Wednesday, July 07, 2010
I can start over at any time. Is this an excuse to do badly or a motivational tool to stay on track. Well today it is motivation for me. This past weekend I actualy walked several times, I painted, and I did without bread. My diet continues to improve but I am not loosing weight. Who cares, I feel better emotionally. I walked through the pain and did not have a single asthma attack. God is Good.
I plan to continue on this course of action and yes I expect to falter but today is always a new day so I can start over at any time. I have known this a long time but get caught up in my pitty party celebrations and forget. Fortunately I have a short term memory problem and usually forget to celebrate.
Work is going as expected, no promotion, no raise, no recognition except 180 days perfect attendance. At least I can do that well. Maybe I need to track the rest of my life to see how well I am doing. I should love my life as much as I love my work, I suppose. Gonna talk to psychiatrist about things that have been bothering me, memory loss. Well that's another blog. I have a lot of things I need to deal with cause I'm telling you they can make you sick. It's time to get well, holistically.
I do not know if anything I write makes sense or helps anyone but healing comes from within and I feel secure in saying, this website may have saved my life. Just because we appear to have it all together does not allow for the grief we hold inside.
Hope you had a wonderful 4th, love your family and be kind to yourself as you do those around you.
Gina from Tennessee
Thursday, June 24, 2010
Well, what happens if you only eat when you are truely hungry?? I gave it a week. I have learned if I eat when I get hungry instead of eating at regular intervals, I feel full faster so I eat less. Problem is I have also had some health issues flair up this week so I will need to give it another try after I am feeling better. Haven't really consumed enough calories this week when working so many hours.
Turns out an autoimmune disease makes you feel bad, often. Who knew. I get tired of saying " no I don't feel ok, I really feel bad" so please stop asking. Never mind, I am just lashing out. I don't know what to do. Sometimes it is all I can do to get through the day.
Have an interested buyer for the house at the worst time. Tryin to buy a house for youngest daughter, almost time for grandson's delivery, trying to get mom and dad in a liveable house, and interviewed for a new position at work. Not a good time for anything new. I want to go back to bed.
Hope I am not boring you, life gets complicated sometimes. We do our best and hope for the best. I am so happy to have a safe place to go, vent, feel better, feel loved. OH, I am looking for a new happy song, any suggestions??
G from Tennessee
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