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I Had a non alcoholic Pina Colada & Frozen Yogurt *gasp*

Saturday, November 12, 2011

I should feel awful but I don't. I probably stayed within 100 of my daily alloted calories. I don't feel awful but I do feel a little uncomfortable about it. Actually, I feel disgusted with myself. This is how my "going off the wagon" usually starts. I give in to a craving and then convince myself a little won't hurt, but it does. I'm addicted to food. There are certain trigger foods I know to stay away from. Frozen yogurt (nonfat at that) put a good 20 lbs on me last year.

I know what caused me to do it and I'm commited to eating healthy once more. I had spent the prior night in the emergency room. Got 4 hours sleep and then off to another emergency room where we waited and waited and waited. I got very hungry. My dinner was about 2 ounces of frozen yogurt, half a bag of pretzels and a pina colada smoothie. Absolute deliciousness.

Boredom, stress and anxiety have always triggered me to eat.

I started having the insane "you deserve it after what you're going through" talk with myself. So ridiculous. I deserve to lose the weight I've put on and start feeling good about myself again.

Temporary insanity.

I'm happy to say the Pina Colada didn't start a binge and I'm back on track with my eating.

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SNOWANGELDIVA 11/12/2011 7:14PM

    Can I be selfish and be admittedly transparent with how timely your vlog is?
My 'going-of-the-wagon-start' is my mother's icing and it's cake time around here. My excuse's "okay' because it's birthdays. Like it takes her 1000 calorie 200% fattening icing right to 0 cal?!!
Like a friend on my feed said tonight when I mentioned my binge...first step is admitting...
My next steps were OWNING and ACTION.
Like you outlined in your blog the reasons for you are: to let go of the weight and start feeling good about yourself again.
YOU ARE WORTH the care.
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Halloween Growing Up

Monday, October 31, 2011

I was sitting here thinking about all the candy I love and how much I loved Halloween. There was this one house where you had to go inside-try that nowadays. The owner took your picture with a polaroid, gave you cider and donuts while you were there and then as your parting trick or treat gift, gave you a toothbrush. They were dentists. We had another dentist on our trick or treat route. The house was at the top of a long driveway. I went there one year and never went again. Guess what they gave out? TOOTHBRUSHES!!!

Favorites: sweet tarts, houses that gave out little bags filled with an assortment of candy, three muskateers, TURKISH TAFFY (nom nom), anything sour. I'm fixating on turkish taffy. Vanilla was my favorite. You could freeze it then smash the heck out of it but I didn't like it that way.

Okay, I've got to go do something that'll keep my mind off sweet delicious fattening things.

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BUTEAFULL 11/1/2011 10:18AM

    the house we didn't go back to...was the one that scooped loose popcorn into your bag...yuck
we knew which homes would give you the whole candy bars too not the little ones, snickers are still my favorite

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NAVYMOM133 11/1/2011 8:15AM

    Sweet tarts are my all-time fave! We don't get kids due to a very long driveway that disappears into the woods. In any case, they "postponed" trick or treat till Friday due to the Nor'easter!
So glad I don't have any candy in the house. Did enough damage last weekend... sigh, I'll figure this out yet!

Have a great day.

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Monday, October 17, 2011

I know I need to exercise more. I know I need to exercise period. But either I'm just plain lazy, in a funk or have something I perceive to be better to do.

Sunday, I just couldn't escape it. I was at an event that shuttled you from the parking lot to the event-about a mile. I had to leave early and the shuttle wasn't running. I had to walk back to the parking lot.

The walk was lovely. I couldn't have asked for a better walking environment. It was on a hilly, windy, wooded road with lots of little streams. I was either walking uphill or downhill.

Today I'm dying.

Not sure if I'm stiff from the walk or from driving 5 hours or maybe both.

I know if I walked more I wouldn't be hurting. I know I enjoy myself when I'm walking. Still, I procrastinate.

It was worth the pain. Such a beautiful walk. emoticon

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PRESENT4LIFE 10/23/2011 10:09AM

    I love when exercise just surprisingly fits into your day unexpectedly! The other day when I had the kids Halloween Party, we were playing a game of switch. Where I was bending down and putting note pad paper on the floor and picking them up every few seconds as the kids ran to get a spot, before they get aliminated. I didn't realize I was exercising till I felt my knees start to burn and I thought (oh God this is hard!) two day's later.. my legs above my knees still hurt, especially trying to go up and down the stairs.... ouch!!

If it wasn't for that game, I would never think or want to do that kind of exercise! A surprise workout is great! Glad you got to walk and enjoy it! Hope there's more of those in your future =)

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SNOWANGELDIVA 10/22/2011 7:00PM

    Walking is my favourite exercise. I haven't walked in weeks...blech, this weather. Blech, I say!
Blame the stiff on the driving. I had numb bum for hours from a drive last week.
Driving is evil.

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FITJEANS 10/22/2011 1:31PM

    Love ur positvity. Yes u are rite it is def worth the pain because we know the benefits. lol im not happy if im not feeling the pain, because if your feeling the pain then you know that its working. Woo hoo kuddles to you !

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OMG I took a walk today

Sunday, October 02, 2011

I've been on this program for 20 days. I keep thinking about exercise and what I'm going to do when.... There's yoga, walking, and maybe joining a gym for a recumbent bike.

Today, I took the boys emoticon for a 20 minute walk. It felt good to be out and it felt good to move.

I love to walk. I used to walk around a cranberry bog every day. But my motivation has left me. I think alot of it has to do with self esteem and feeling "good enough". I want to lose weight for a number of reasons. Vanity is at the top or pretty near it. I know exercise will help me reach this goal quicker and help me get stronger.

I think I've become lazy! Liar....I am lazy. Admitting this is the first step to change, yes? I've also been depressed. The depression coincides with me gaining all this weight too. So does the lazines and the fact I stopped caring.

But I do care now. Let's see if I can motivate myself to go walk again.

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NAVYMOM133 10/4/2011 8:04AM

    AWESOME job getting out there and walking with your pals. I'll bet they enjoyed the time as much as you did!
Sometimes, the threshold to getting out there is steep. Depression can be debilitating, but you got out there!! emoticon I hope the sun shone down on your shoulders and face, and the smiling pups on their walk reinforced the great feeling!

Try it again soon!!! emoticon Way to GO!!!

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ANEPANALIPTI 10/3/2011 9:14PM

    Thanks for ur support girl! I loved ur art journal idea, i got some paints today. emoticon

We got this emoticon

U can do it!

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ASHEARS 10/2/2011 10:32PM

    Motivating yourself to work out is really difficult! Well, at least for me it is. I find it is a lot better if I do it first thing in the morning. That way I don't have time to make up excuses for not doing it later in the day. It also makes me feel great the rest of the day. However, it is still hard for me to get going in the mornings. I also suffer from depression and recently had to go off my meds for a few days (no $$ to refill prescription). That has really thrown me for a loop. I feel your pain and I hope we can both find the motivation to get up and move!

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MAVERICK59 10/2/2011 6:17PM

    I have been there. I know you can do this. One day at a time. Good luck.

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Fiber Bars as Meal Replacement? Uh, Uh

Tuesday, September 27, 2011

Since starting my healthy eating journey two weeks ago, I've been on the lookout for things to fill me up. Fiber is my friend. It helps me to not get hungry between meals and that's a good thing.

I travel a bit for work. In order to eat well, I will bring food with me rather than eat at a restaurant. THere are times, however, when I'm stuck. For these times, I have been looking at energy/power/high protein bars. emoticon I'm shocked (and disappointed) at how many calories are in those little bars!

Back to fiber. I did a google search and found a number of bars that are high in fiber and "low" in calories. Ordered myself a few and tried one today for lunch.

150 calories, 13 gm fiber and 4 gm protein and sugar. I knew by my last bite it wasn't going to cut it as a meal replacement. While I wasn't hungry, I knew I would be soon. And I was. Now, that's all I ate for lunch. I could have had yogurt mid afternoon, but I didn't cuz I wanted to see how long it would take for me to be hungry.

Not sure how people trying to lose weight can incorporate energy bars into their diet as a meal. Too high in calories and I bet not very filling. While the fiber bars are lower in calorie, they're still not real filling.


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DEE107 9/27/2011 6:14PM

    fiber bars are great for snacks but replacement bars are different and you are watch under doctors care too .. good luck in finding a fast fix for lunch

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