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STARTING OVER / DOING WHATEVER IT TAKES / NEVER QUITTING!

Thursday, May 03, 2012

Several things have come together serendipitously that have encouraged me to start over.

Last Sunday our minister was speaking about making God the number one priority in our lives, and among other things, he said DO WHATEVER IT TAKES! I do want God to be the prevailing priority in my life, but the rule applies to all goal seeking.

Then I watched Steve Siebold’s video on STARTING OVER, which made me realize that my backsliding doesn’t mean I have to give up. There are times when it is necessary to start over; this is one of them!

Wednesday I read NEVERORNOW’s blog that she wrote on Friday, April 27, expressing her thoughts on the NEVER QUIT pledge that is going around SparkPeople. She said that before SP, she’d have quit and gone back to all her old habits and undone all the progress she has made. (She has lost 60 pounds!) I was on the verge of doing the same thing! (Again!) Like Karen, I have been inspired repeatedly by articles, blogs, challenges, and messages on SP. However, I have been away for such a long time, it was very tempting to throw in the towel … again. If I had, I know I would never have tried to lose weight again; I was standing on the edge of a cliff! If anyone reading this is discourage, I recommend her blog!

Notes to myself:

(1) STARTING OVER
> Put this on my SparkPage as my new beginning, using dates to track my progress as well as my struggles.
> Read THE SPARK again
> Follow the steps in THE SPARK (I’ve been working on [read “fiddling around with”] a vision board for more than a year!)
> Use more recipes from THE SPARKPEOPLE COOKBOOK. (Those I have used are delicious!)

(2) DO WHATEVER IT TAKES
> Get to bed early enough to get a good night’s sleep!
> Sign in to SP every day
> Be open and honest with my weigh-in. (Log it weekly, even if it is a gain.)
> Be open and honest with my food tracker. (Allow others to see it.)

(3) NEVER QUIT!

I am signing the pledge here and now AND I’m copying it and posting it on my fridge … or pantry! 






NEVER QUIT

Today, I promise I will not quit.
I pledge that no matter, how many ups and
downs I pass through,
I will continue on my journey.

I pledge to make a NEW START today,
and forgive myself for my past,
and to stop being so critical of myself.

I pledge to take control of myself,
To stop making excuses,
And stop blaming other people or situations.

I pledge to treat myself as I would my Best
Friend,
Because that is who I am.

I pledge to stay in the race
and to be a WINNER.

Signed – Barbara (Puglover1999) 5-3-12


  


BEYOND WEIGHT LOSS …

Tuesday, July 05, 2011

This (first paragraph) is a comment I made on Nancy Howard’s blog, “Is Endurance Exercise the Fountain of Youth?” I have wanted to share these things on SP and this seems to be the perfect time!

I am excited about the changes that exercise and losing a little more than 20 pounds have done for me! Yes, I exercise for more reasons than to lose weight! I am almost 72 years old, am a little crippled, have arthritis, etc.! However, I am now completely off medication for cholesterol (Mine is perfect!) and my medicine for hypertension has been reduced by half. (My blood pressure is perfect, too. I'm hoping my doctor will eventually take me off the medicine completely. It's hard for her to believe I can do it because I've been taking it for 22 years!) The other day I worked hard all day long, including walking on my treadmill, ironing and vacuuming and shampooing carpet. When I was finished, I was very tired, but my legs did not hurt a bit! Before I started exercising, I could only do ONE of those things per day, and only for about one hour per day! I had to rest with my feet up for the remains of the day! I also used to have spinal injections once every three months ... haven't had one since June 2010! I'd say YES, exercise (combined with the weight loss) has made my body younger and more energetic! AND, I only exercise moderately 30 - 40 minutes a day, at least three days a week (more when I can). I AM A BELIEVER IN EXERCISE!

Other things have been whirling around in my mind, too, not the least of which is my problem with focusing! There are so many things I want to accomplish / blog about, etc. my mind keeps going off on tangents – or rabbit trails, as I’ve heard them called. (I have a hard time deciding which rabbit to chase!)
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Today I am focusing on CONSISTENCY! I have set a mini goal of CONSISTENTLY STAYING WITHIN MY 1400-CALORIE LIMIT FOR 10 DAYS!

I chose 10 days as my goal because that was the limit Daniel chose when he MADE UP HIS MIND not to defile himself with the “king’s choice food or … wine.” I do not choose a veggie and water diet as he did, but I do choose the 1400 calories limit. By living within that limit, I will eats lots of fruits and veggies and drink plenty of water. My calories will be nutritious and delicious!

I will count down on my daily status report.

I HAVE MADE UP MY MIND! Here goes!

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CHATTIEGIRL 9/9/2011 8:42PM

    Hi Barbara;

I am a few years younger than you but I believe in exercise also. I was up too 5 miles a day and over 14,400 steps a day. I do cardio and strength every day but different exercises so each day is not as much. eat 5 to 12 fresh fruits and veggies every day. I just have been off the last couple of months because of chemo and then when I started to get my strength back I broke and sprained 3 toes walk my miles. I will get back to my exercise and I changed to chair exercises and there are 7 of them. So I didn't stop totally. Keep up your good work in stay healthy. God bless you always. Learn something new each day.

Smile Joyce

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SINABUNN 7/6/2011 4:33PM

    Oh, I just love it! You sound so upbeat and full of confidence!!! I just wanna hug your little neck! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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MISSFARCHROX 7/6/2011 9:07AM

    Love it!

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NOELLIEMAE 7/5/2011 7:07PM

    SUPER :)

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MELIVA 7/5/2011 2:03PM

    Great Blog!!

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HONDABLONDE 7/5/2011 1:34PM

    Love your blog! I'll be 60 in December, so no excuses for me! LOL

Congrats on much improv4ed health -- that's what I am aiming for, too!

:)
Debb

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What’s gong on here? Oh … THAT!

Thursday, June 23, 2011

What’s going on here? I have struggled from the beginning, but was always encouraged by slow changes that were good! I even thought for a while that I was truly being transformed into a self-disciplined, healthy-eating, exercising-regularly old woman who was looking younger because of my weight loss and increased energy!

PRIDE goes before a FALL!

I’ve been having too many slow changes that are destructive.Today’s reading on the scale brought me to a halt! Whoa! (WOE!) I do not want to keep going in that direction! It’s time for some self examination!

What’s gong on? SELF DECEIT! (Pride always is!)

I’ve been telling myself I don’t have time …!

Yes, I DO have time to sign on to SPARKPEOPLE!
Yes, I DO have time to TRACK EVERY BITE!
Yes, I DO KNOW IT IS AN INVESTMENT in achieving my weight-loss / life-changing goals!
Yes, I DO NEED the help / encouragement I get from reading what others are experiencing on their journey.

What to do? WHATEVERITTAKES!

Admit I cannot do it alone! I NEED SPARKPEOPLE! (Sounds like AA!)

As Steve Siebold says, I am the problem and I am the solution! It’s up to me … with help from SP! (I wrote that on a 3x5 card and put it on my mirror!)

1) Limit calories to 1400 and track every one!
2) Start drinking water earlier in the day to help me feel fuller all day and get a better night’s sleep (not having to get up so often)!
3) Thank God for my blessings, including SPARKPEOPLE!

a.Remember what Chris Downie said:

i. Pep Talk: I can change who I am by changing what I say to myself. Actually God said it first in Proverbs 23:7 and 2 Corinthians 10:5. (I am healthy and energetic!)

ii. Journal daily. I do not write as interestingly or as cleverly as others, but I need to EXPRESS MY FRUSTRATIONS & SMALL STEPS OF PROGRESS. Writing is for my benefit, not for my popularity!

iii. Streaks! Meeting small goals makes me feel better about myself. (I can go for a lot of that!)


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SLM0305 7/5/2011 12:08PM

    I LOVED your blog! Thanks for sharing a lot of things that I've been dealing with as well! I've been a SP member since August 2008 and have had too many medical set backs that have definitely set my SP goals and programs back, BUT . . . NO MORE! I take heart from thoughts & strategies so let's see where the rest of 2011 takes us! emoticon emoticon

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NOELLIEMAE 6/24/2011 2:00PM

    AHK! sometimes reality catches us off guard ;) way to recognize it and hop right back on the path! way to go chickie!

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KNASON 6/23/2011 3:03PM

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COULDA, SHOULDA, WOULDA

Saturday, February 05, 2011

I read Nancy Howard’s blog, EXCUSES GIVE US PERMISSION TO FAIL, and as I promised in my comment, I copied her blog to save to my computer and inserted my own excuses / permissions to fail that did indeed lead to “failure” (NAY! Setbacks that I have learned from!) this week:

1. Lunch w/ a friend from 1:00 -5:00 on Monday! It was great; I had not eaten much at all and had a great time with my friend! Then I ate way too much for supper and afterward! I COULDA had a great day! Instead, I blew it with SELF-INDULGENCE, thinking I could have a free-for-all with my calorie allotment the rest of the evening! LESSON: SHOULDA eaten a healthy meal to end the day and been happy for the satisfaction of emotional hunger’s being more than satisfied with friendship (instead of celebrating with so much food)!

2. Merry Maids on Tuesday. I resent their TIME at my house when I want to be alone. LESSON: SHOULDA been more THANKFUL for the work they do that I cannot do! SHOULDA been more flexible with “my time!” SHOULDA remembered that time is not mine! SHOULDA not eaten out of frustration because my schedule had been interrupted.

3. Dinner at Chili’s on Wednesday. What a menu to choose something low-calorie / healthy from! However, I COULDA had a salad! I COULDA eaten HALF of the burger and fries! I made a wrong choice. I made several wrong choices from the time I did not eat enough at lunch and left home hungry. I chose to eat a package of crackers before I got out of our subdivision. My next wrong choice was at Starbucks. I ordered vanilla scones for my granddaughter (Yeah!) and ate one before I arrived at the traffic light! By the time I ordered dinner, I had already eaten two things I “SHOULDA not” eaten. That was NO REASON! It was a very poor excuse to order poorly at Chili’s. I SHOULDA remembered Beth’s words and ORDERED SMALL! It COULDA been done! I COULDA rescued the day! LESSON: I need to remember that NOW IS THE TIME TO order small / eat right, no matter what wrong choices I have made earlier!

4. Another excuse I’ve used all week is my sleep deprivation which has been due to several different things, some avoidable, some not. I’ve learned that sleep deprivation is a major trigger for my overeating. I COULDA gotten more sleep! LESSON: Be disciplined about getting to bed before 11:00PM!

I’m paying for my “excuses” with a gain today. My heart COULD be singing with the excitement of success and the self-respect that is a result of self-discipline / self-control. It SHOULDA been! LESSON: FOCUS more on my goals; make a VISION STATEMENT; LEARN from these mistakes and don’t make them again! Remember that SMALL THINGS DONE CONSISTENTLY LEAD TO BIG CHANGES! Give myself CREDIT for doing some things right, e.g., thinking on these things and determining to learn from my mistakes and keep heading toward my goals. This is the time in my efforts to change my lifestyle that I usually decide I’m destined to be fat. That is a lie I am not going to accept anymore! I am working to see myself as a thin, healthy, energetic old woman! I am also determined to drink MORE WATER – even if it does seem that it WOULD be more efficient to pour it straight into the toilet!

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MICHAELAL33 4/19/2011 8:18PM

    I still go out to eat a lot. I have printed copies of the menus from all my favorite restaurants, that way i make the decision before i get there. At starbucks (I go every day) I order the skinny versions of three drinks, carmel macciato, vanilla latte, or cinnamon dolche. Those have about 120 cal for a grande. If I really want a treat I order the light frappichinos, 140 cal in a grande. Make sure you get enough sleep it's easier to stay on track that way.

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CHATTIEGIRL 4/11/2011 8:31PM

    Hi Barbara;

It is hard to get started but you can do it and you are learning from your mistakes. I use a dessert plate to eat instead of a dinner plate and put 1 spoon full of each item, veggie, meat, starch. No seconds and I have lost weight doing this. I eat brown rice and sweet potatoes for starch. A lot of veggies and fruit and plenty of water. Once you get you mind around I AM GONG TO DO THIS AND NOT FAIL you will win. I go to lunch with my friend and bring more then half of it home and have 2 meals out of it and because I am taking home no desserts. You can do things that are your ideals that can help you so go for it dear.

Continue to be focused on your healthy living and reach your goals. God bless and watch over you. Learn from Spark people every day.

Joyce

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NEVERORNOW 2/15/2011 9:07PM

    emoticonblog!! You've learned from your mistakes. That in itself is progress. And you are still here and more determined than ever. Breaking those habits can take a long time, but I know you (and I) are going to do it and be those feisty old women we are aiming to be. emoticon

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BIPOLARBEAR68 2/7/2011 12:59AM

    I REALLY LIKE YOUR BLOG. YOU STOPPED BY MY PAGE AND LEFT ME A NOTE OF ENCOURAGEMENT AND TOLD ME THAT YOU USED TO LIVE NEAR BY WHERE I LIVE NOW.

MY COULDA, WOULDA, SHOULDA LIST IS VERY LONG ALSO BUT I AGREE WITH THE OTHERS THAT HAVE COMMENTED ON YOUR BLOG THAT WE HAVE TO GET THERE ONE STEP AT A TIME AND THAT WE CAN AND WILL BEAT THIS. I AM GOING TO TRY TO DO YOUR SUGGESTION OF LOOKING AT IT AS JUST DOING 10 MINUTES AT A TIME. I HAVE AN EXERCISE BIKE IN MY SISTERS ROOM AND I HAVE FULL PERMISSION TO USE IT SO, I AM GOING TO START USING IT EVEN IF IT IS FOR JUST 10 MINUTES AT A TIME.

THANK YOU FOR THE ENCOURAGEMENT

CAMI

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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 2/6/2011 12:13AM

    This is a great blog, thank you for sharing! I think many of us can identify, I know I certainly can. It seems I am always at odds with myself - my desire is one thing, yet I still do the opposite. We will beat this and we will get there. You can do it!!!
Kristi

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MALEXANDER4 2/5/2011 5:33PM

    Love this blog. I know for me the coulda, woulda, shoulda, list is long. I say one thing and most generally i'm fighting myself because i'm doing something else. we will get there one step at a time.

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IS THERE A CONNECTION BETWEEN FEAR AND DESIRE?

Tuesday, November 30, 2010

When I lose a little weight, I feel so happy and self-respectful ... and also terrified that I cannot keep it off. Then I eat more to prove I can’t. I had forgotten this pattern until my recent success on SP: the joy I felt in losing ten pounds as well as the changes in my attitude about and toward myself. I was doing quite well today until I decided I wanted some leftover Halloween candy … and I was going to eat ALL I WANTED. I did NOT want to be self-disciplined; I wanted to be self-indulgent! I just ignored the joy I had felt all day yesterday (official weigh-in day) in having lost 10 pounds. (I need to lose LOTS more, but I’m starting with a small goal that I HOPE I can reach it. I admit that I am very uncertain about maintaining it, even if I make it.

This reminds me of a time forty years ago when I lost weight in TOPS. I weighed 124 pounds (I was 5’6 ½” tall) and loved all the compliments. I even discovered a latent clotheshorse in myself! My two little boys, and even the children in my Sunday School class, loved to hug me, wrapping their arms all the way around me. There was so much to be happy about being thin, but one criticism drove me to put the weight back on with a vengeance! My neighbor told me that her husband told her “not to get skinny like [me]!” I can remember standing in front of my refrigerator (with the door open) looking for something to eat and thinking, “I’ll show him I’m fat!”

This is so SICK, I’m embarrassed to write it publicly, but I’m going to with the hope that someone in SP land has some insights and helpful instruction for me. With fear and trembling ….

  
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CHATTIEGIRL 4/29/2011 10:13PM

    Hi Barbara;

I went through a lot of things but I finally decided that it was my life and how did I want to live it. I want to be in charge of me and if people give snide remarks sometimes it is because we look so great w scare them. We are new people and they don't have the old person to make them look good. Become healthy and stay with it for YOU and no one else. So when someone says something negative think back I'm doing this for ME. God bless and watch over you always. Learn from Spark people every day.

Joyce


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1LUDMILKA25 12/1/2010 10:18PM

  Barbara dear I so totally agree with MOUNTAINS2CLIMB like she said "FORGIVE YOUR SELF AND MOVE ON" We all humans, with feelings and needs and want's! emoticon
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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 12/1/2010 10:00AM

    I know I do this to myself also. I remembered recently the exact day, the exact comment that made me give up on myself and any weight loss efforts. The comment came not from a neighbor but from my husband (now EX) but it was a moment that I let define me and my body image. I'm struggling with that now, with forgiving myself and pushing past it all to find the real me. I don't have any magical answers that will make it all go away, but all I can say is keep going. Remind yourself each and every day of how wonderful success feels, and how good YOU feel when you achieve your goals. Don't let anyone, or anything stand in the way of YOU. See yourself for who you are, and see the person you want to be. When we have those moments where we make bad choices, it seems to overflow into our moods and makes us miserable. So, pick yourself up after a fall, dust yourself off, and most importantly forgive yourself and move on. Fear is a factor, the great unknown, the "what am I going to do when I get there??" but one step at a time, one answer at a time, and let's decide what's next when we get there! You can do this, you are worth it and YOU are in charge!!!
Someone suggested to me several months back placing the word "choices" in areas around my house, such as kitchen, and anywhere else I would see it, and realizing that that one word was a key. It was all about choices. Choosing to be healthy, choosing to live a new lifestyle, choosing to change my outlook and my attitude. If I choose to eat an unhealthy snack, or not exercise, it is that, MY choice. That little word helped me a great deal, as did the visual of seeing it around my house. It spoke volumes to me, reminding me that is is MY choice to get healty and MY life that I am changing and I am making these choices to please myself, no one else.
Good luck!
Kristi

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FIGHT2SURVIVE 12/1/2010 12:28AM

    I do the same thing. Why do we sabotage ourselves like that? We are our own worse enemies. I have to find a way to stop this.
Erin

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KEELYDEUS 12/1/2010 12:10AM

    I've been struggling with something similar, but don't have any answers yet. Still a lot of exploring to do, but wanted to send a hug your way.

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