times were awesome!!

Oh my gosh, I'm just struck by how far you've come and it really is amazing! Step boldly into the rest of your life! - DANCE!

You're doing great!
Jocelyn

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WILDCARD1 8/13/2009 2:10PM

    Heather awesome job! I am so glad that you did it! You are so awesome!

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KROLES55 8/13/2009 9:10AM

    Congratulations!! Keep up the great work... You are truly an inspiration

Karen

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You are such and inspiration!

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KOBEBROWN 8/11/2009 7:56AM

    CONGRATS to you Heather!! Job well done and as always reading your blog I have tears in my eyes and hope in my heart that maybe, just maybe I could do one of these someday as well.

You are such an inspiration YOU GO GIRL!!!

Thank you for sharong your experience with us.

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TENISWHIZ 8/10/2009 6:43PM

    CONGRATULATIONS TO YOU! Way to go!!!! You have come a long way and should be darn proud of yourself! Thanks for sharing your story!

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TROPHYWIFE2B 8/10/2009 1:19PM

    You done good girl! Looks like you guys had a blast. Wish I could have gone to cheer you on. I'm proud of ya!!!

TW2B

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JELLYBEAN72 8/10/2009 12:43PM

    My Dearest Sistah... so so PROUD OF YOU!! Great job on your TRI.... now welcome to my world... doesnt feel great to achieve something so wonderful as a Triathlon and to even think where we came from and how could we possibly do something like that... We did it!! Keep pushing forward... youre my HERO!! Congrats Tri Girl!!! Gotta love the feeling!! Love you & Miss you and soon we will do one together!!
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CILLA0025 8/10/2009 10:54AM

    I am sooo proud of you!!! Words cannot express how happy I am for you!! I really do want to be you when I grow up - you set goals and reach them!!! Always!!

Love you hunny!!

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ZIRCADIA 8/10/2009 10:50AM

    AWESOME AWESOME AWESOME TIMES!!! :D THAT IS SO COOL! And congratulations on leaving the fluffy girl behind! :)

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VEEJAY3 8/10/2009 10:42AM

    yeeeeeee-hawwwwww!
I'm so happy for you!!! You were not only magnificent and strong ...
YOU WERE SO BLASTED FAST!!!

Where did those times come from???

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SWEETZMIX 8/10/2009 10:31AM

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I love the symbolism in burying the old fluffy you which you are no more. And let me find out you are going to be a triathlon machine!

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HEATHHILL 8/10/2009 7:48AM

    I've got tears in my eyes reading your fantastic story. You are so inspiring. I wish I could have been there to cheer you on, but I was thinking of you and hoping it went as well as it did.

I am SO PROUD to call you my friend. You ROCK!

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BOTZZZ 8/10/2009 7:28AM

    Heather, I am excited for you that you finished and had a blast doing your first Tri so Congrats! My favorite part? "I know for next time to pack some ban-aids in my bag" Next time! your burial of that "fluffy" you is what you needed, its not you any more, you are not "that fat girl" any more, you are the athlete that just completed her first Tri and is already thinking about the next one, yeah I said it...athlete ;)

Keep on keepin on Bea Arthur!

As Ever
Tony

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TANSHAN1 8/10/2009 5:03AM

    WooHooo!! You go girl!

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BUGMAMA42 8/10/2009 2:20AM

    I'm in tears of joy, girl. YOU DID GOOD!!! I am so friggin proud of you and the symbolism of burying the "fluffy" you is incredible. I need to do something like that. Always something to learn, y'know? CONGRATS!!! I was thinkin' of you this morning and wondering how my "penguin" friend was doing!

HUGS in the BIGGEST way! You are AWESOME!!!!!
-Nina

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SPARKLINGVIOLET 8/10/2009 1:14AM

    Congrats girly!!! You're so awesome~!

Violet

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CALGALFOX 8/9/2009 11:57PM

    ...and next year when you do this tri again, you'll know how far you've come, because you'll keep going. We'll be there with you, too.

Carol

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QUALITYONE09 8/9/2009 10:34PM

    Way to go Heather!!! You look so good out there and you sound so happy & excited. Congratulations on setting the bar so high for yourself. You are my Spark hero!!! Keep following your dreams!!

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Fight to MY Finish

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

Whew I am almost there....over 18 months ago I started on my journey...My journey to find me, love me, be a better me inside and out and embrace life.

My goal, my finish line for me is in 12 days...the Triathlon...I goal for me, to prove to ME that I can do it.....I have upped my workouts...been pushing and pushing for every stroke, pedal and step...

My favorite place to bike....Case Mountain.



Throughout my journey this place has been my special place...it is about 12 miles from my house, takes me about an hour to get there on my bike, enough time to clear my head and breathe...Once I get there the hike up is my release, I just leave it all on my mountain, all my struggles, fears and headaches are gone..





OK, I can't believe I just posted those silly pics, but my mountain brings out the silly in me and makes me smile from the inside out...love it!

Me, My Lexie and one of my GF's went to practice the Tri bike and run a few weeks back....the ride was good, a few hills that were a bit difficult but I felt pretty comfortable for the ride...I cant say the same for my friend...ha ha...



I keep telling her she IS doing the Tri with me next year, she is too much and I am so grateful to have such a good friend that went with me (hangover and all..haha) to support and ride with me...THANK YOU Lizzy I love you!!!

My Lexie was my running partner for the course...



OK. why is that baby girl of mine laughing and smiling and I feel like I am going to die...ha ha..the air was hot and thick...my breathing was off...but we ran part of the course for theTri, next practice run will be earlier in the day to try to avoid the heat....Thank you to my beautiful Lexie...always my Hero!

A new place that I cherish....the lake....



I have had the pleasure of swimming out here with friends for the past few weeks, I will admit at first, this girly girl was not digging it...I am a pool girl, never swam in anything other than a pool for 36 years so this was VERY differerent...but I have to admit, once I swam it a few times I fell in love...and I am VERY thankful for the friends that I have that share this great place with me....Grandma says......THANK YOU (haha)

My biggest ride so far was this past Saturday...I biked to that beautiful lake...it is over 18 miles each way and VERY HILLY...about 5 miles into the ride there, I wanted to turn back, wanted to quit...actually had a "fluffy girl" thought...I was going to ride home quick, throw my bike in the back of my Jeep and drive to friends house/lake, but park like around the corner from their house so they would never know that I didn't ride there...not proud of the thought...but I didn't do it...there was a part of the ride there that was over 6.5 miles uphill...Thank God for my Hydration Pack...was sweating like I have never sweat before...ewwww...I made it, stopped a few times for a breather but I got there...I got in my 1/2 mile swim at the lake and I a part of me was dreading the ride home...I knew that every hill I got to cruise down was going to be in front of me...made me think of one of my favorite songs...

The Climb by Miley Cyrus
I can almost see it
That dream I'm dreamin' but
But there's a voice inside my head saying
"you'll never reach it".
Every step I'm taking.
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction.
My faith is shakin'
But I, I gotta keep tryin'.
Gotta keep my head held high.

There's always gonna be another mountain.
I'm always gonna wanna make it move.
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose.
Ain't about how fast I get there.
Ain't about what's waitin on the other side.
It's the climb.

The struggles I'm facing.
The chances I'm taking.
Sometimes might knock me down but
No I'm not breaking.
I may not know it but these are the moments that
I'm gonna remember most, yeah.
Just gotta keep going.
And I, I gotta be strong.
Just keep pushing on

The ride back....a few hills that wanted to break me, BUT I kept pushing, even had to push my bike up 2 of them (so steep I couldnt even pedal)...BUT I keep going...I finished to ride....For me it was a huge accomplishment, for me...I drove the ride after and was amazed at my own feat...tears streamed down my face and I realized something...I am an athlete! My dear friend Carol has been trying to tell me this for a long time, but it finally clicked...I know about time :)

The next week will be a test, a test against myself...to push harder, reach further and never stop...

I have been biking and swimming very hard, and I will admit my running is still a struggle for me, almost like I just freeze, I know i can do it, I have done it, but I just......freeze...

So this morning, a bump in the road....went for a run with my baby girl, not a good run, I was cranky and leg kept cramping up...I was not happy with me and my baby girl kept trying and trying to push me...but for some reason, I was my own worst enemy today...I was NOT happy with myself, what was my problem??



This is my problem...ME..I am scared to face myself, that person in the mirror, my biggest fan and my worst critic all wrapped into one...I am at the end of the line for the goal I set for myself and my fear of letting myself down has increased...I WONT LET IT....that "fluffy" girl is GONE...I won't break, I won't give up...I WILL reach for the stars!!!!!

I am very blessed to have my beautiful Lexie and so many great friends, when I feel like I am at the end of my rope they remind me that there is no such thing, there is always more rope....always.

One last thought.....This is one of my favorite quotes & today I need to read it, focus on it and apply it to myself....thought I would share with all of you....

To Achieve your Dreams Remember your ABC's.....

Avoid negative sources, people, places, things and habits.
Believe in yourself.
Consider things from every angle.
Don't give up and don't give in.
Enjoy life today, yesterday is gone, tomorrow may never come.
Family and friends are hidden treasures, seek them and enjoy their riches.
Give more than you planned to.
Hang on to your dreams.
Ignore those who try to discourage you.
Just do it.
Keep trying no matter how hard it is
Love yourself first and most.
Make it happen.
Never lie, cheat or steal….always strike a fair deal.
Open your eyes & see things as they really are.
Practice makes perfect.
Quitters never win & winners never quit.
Read, study and learn about everything important in your life.
Stop procrastinating.
Take control of your own destiny.
Understand yourself in order to better understand others.
Visualize it.
Want it more than anything.
You are unique..nothing can replace YOU.
Zero in on your target and go for it.

I have come too far to ever look back...I will face me & face the world...watch out here I come!




  
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ME4CAM 8/14/2009 10:56AM

  Heather... What an awesome blog ! You are amazing !!!!
Lots of love,
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TROPHYWIFE2B 8/7/2009 2:29PM

    Hey there! Great blog...So glad you found so much to love in the world around you. You are truly blessed. Good luck Sunday. And I hope you leave "fluffy girl" standing at the start line to never be seen again!!!

TW2B

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WOLFKITTY 8/4/2009 6:59PM

    You're so amazing Heather!! I can't wait to see your pictures from the Triathlon! I'm sure you're going to do great!

HUGS!
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HEATHHILL 8/3/2009 3:31PM

    You are just amazing. Thanks for sharing so much of yourself here. I'm struggling so much to accept and love myself. Reading your journey is a tremendous help to me.

You are gonna do amazing at your tri!!

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IRIEGAL 8/3/2009 11:39AM

    Heather, have I told you lately... you are my inspiration!!!

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NEELU_1289 7/31/2009 12:13PM

    Good work! You go girl!

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COLEMANSR 7/28/2009 5:23PM

    Hey, glad to see ya. Looking great. Thanks for sharing the photos.

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_FITMAMA 7/28/2009 4:20PM

    Hey Heather! LOVE all the pics and glad to hear you are doing well!
~Mary


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CILLA0025 7/28/2009 2:29PM

    oh and by the way...I'm copying that quote...Love it!!!

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CILLA0025 7/28/2009 2:21PM

    Hunny!!! I love your blog and you! You are such a strong woman and an inspiration. Everytime I feel like giving up, I think about you. I know we don't speak often but you are always ALWAYS ALWAYS in my thoughts!!! I'll try my darndest to get out there for your tri...but if I can't, please know that I'm there with you in spirit!!

Hugs, hugs, and more hugs!!!!

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MRSMIZZLE 7/28/2009 1:02PM

    I love this, thankyou for giving me some direction! Love you!

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SWEETZMIX 7/28/2009 11:16AM

    Heather you are a work in progress, a flower who has been blooming but hasn't opened up all the way. I know one day you will defreat your mind. You are too smart, too beautiful, and too kind to let this takeover your life. One day you will look back and see how far you have come and how you took control of those demons. You are going to kick some ass on your tri. It's going to be hard as sh*t, but you are going to finish it!

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BOTZZZ 7/28/2009 10:48AM

    Good read I am glad that its all coming together for ya :) glad you are enjoying the lake too :P I think I see my house across the water in that pic. You are going to do the tri and you are going to do another one because from what I know its just the kind of person that you are.

now if you can only figure out how to swim in a straight line!

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SPARKLINGVIOLET 7/28/2009 10:45AM

    It's so interesting how sometimes we just zone out and are our own enemy all the while there are tons of people who feel inspired and motivated by us....by YOU!

Here is MY personal quote this week to help keep me pushing....we can share it :)

"Most barriers to your success are man-made. And most often, you're the man who made them." Frank Tyger.

Violet

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JELLYBEAN72 7/28/2009 10:26AM

    Awesome blog Sistah!! You can and will do this!! I must tell you its not really the body we face during weight loss or personal achievements.. is our MIND!! If you set your MIND to do it you will achieve anything!! You have come so far and worked so hard to let the devil win... You have and always be my HERO!! I wish you nothing but the best on your TRI trust me when your foot hits that finish line you will be a crying mess but a good cry to say the least... You have accomplished something you never thought you could!! I ran 16 miles this weekend my longest to date and at mile 8 I wanted to quit I even puked because I was so drained and the heat was kicking my ass but I threw up set my mind and finished the last 8.. not the best run but I did it! So now you can and will DO THIS!! Im so proud of you and love you very much!! Now KICK BUTT MY BFF!!!
Love you & Miss you so much!!!
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CALGALFOX 7/28/2009 10:21AM

    My mama always used to say, "Smile no matter what, eventually you'll believe it yourself. Let life happen and go with it, fighting against it won't get you anywhere anyway. Laugh a lot, it's good for your muscles."

She had lots of other "truisms", but these are some of my favorites. She is the voice in my head : )

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HATE2BFAT 7/28/2009 10:15AM

    Good luck!.. I know you can do it.. You have accomplished so much already.. this is yours!!!!.... Have a great time..

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NIKLOW 7/28/2009 10:12AM

    Good Luck with the Triathlon! I'm sure you'll do great!

I love the picture, that would be an amazing place to leave all the stress behind!

Keep up the Amazing Attitude!

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Relay for Life & Sparkies in the Park

Sunday, June 14, 2009

Yes I know...I haven't blogged in FOREVER...I have so much to say & just haven't...no excuses and something I will get back to, starting NOW. So just a quick warning, there may be lots of blogs over the next week to kind of catch up...lots...lol

ok another warning.........this is going to be a VERY LONG BLOG so grab a water and get comfy!

On January 5, 2009, a dear friend of Lexie (my daughter) and I passed away from cancer, Carol was the sweetest woman I have ever known. Always smiling and never had a bad thing to say about anything. Understanding, loving, compassionate & kind...she had a heart as big as the ocean. If I had to pick one word to describe Carol it would be....genuine.

Carol's children organized a Relay for Life team in honor of their Mom. Let me just say how proud I am of them for doing this. I know how hard it must be, and I know that Carol is smiling down on them...we Love you Carol!



One of the luminaries in honor of Carol :-)



This picture speaks for itself..Hope



Carol's daughter Jamie is in the middle..what a beautiful young woman inside and out..I am so proud of her...I admire her strength to keep smiling an always do the right thing...love you so much!


Me and My Lexie...she is my Hero!

So I got to the event about 10-10:30 Friday night. I walked 5 miles in the mud (why they chose to have the Relay at the community center on the grass rather then either of the 2 track in town I still don't understand...lol)..but I was determined to be there and walk in honor of my amazing friend Carol. It was bittersweet, as comforting as it was it was sad too. I felt honored just to be there, just to share in a part of this night, but I also so missed my friend so much. Carol always had just the right words to say to me when I was down...miss you more than words.

I walked until after 12 and then home for a nap....my 1st plan was to run over to the Relay event with Lexie since my girl Kimmie was running 10 miles at the same time, but that did not happen...I was dragging after walking late into the night....Sorry Kimmie, I kept it moving for you girl but my legs were not in running mode..Lexie and I were back at the Relay around 6:20 and I walked another 5 miles (again in the mud...lol)...We made necklaces as we walked...every time around you put a bead on...I have my 10 mile necklace hanging in my car as a memory I want to hold on to.

Next I was home to wash the mud off of me and head out on my bike...my mylanta green bike...(inside joke...I think someone reading this will be laughing..)

I was on my way, on my way to me up with Tony (BOTZZZ) and Sheila (TROPHYWIFE2B)...this was exciting...my legs were a bit sore and my left knee was NOT happy but gotta keep on pushing and embrace the burn. It was closer than I thought and only took me about 35 minutes to get to the park.

We walked around the park. talked had some laughs and of course I was stuffing my face as we walked...lol....I was so hungry, packed a yogurt and kashi bar and ate them both. Sheila....it was a pleasure to get to know her, thanks for the swimming tips girl, means alot :-)

So picture time...



The Incredible Shrinking Man....Tony (BOTZZZ)



Shiela, Tony and Me :-)



Tony and Me...I feel soooo short!!!!

It meant alot to me to meet these two, Tony's blogs and dedication to himself and his journey have been a huge help to me on mine. And I think I met my match for being so critical of pictures...many a pictures deleted with us picky ones...the wifey Sheila is beautiful and funny....Thanks for the fun both of you...(and I will never look at a cow the same way again either...lol)

Between Friday night and Saturday.....

Walked 10 miles for Relay for Life
Biked 20 miles
Walked 2.8 miles @ the park with my Sparky Friends
Swam over a 1/2 mile
and weeded the Church Garden for what felt like FOREVER...lol

my final note....Life is a funny thing...you never know what tomorrow will bring so I chose to live for today everyday, I don't care anymore if the dishes sit in the sink a little longer than they used to or if my bed isn't made...you have today to make a difference, I chose life..I chose to live.


Thanks for listening.....I promise to be back with another blog soon....stay tuned!!


xoxo




  
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NEWKIM1 9/18/2009 9:50AM

    Again, I am so proud of you. The Relay is near and dear to my heart as well and very glad you went and enjoyed it! Good for you!

Hope all is still going great! You are such a beautiful woman...inside and out!

Lots of love - Kim

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GLAZED-DONUT 7/27/2009 6:04PM

    OMGOSH - RAWK!!! This is awesome!! I'm doing my very first Relay For Life -dusk to dawn this Sept. - I am the captain of Team Glazed Donuts and I'm SOOO excited for the event!!!

If you have time I would love to hear more about the "campsites" and "games" you saw at the event, being its my first year any extra input I get would be AWESOME - I want to raise as much awareness & donations as I can!

What an amazing way to honor your friend and to everyone else who has fought, and are still fighting!

*HIGH FIVE*
Susie

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HEATHHILL 6/24/2009 9:39AM

    It's great to see you back and posting. I hope this summer brings lots of fun and relaxation. You deserve it.

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JELLYBEAN72 6/16/2009 8:51AM

    Beautiful blog Sistah!! So sorry bout Carol.... she is truly smiling from heaven!! Killer workout so proud of you... its ok you couldnt run trust me that 10 miler for me was so hard this time by 7 miles I wanted to stop but I made myself push through it... Cant wait til we can run together at the next race... Miss you tons... Luv Ya Mucho!!
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TRECECOOKS 6/15/2009 7:21PM

    Awesome blog, Heather!! SO glad that you got to spend time with Tony and Sheila; look forward to more blogs of visits.
Condolences on Carol's passing. Your way to honor her memory is both touching and impressive.
You are SO right - LIVE life; no dress rehearsals. . .
Give Lexie a big hug for me - and have her give you one, from me.

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PEARLJGURL 6/15/2009 11:58AM

    Great to have you back chica! Can't wait to hear(read) what's been happening in your life lately. So sorry to hear about you losing your dear friend but Relay for Life is a GREAT thing and the perfect way to honor her memory!

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FEATHERGIRL34 6/15/2009 11:26AM

    Girl... you know I love you,right!! You are amazing.... you always have been... and you continue to be!! Thank you for being you and perservering and living and just being my wonderfully awesome P-Muffin!!!!!!!

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SWEETZMIX 6/15/2009 10:47AM

    Sorry to hear about your loss of such a wonderful friend. That was a great thing you all did for her. I know she was smiling down on all of you. I loved all the pics as well. I felt like I was there at the Relay AND with you and Tony & his wife!! Sounds like you had a wonderful time. But with all that you have done this weekend, I can imagine that the bed has been calling you!

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_FITMAMA 6/15/2009 7:17AM

    Great blog Heather, and nice to see you're back!
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COLEMANSR 6/14/2009 10:18PM

    Glad you're back. I'll be waiting. (LOL)

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SHININGTHRU126 6/14/2009 3:59PM

    I'm so sorry to hear about your friend's passing - what an awesome way to honor her memory! It really shows us reading who didn't even know her what kind of person she is; she must have been truly beautiful inside and out.
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ZIRCADIA 6/14/2009 1:59PM

    YAY for meeting w/ Tony! WOOHOO!!! I wish I were close to ya'll so we could all meet up together. Anyway -- VERY cool on the Relay for Life and I think it's an amazing tribute to be able to do something like that in memory of your friend. *HUGS*

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WENDYSPARKS 6/14/2009 1:53PM

    I am sorry to hear of Carol's passing...my prayers go out to the family. Walking is great exercise and I need to do more of it myself. And drink more water...I do not blog as much as I should but will try harder for the future. Good luck to you all with your goals. HUGS wendy emoticon

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BOTZZZ 6/14/2009 9:37AM

    Heather, it was great getting to meet you and it was a fun time, Wify agrees with that statement as well. I am looking forward to the next time we can get out there for a walk (should be a hike at that place you mentioned next time) and the Mylanta bike was beautiful! (I am grinning as I wrote that last part) hope the rest of your weekend is good, even though its going to rain.

As Ever
Me

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Still Done

Monday, March 16, 2009

I know, I know I haven't done a blog in FOREVER. And if it wasn't for the goodie from SPARKLINGVIOLET I may still be just lurking about...thank you Violet, you are sweet and this blog has been a LONG time coming xoxo

I have been de-toxing from Spark a bit, I needed to take some time for me and my Lexie, to focus on us and make sure we are both OK with this new life ahead.

I am still DONE, always will be done, I have DONE girl blood running through my veins, but for me a part of the journey is learning to fend for myself a bit, I was leaning on everyone else to keep me going through all the turmoil in my life. Well I have my Big Girl panties on and I am trying to make my way through this big, bad world. Let me tell you is os NOT an easy task. I have good and bad days. I am still on Spark almost everyday, I just lurk around and haven't been posting. I feel like I have run out of things to say. I have lost the weight, but I am still trying to find me....does that make sense?

Learning to rely on YOU and only YOU is tough. I am getting there. The truth is, when it all comes down to it YOU are the only person you can count on, gotta love you first. I do love me (most of the time...)

So here I am, about 15 months since I started my life changing journey. I feel better than I ever have physically but I am working on a better balance. Still trying to discover just when and what I want and need to do to stay where I am physically. Mentally I am still a work in progress. I still struggle with that insecure fluffy girl. She is a feisty thing but I have her in check most of the time.

I am plucking away at my list of goals for the year. Staying focused on them and working hard.

I did a 5K yesterday...was a last minute decision on Friday to do it, but since I am Irish and it was a Shamrock Run I just couldn't pass it up. I struggled some with the hills but for having not prepared for it at all, and biking over 25 miles on Saturday I can't complain.





I was jamming to my music and just fighting back the tears, this race brought out alot of emotions for me. All the struggles and heartaches that I have been through and continue to have were battling my every step. I had to fight harder for this run than any other one I have done.

It made me realize how strong I really am, I think I needed to feel that. we all battle that. When things get tough we tend to get negative and not want to go on and continue the fight. That is always easier, to give in and stop pushing. Believe I know, I have done that for 35 years. I always settled, gave in and didn't fight for what was right. I was so miserable in my own skin I didn't think I was worth the effort. I never want to be in that place again, and I won't. So I dug deep, never stopped, never looked back..just forward. That finish line seemed like it would NEVER come, but it did, I made it. I don't have any room in my life anymore for self doubt....I AM DONE!



My Lexie was my cheerleader, it was nice to have her there...she is my whole world and I love her so much. I finished the race at 32.43...not what I had hoped for, but seeing my girl cheering me on brought me to tears. Lexie does not even know just how much she encourages me to be the best that I can be.

My soon to be ex has filed for divorce and I will be ME again on June 22nd. The ironic thing about that date is it was/is Our Anniversary. So I will get divorced on the same day I got married. I can't wait to have ME back...to lose myself because of a man is something I still get mad at myself for. NEVER AGAIN!

I have also signed up for my Final Goal...my TRIATHLON...it is August 9th. I do have a few Sparky Friends that I hope are going to do it with me (you know who you are!), nothing would mean more to me than sharing that goal with the people that helped me stay on track and keep on keeping on.

I am also considering a 5 mile run this Saturday...I really want to, hum...heck i am in..gotta get pushing for more and see where I land.

Thanks for listening..........xoxo





  
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HONEYTOKATELYN 5/6/2009 12:39PM

    Girl, you are awesome!! When I divorced after 13 years of marriage and 3 kids...I was a different woman than I was the 13 years prior. I was a better woman. I was a stronger woman. I was a blessed woman!! I left him and my adopted state of Texas and brought my kids to this backwards place called Alabama (hear me out before you get riled!) to live with my parents. Now, another 19 years later I am still maturing and loving life - and the state of Alabama. It will be an adjustment, but girl, you are a survivor. Take care of you and then take care of Lexie. Grab her and life and live it to the fullest! You GO girl! You greatly inspire me!!!!!

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KDINDC 5/4/2009 11:50PM

    Can't wait wait wait to read the rest of your journey, so impressed and it's resonating right now. Rock on with your run and triathalon!!

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PANTUFAS 4/5/2009 9:22PM

    God Bless! You are definitely a strong, determined woman! Keep going for what you want, and never look back; unless you are helping us along!



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CJOANSCHEPPERLY 4/3/2009 11:02PM

    You are so amazing.

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    Be proud of what you have accomplished! You are emoticon!
Glad to hear you are doing good; we can allow life's challenges to bring us down or give us strength, and you have clearly succeeded in making it positive.
Thanks for your inspiration!
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GWBACH 3/27/2009 4:26PM

    you are on your way and I have to agree with you, you will never know yourself until you push yourself to your limits. Keep the faith, you are doing great.

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FEATHERGIRL34 3/27/2009 10:38AM

    As usual... you are such an inspiration. Girl... I have to find that strength and courage again. You are awesome and congrats on your run!! Good Job!!

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JBMT08 3/23/2009 10:17AM

    Heather,
you are such a strong person, you must realize that. everything you put your effort towards will come up roses, tulips and all of your favorite flowers! You gotta believe in yourself, and I think you really do that now. Keep goin' Girl!!!

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BUTTERFLYFAERIE 3/21/2009 11:41PM

    You go Heather! Don't look back, look forward and know that you are strong and will be getting stronger with each passing day :)

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_FITMAMA 3/20/2009 3:18PM

    Sounds like you are doing great. I LOVE the new profile pic of you and your daughter, very cute!
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THIN4HIM5 3/20/2009 12:05PM

    You are FANTASTIC!!!! Way to go doing that last minute race!
When my first marriage ended my birthday was September 8th, Divorce September 9th, our anniversary would have been September 10th. It was kind of ironic. Enjoy your journey to yourself. I am still searching even after being remarried for almost 11 years now.
You are special just the way you are.
Love you!
Wendy

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SLMTRACE 3/19/2009 11:36PM

    girl, look at you, all fablous looking!! love it! take care of you girl, we'll be here when your ready! hugs hugs and more hugs to you! june 22nd couldnt come any sooner, i wish time could just hurry up and that day be over for you! you are a great person, mother and friend! hope you have a great day!!
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Tracy

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BUGMAMA42 3/19/2009 4:46PM

    I am covered with goosebumps. I know those feelings... ALL OF THEM... only my girl is named Shelby :-) Your journey of self-discovery will never end, BUT... eventually it gets comfortable and feels "normal". You WILL find yourself. One step (or in your case - 5k!) at a time!!

Hugs and it's so good to see you!
~Nina

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RUNNING@MYPACE 3/19/2009 9:18AM

    Hey Heather!!!! So nice to see you post a blog!!

I am so proud of you! you are doing so many great things! It is so important for you to take time with Lex and you are a great Momma!!! You 2 support eaach other and that is AWESOME!!!

Congrats oon the race and Good Luck on the5 mile race this Sunday...I will be running with you! You are always such an inspiration and always will be my fire that keeps me pushing!!! Love ya so much!!
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HEATHERSCOTTTN 3/18/2009 11:40AM

    GREAT to see a BLOG from you.... and to hear you are still ROCKING IT!

Good for you on the 5k... YEA!

And good for you in taking some time to regroup and think about SELF... who are you...and what do you want.... Life is good.

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ME4CAM 3/17/2009 12:54PM

  Heather,
It's wonderful to read that your doing so good still !
I know we don't keep in touch as much as we used to but you are STILL my inspiration and I think of you often !

Lots of love,
Dawn

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BOTZZZ 3/17/2009 11:30AM

    Heather, glad to see you post a blog, and congrats on another 5k! and the fact that you decided last minute to do it is the best part! one of these days I will run a 5k and one of these days I will be able to just randomly decide to run in one too, I am happy for you and hope that everything goes smoothly for you on the 22nd (as bad of a thing that has to be to go through) good job and like I said glad to see a post from ya, hang in there!

As Ever
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HOFF0081 3/17/2009 9:27AM

    It's SO wonderful to hear how you are doing again Heather! I've missed being inspired by your blogs/journey. I hope you'll still be around when I come back to spark (well i'm not leaving but not losing since I'm pregnant) so you can help me reach that finish line with you. Take Care hon, and WAY TO GO for getting YOU back! :)

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HATE2BFAT 3/17/2009 9:20AM

    You are a strong person, there is no doubt about that. When I got back on Sparkpeople I found you through Kimmie's Page and you both have helped me out a lot... I went back and read all of your past blogs. That took a while but was worth it. I think that it is a rare thing to find true friendship and you and Kimmie have found that on here. You two seem to push each other to the highest limits possible. You have been through a lot but kept pushing and pushing... Never giving up... I admire that about you and hopefully someday I can be strong and persistent to reach my goal too... I too understand what it is like to not know who you really are.... and what you really want out of life.... I think that me losing the weight would be the first great step... but the rate I am going it will be years if I ever do get there... Anyways.. My whole point was thank you for putting yourself out here for us to read and learn from... You are a beautiful person..... and that "fluffy girl" as you called it ... is gone... ENJOY your accomplishments and enjoy the NEW YOU... !!!!!!!!!!!! and you daughter is lucky to have you as a mom ... anytime you write a blog she shines through when you talk about her....
Happy St Patrick's Day!!!!!!!!!!!!!.... From this Irish girl that needs to follow you and Kimmie's footsteps
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SWEETZMIX 3/17/2009 9:13AM

    OK I 4got my freaking phone home so now I am pissed because of 2 things. 1. Because they are a lot of issues with the train it takes me crazy long to get home now and 2. I thought of u this morning because ur the only Irish person I know. Well until 2 min ago, my co worker said she is half Irish, but whatever. I wanted to text you a Happy St. Patty's Day...so I guess a blog comment won't hurt. emoticon HAPPY ST. PATTY'S DAY!!

It's totally cool that you haven't been sparking like that. It is what it is, and u have a lot to learn about yourself. We all do, plus technology is a crutch we all tend to lean on. At the end of the day we all have to deal with the real world and real world issues, spark is a great escape..but our problems will always be there. 2009 an eventful year for you and me. (I guess it's time for me to get serious about my life, ext.) So we will just take it for what it is and hope that it makes us stronger and better people in the long run.

And you Lex look good in that pic. YOU SURE U JUST RAN A 5K!! Where is the sweat?!? And emoticon for signing up for a Tri!! That I have to give it to you!!

Anyway, it's always great to hear from you. The way I see it, you just got your FLY CARD!! And how weird u will be divorced on ur old anniversary. CREEPY!!

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HEATHHILL 3/17/2009 8:33AM

    Heather, I'm glad to see you posting again. I was really missing your presence here on SP. I haven't been around as much due to work, but I do check in daily and was feeling bummed I hadn't seen you around.

You know, it's wonderful to have people to lean on. We all like to be there for others, but sometimes it's harder to let people be there for us. You'll find that balance. You've been through so MUCH in a year. You're really inspiring.

So, come back and hang with us sometimes on the swimming team if you'd like. You don't have to be swimming regularly to hang out with us. Heck, I'm one of the leaders and sometimes I go a whole month without swimming! No one said you had to swim all the time to be on our team!!

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EMSNANA 3/17/2009 7:18AM

    Heather - glad to see you blogging again. How awesome is it that you can just decide to run a 5K and then do it. It is good that you are taking time for you and Lexie and to just be and find the balance you need. Too often we (as women) lose ourselves for the sake of others. You are a totally awesome person and you will find the balance you need.

luv ya
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I feel so honored to have SPARKed a new blog entry from you! I'm sure everyone has missed your blogs...but at the same time we understand your need to just BE. You never fail to inspire me, and for this, I thank you!!!

Love you!

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JELLYBEAN72 3/16/2009 9:23PM

    My Dearest Sistah..... Congrats to you on a job well done! I must say you dont even look like you were doing a 5K too damn pretty for that.. you know me I look a hot mess sweat from head to toe! You're a beautiful person inside and out.. and Im very proud to have you as my greatest friend/sistah.. not to mention you're so inspiring. You always kept me going throughout this weight loss journey and still continue to do so! Wishing you all the best.. so wish I could have ran next to you! So So Proud Of You! Keep reaching for the stars! From one Irish Girl to other... Happy St. Patty's Day to you Sistah!! Love you and miss you tons!!
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CILLA0025 3/16/2009 8:12PM

    I love you - always!!! You continue to make me proud! I know we don't chat much - but you're always on my mind - seriously - and I will try and check in with you more often.

You are done - no doubt about it done girl!!! You will rock that 5-mile run.

xoxoxox

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CALGALFOX 3/16/2009 7:01PM

    Hey DONE girl, good to see you are still around and kicking. Taking time for yourself and the search for balance is a great path. Hopefully you'll see some fun in that journey. Life can be good and even easy, if you can let go enough to let it be.

I finally got my muscle build where I want it to be, so now is the last calorie cutting so that all my new muscles show. Life is good.

I'm happy for you that you did a 5k. About now you should be starting to see some muscle improvement after all the ravages your dieting did to them. Your time will only pick up from here. Best of everything my friend.

Carol

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COLEMANSR 3/16/2009 6:16PM

    So glad to see your blog. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticonSo proud of you. It's great you holding your own.

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BUGGERLUGS47 3/16/2009 5:16PM

    Just great ! YOU are to be commended for being YOU! NO man is worth losing YOURSELF over and I and my wife are so excited for you to be on WELL ON YOUR way to doing just that! Keep up the great work and I only wish I could write as well as you do! My god..to run a 5 K after all you have been through is just astonishing.....because of YOUR keeping going...it has inspired me and I am sure many others to do the same...keep up the great work....and remember, YOU are indeed someone very special! Keep up that great attitude.... emoticon

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YEECHUANMAYHEW 3/16/2009 4:50PM

    I couldn't run a 5o yards, let alone 5K - well done!

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KARALVS2SCRAP 3/16/2009 4:42PM

    You have been such an inspiration to so many. You are stronger than you know. You can do this.

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ZIRCADIA 3/16/2009 4:35PM

    Think about the BEFORE you and then think about the fact that you SPONTANEOUSLY participated in a 5K! :D HOW AWESOME IS THAT??? :D

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