Wednesday, October 20, 2010
Well today is October 20, 2010. Hmmm I am starting again.
I am not sure I ever quit but since the last blog I think I may have just taken a lapse from the Spark. I still did my calories & logged but just not here. I thought I would find the alternative route, find out what I was doing wrong. So I bought the BodyBugg (which by the way if anyone wants it, it is for sale, sparkmail me for info - $200 for all of it). This told me when I exercised and when I entered my calories there was this deficit. Okay so that told me one thing. I am not doing anything wrong. That told me there had to be something wrong. So off to the doctor I went, checking everything and anything, from Diabetes, to Thyroid, to the whole ball of wax. Everything for the most part came back okay. The rest you don't want to know about. ;)
So then I guess I needed to look at what I was eating. Hmmm, was I totally being honest of what I put in my trap? Was I measuring correctly? Was I counting the cup and a half of something has a cup? So I started making sure I was following to the "T" has I had done before. And sure enough it works. The weight can come off if you are totally honest to yourself. You know what I put on paper may look good but it is not helping me one bit.
Now I guess I need to get with this sciatica nerve problem I got going on. I am currently trying acupuncture and it seems to be working. I am glad for that. For the 4+ months that I have not been to the gym is killing me. It was part of me. It is just what I did every morning at 5:30, went to the gym. I did still get up at that time and try to get myself back to sleep. I was still having that urge to just go, but then I would hear my doc's voice telling me that you will just injure yourself more and become immobile. Well that my friends was not an option! That would drive me bonkers! Me not move, no way. So I listened and stayed away. That was when I got the bodybugg so I could keep track of what I was doing. And it worked. So time to move on.
Back to SparkPeople I come. Back to day by day. Back to friends & support. I am back to be here for yours also. I thank those that have stuck by me even when I was not here to cheer you on or help you in your low point. I was having mine. I was feeling terrible about not going to the gym. Not being active at this point. I am though hoping that my sciatica will be cleared by the acupuncturist so I can go again starting first of the year. That is my goal.
So anyway I am posting this blog on Oct. 20, 2010. To be the day to begin my quest, my journey back into weight loss & healthy me. Please join me.
Barb aka Puckygirl
PS if anyone has any other suggestions about exercising without irritating the sciatica or any similar problems let me know how you deal with it & exercise. Thanks in advance.
Thank you SparkPeople for being here for all of us. Making us friends & almost like family. Also thank you to my AP Jenn for helping me through everything I have been through in 4+ months.
Monday, August 23, 2010
Wow Thanks everyone. Not sure how this happened, but I am overwhelmed and almost extremely in tears.
I have been in a bad way lately, I have almost given up.
But not completely. Not yet. I am watching my calories, but not exercising, and that hurts. Hurts me. A few weeks back I was told by my doctor that there would be no more exercising until my back stops hurting or the constant pain goes away. Or if I can come up with exercises that I can do without it hurting. I have also found out that I have very weak abdominal muscles. Well that one took me by a big whack in the face. I have been doing crunches & ab pullups, etc. Me, weak ab muscles? How? But anyway to make it this far and have this be told to you by a doctor is enough to put the brakes on and totally throw in the towel.
I have made myself literally sick thinking about this and trying to figure out what to do. But now matter what I do my back hurts. i can't even walk. She did mention walking in water. But where I live that is $4 and hour. A little too much money to fork out right now. So I have been like giving up any hope until maybe after back surgery before I can get on track with things again.
But when I opened my email this afternoon and seen the sparkgoodies & the well wishes, it really helped open up my eyes that someone, somewhere is aware of my accomplishments. WOO HOO But for this brief minute I was very happy & overhwhelmed. Thank you so much.
Now back to reality of back pain & pain meds. But I do ask if any of you that read this can in any way help me get back on track with some form of exercises that would not use the back or hip muscles please let me know. thanks in advance
AND AGAIN THANK YOU ALL FOR MAKING ME SMALL STEPPER OF THE DAY.
Thursday, June 03, 2010
“Stop the self deprivation! The pity parties end today! If you're here...if you're reading this...you've taken the first step. So stop feeling sorry for yourself, because...YOU ARE WORTH IT!!!”
I think this is a kick in the pants, but I also think it’s a more positive approach in delivering that kick. Do you agree?
I’m just having a difficult time right now with excuse making. I’m really struggling between the kicks and pats. I’m really struggling with that fine line between showing support and enabling. Are you feeling me?
I hope this puts a better slant on what I’m trying to say to people. I’m trying to be helpful and sensitive to beginners…but people farther along, like me, need that timely kick in the pants.We need to stop making excuses. We need to stop feeling sorry for ourselves. We need to stop saying… “I blew it today so I’ll start again tomorrow.” Or, “I stumbled last night and had a bowl of ice cream because the kids were too difficult to deal with.” Or one I like to use being a caregiver… “Dad was just way too difficult today. I need a can of Coke and a bag of chips. That’ll help me deal with it.”
Those are nothing but excuses my friends! Those of us who are farther along know better than that. We should have the discipline to wait…to take a deep breath…to take a pause…to drink a glass of ice cold water…to let the craving pass. We have to… because when we slip like that, what did it accomplish? We just sacrificed what we wanted most for what we wanted at the moment. There are going to be tons of those moments in our lives. What happens if we give in every time? That’s right…we’re right back off the wagon. Face it friends, it’ll be much easier to give in the second, third, and fourth time if we give in the first time.
And here’s the main point I’m trying to make. When we veterans get on here and post those messages that ask for sympathy, we need someone who cares enough to let us have it right between the horns. We don’t need someone saying… “Oh, it’ll be alright. So you slipped up once. At least you stopped it right there. Tomorrow is a new day, just start over again.” To me, that’s being an enabler. I won’t do that anymore! And I don’t want people to do that to me either! Mollycoddling someone who knows better is not helping them at all. I was mollycoddled way too much in my earlier attempts at weight loss and look where it got me…on the old yo-yo train. That Master Chief I spoke of earlier didn’t mollycoddle. He knew it was a matter of life and death and he had to be tough. Obesity is a matter of life and death too and I’m so thankful to the special people who gave me “Tough Love”. Do you know why? Because I am worth it! And so are you!
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