Tuesday, March 29, 2011
I really do not understand my new sister-in-law. My brother was as happy as I have seen or heard him in all of his adult years when he told me that he had gotten married in January. Battling cancer, he had been more depressed than ever, but his spirits were lifted when he met a nurse who sought him out after seeing him at a party, Their relationship developed very quickly and she asked him to marry her after a 6 week romance. It is the first marriage for both of them, my brother at 63 and her at 40 something,
But there is something wrong. Almost right away, she became violent and abusive with him, then asked for a divorce. I just heard from him on his honeymoon and she is treating him coldly, refusing to be even close enough to him to hold his hand.
I cannot imagine what motivated her, but I can only believe that she went into this with intentions to hurt him. How does a nurse do this? Surely she knows what kind of hell a person battling cancer and cancer treatments goes through. Has she no human decency? I have come to believe that she is sadistic and malevolent. It makes me so sad for my brother, who only weeks ago was so happy to have her in his life, who finally saw a little joy. At the moment, he is totally crushed.
What makes people like that? I cannot imagine what would drive someone to do whatever it is she is doing.
At this point, I am hoping that he will get out of this marriage, and that she doesn't haver a special divorce hell planned for him. I am so worried for him! I wish I could take this pain away from him so he could concentrate on healing instead of being hurt worse than he was before he met her.
Monday, March 28, 2011
I had a lazy day today. I am usually so driven that when I slow down for a day, I worry about myself being a lazy bum, or as my mother used to say, a wastrel. I actively decided to take a break from working on the fairy house because I needed a shift in focus. I made a yummy batch of kale chips, cleaned the kitchen and did some laundry, but that was the extent of what I 'accomplished.'
On Saturday, I stopped at the library and checked out an Ann Perry mystery. I rarely take time for recreational reading during the school year, and when I do, mysteries are my read of choice. I like Ann Perry because I enjoy her Victorian period pieces. I also enjoy many other authors for their attention to either locale or time periods. Today was my reading day. I read the entire book, plus took a nap on the recliner with Luna in my lap, Stella by my side, and my glasses dangling off my nose.
This is the kind of day I have to fight off guilt about. It was the kind of day I desperately needed. So after some guilt ridden soul searching, I realized that I accomplished more than kale chips, a clean kitchen, and clean laundry...
I accomplished relaxation!
Luna decided to maybe move into the fairy house.
Preheat oven to 325 degrees
cut kale leaves, deveining the big vein that runs down the middle
Shake them in a bag with a little olive oil and a little seasoning
(for this batch I used a little red pepper sesame oil and garlic salt)
bake for about 10 minutes until crisp
Easy, healthy, and delicious!
Tuesday, March 22, 2011
I get overwhelmed with stress at this point in the school year. It happens every year, and this year is no exception. It is a combination of the sheer amount of work I have to do, having not had enough sun all winter, and not getting enough exercise or sleep. This is my annual time of struggling for balance and I look to my music, reading, and time with my friends to keep my stress levels under control and keep joy in my life.
While I have not been getting the exercise I wish I have, I am not unpleased with this winter's weight maintenance. My diet has been good, and although I have not shed all of the weight I gained over the holidays, for the first time in years I have been able to wear my 'summer' jeans all year round. So, in spite of a little winter gain, it has been pleasantly under control.
Now that the weather is pleasant enough for the children to want to go outside during their free time at school, they are getting enough exercise to burn off their restless behavior and I am back to having a lot more fun with them. We are planning a cooking game show after spring break. Four teams will each pick a nationality to represent and I will present them with a hat with three possible mystery ingredients in it. The mystery ingredient they choose will be the one each group has to incorporate into a dish representative of the country they have selected. The team will have to find a recipe, and prepare a meal based on their mystery ingredient. They'll have a restaurant for the rest of the school; a little culinary tour of 4 countries. Three children will be reporter/videographers for the show. The children are pumped about it. I even have cooks jackets for them to wear.
I have been working on my fairy house in tiny increments and look forward to perhaps making some noticeable progress on spring break. Right now I am painting paper clay rocks for the fireplace, chimney, and foundation. I am working for a river rock effect. This activity has been making me feel closer to my father, and also really miss him. Dad was a scenic artist for theater, tv, and movies and was excellent at special effects and faux finishes. As I work to make things realistic on a tiny scale, I feel his presence guiding me. He has given me so much, and I feel him continue to as if he were still here with me. When I took on the project of making the fairy house for my niece and granddaughters to play with at my house, I thought of it as just making something for them that they would love. I did not know I would love it so much or that it would, in some spiritual way, bring me back to my artwork and closer to my father. I don't know if that makes sense to anyone but me. Hey, Dad, I know it makes sense to you.
So maybe, just maybe, you won't think I'm a total nutcase when I tell you that I decided to enter a dollhouse contest. I don't stand a snowball's chance of winning anything, since there are a lot of experts who enter, but I am liking the challenge of it.
For the contest, everyone gets the same structure and has to come up with their own interpretation of it. This is the structure, with or without the addition on the side. I chose the one with the addition on the left side.
Shhhhhhh.... it's supposed to be secret until the deadline...
The minute I saw it, I saw the Inn where the hobbits met Strider for the first time with the Ring Wraiths hot on their little hobbit heels. My plan is to build this into the old Inn on the other side of Hobbiton, the addition the stall for travelers horses, plus the whole scene - characters and all.
Win or not, I see this as a great addition to the scholarship auction fundraiser next fall.
This is a sign of addiction isn't it? Finding rationalizations?
I have gone from ordering one house to build this past December, to having 3 more waiting in the sidelines. At least, Mike is glad that I am not becoming Crazy Cat Lady...
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